CHAPTER IX
“You must not come.” Had Cynthia made the prohibition strong enough? Ought she not to have said, “If you do come, I will not see you?” Her knowledge of the motives of the men and women in the greater world was largely confined to that which she had gathered from novels—not trashy novels, but those by standard authors of English life. And many another girl of nineteen has taken a novel for a guide when she has been suddenly confronted with the first great problem outside of her experience. Somebody has declared that there are only seven plots in the world. There are many parallels in English literature to Cynthia's position,—so far as she was able to define that position,—the wealthy young peer, the parson's or physician's daughter, and the worldly, inexorable parents who had other plans.
Cynthia was, of course, foolish. She would not look ahead, yet there was the mirage in the sky when she allowed herself to dream. It can truthfully be said that she was not in love with Bob Worthington. She felt, rather than knew, that if love came to her the feeling she had for Jethro Bass—strong though that was—would be as nothing to it. The girl felt the intensity of her nature, and shrank from it when her thoughts ran that way, for it frightened her.
“Mrs. Merrill” she said, a few days later, when she found herself alone with that lady, “you once told me you would have no objection if a friend came to see me here.”
“None whatever, my dear,” answered Mrs. Merrill. “I have asked you to have your friends here.”
Mrs. Merrill knew that a young man had called on Cynthia. The girls had discussed the event excitedly, had teased Cynthia about it; they had discovered, moreover, that the young man had not been a tiller of the soil or a clerk in a country store. Ellen, with the enthusiasm of her race, had painted him in glowing colors—but she had neglected to read the name on his card.
“Bob Worthington came to see me last week, and he wants to come again. He lives in Brampton,” Cynthia explained, “and is at Harvard College.”
Mrs. Merrill was decidedly surprised. She went on with her sewing, however, and did not betray the fact. She knew of Dudley Worthington as one of the richest and most important men in his state; she had heard her husband speak of him often; but she had never meddled with politics and railroad affairs.
“By all means let him come, Cynthia,” she replied.
When Mr. Merrill got home that evening she spoke of the matter to him.
“Cynthia is a strange character,” she said. “Sometimes I can't understand her—she seems so much older than our girls, Stephen. Think of her keeping this to herself for four days!”
Mr. Merrill laughed, but he went off to a little writing room he had and sat for a long time looking into the glowing coals. Then he laughed again. Mr. Merrill was a philosopher. After all, he could not forbid Dudley Worthington's son coming to his house, nor did he wish to.
That same evening Cynthia wrote a letter and posted it. She found it a very difficult letter to write, and almost as difficult to drop into the mail-box. She reflected that the holidays were close at hand, and then he would go to Brampton and forget, even as he had forgotten before. And she determined when Wednesday afternoon came around that she would take a long walk in the direction of Brookline. Cynthia loved these walks, for she sadly missed the country air,—and they had kept the color in her cheeks and the courage in her heart that winter. She had amazed the Merrill girls by the distances she covered, and on more than one occasion she had trudged many miles to a spot from which there was a view of Blue Hills. They reminded her faintly of Coniston.
Who can speak or write with any certainty of the feminine character, or declare what unexpected twists perversity and curiosity may give to it? Wednesday afternoon came, and Cynthia did not go to Brookline. She put on her coat, and took it off again. Would he dare to come in the face of the mandate he had received? If he did come, she wouldn't see him. Ellen had received her orders.
At four o'clock the doorbell rang, and shortly thereafter Ellen appeared, simpering and apologetic enough, with a card. She had taken the trouble to read it this time. Cynthia was angry, or thought she was, and her cheeks were very red.
“I told you to excuse me, Ellen. Why did you let him in?”
“Miss Cynthia, darlin',” said Ellen, “if it was made of flint I was, wouldn't he bring the tears out of me with his wheedlin' an' coaxin'? An' him such a fine young gintleman! And whin he took to commandin' like, sure I couldn't say no to him at all at all. 'Take the card to her, Ellen,' he says—didn't he know me name!—'an' if she says she won't see me, thin I won't trouble her more.' Thim were his words, Miss.”
There he was before the fire, his feet slightly apart and his hands in his pockets, waiting for her. She got a glimpse of him standing thus, as she came down the stairs. It was not the attitude of a culprit. Nor did he bear the faintest resemblance to a culprit as he came up to her in the doorway. The chief recollection she carried away of that moment was that his teeth were very white and even when he smiled. He had the impudence to smile. He had the impudence to seize one of her hands in his, and to hold aloft a sheet of paper in the other.
“What does this mean?” said he.
“What do you thick it means?” retorted Cynthia, with dignity.
“A summons to stay away,” said Bob, thereby more or less accurately describing it. “What would you have thought of me if I had not come?”
Cynthia was not prepared for any such question as this. She had meant to ask the questions herself. But she never lacked for words to protect herself.
“I'll tell you what I think of you for coming, Bob, for insisting upon seeing me as you did,” she said, remembering with shame Ellen's account of that proceeding. “It was very unkind and very thoughtless of you.”
“Unkind?” Thus she succeeded in putting him on the defensive.
“Yes, unkind, because I know it is best for you not to come to see me, and you know it, and yet you will not help me when I try to do what is right. I shall be blamed for these visits,” she said. The young ladies in the novels always were. But it was a serious matter for poor Cynthia, and her voice trembled a little. Her troubles seemed very real.
“Who will blame you?” asked Bob, though he knew well enough. Then he added, seeing that she did not answer: “I don't at all agree with you that it is best for me not to see you. I know of nobody in the world it does me more good to see than yourself. Let's sit down and talk it all over,” he said, for she still remained standing uncompromisingly by the door.
The suspicion of a smile came over Cynthia's face. She remembered how Ellen had been wheedled. Her instinct told her that now was the time to make a stand or never.
“It wouldn't do any good, Bob,” she replied, shaking her head; “we talked it all over last week.”
“Not at all,” said he, “we only touched upon a few points last week. We ought to thrash it out. Various aspects of the matter have occurred to me which I ought to call to your attention.”
He could not avoid this bantering tone, but she saw that he was very much in earnest too. He realized the necessity of winning; likewise, and he had got in and meant to stay.
“I don't want to argue,” said Cynthia. “I've thought it all out.”
“So have I,” said Bob. “I haven't thought of anything else, to speak of. And by the way,” he declared, shaking the envelope, “I never got a colder and more formal letter in my life. You must have taken it from one of Miss Sadler's copy books.”
“I'm sorry I haven't been able to equal the warmth of your other correspondents,” said Cynthia, smiling at the mention of Miss Sadler.
“You've got a good many degrees yet to go,” he replied.
“I have no idea of doing so,” said Cynthia.
If Cynthia had lured him there, and had carefully thought out a plan of fanning his admiration into a flame, she could not have done better than to stand obstinately by the door. Nothing appeals to a man like resistance—resistance for a principle appealed to Bob, although he did not care a fig about that particular principle. In his former dealings with young women—and they had not been few—the son of Dudley Worthington had encountered no resistance worth the mentioning. He looked at the girl before him, and his blood leaped at the thought of a conquest over her. She was often demure, but behind that demureness was firmness: she was mistress of herself, and yet possessed a marvellous vitality.
“And now,” said Cynthia, “don't you think you had better go?”
Go! He laughed outright. Never! He would sit down under that fortress, and some day he meant to scale the walls. Like John Paul Jones, he had not yet begun to fight. But he did not sit down just yet, because Cynthia remained standing.
“I'm here now,” he said, “what's the good of going away? I might as well stay the rest of the afternoon.”
“You will find a photograph album on the table,” said Cynthia, “with pictures of all the Merrill family and their friends and relations.”
In spite of the threat this remark conveyed, he could not help laughing at it. Mrs. Merrill in her sitting room heard the laugh, and felt that she would like Bob Worthington.
“It's a heavy album, Cynthia,” he said; “perhaps you would hold up one side of it.”
It was Cynthia's turn to laugh. She could not decide whether he were a man or a boy. Sometimes, she had to admit, he was very much of a man.
“Where are you going?” he cried.
“Upstairs, of course,” she answered.
This was really alarming. But fate thrust a final weapon into his hands.
“All right,” said he, “I'll look at the album. What time does Mr. Merrill get home?”
“About six,” answered Cynthia. “Why?”
“When he comes,” said Bob, “I shall put on my most disconsolate expression. He'll ask me what I'm doing, and I'll tell him you went upstairs at half-past four and haven't come down. He'll sympathize, I'll bet anything.”
Whether Bob were really capable of doing this, Cynthia could not tell. She believed he was. Perhaps she really did not intend to go upstairs just then. To his intense relief she seated herself on a straight-backed chair near the door, although she had the air of being about to get up again at any minute. It was not a surrender, not at all—but a parley, at least.
“I really want to talk to you seriously, Bob,” she said, and her voice was serious. “I like you very much—I always have—and I want you to listen seriously. All of us have friends. Some people—you, for instance—have a great many. We have but one father.” Her voice failed a little at the word. “No friend can ever be the same to you as your father, and no friendship can make up what his displeasure will cost you. I do not mean to say that I shan't always be your friend, for I shall be.”
Young men seldom arrive at maturity by gradual steps—something sets them thinking, a week passes, and suddenly the world has a different aspect. Bob had thought much of his father during that week, and had considered their relationship very carefully. He had a few precious memories of his mother before she had been laid to rest under that hideous and pretentious monument in the Brampton hill cemetery. How unlike her was that monument! Even as a young boy, when on occasions he had wandered into the cemetery, he used to stand before it with a lump in his throat and bitter resentment in his heart, and once he had shaken his fist at it. He had grown up out of sympathy with his father, but he had never until now began to analyze the reasons for it. His father had given him everything except that communion of which Cynthia spoke so feelingly. Mr. Worthington had acted according to his lights: of all the people in the world he thought first of his son. But his thoughts and care had been alone of what the son would be to the world: how that son would carry on the wealth and greatness of Isaac D. Worthington.
Bob had known this before, but it had had no such significance for him then as now. He was by no means lacking in shrewdness, and as he had grown older he had perceived clearly enough Mr. Worthington's reasons for throwing him socially with the Duncans. Mr. Worthington had never been a plain-spoken man, but he had as much as told his son that it was decreed that he should marry the heiress of the state. There were other plans connected with this. Mr. Worthington meant that his son should eventually own the state itself, for he saw that the man who controlled the highways of a state could snap his fingers at governor and council and legislature and judiciary: could, indeed, do more—could own them even more completely than Jethro Bass now owned them, and without effort. The dividends would do the work: would canvass the counties and persuade this man and that with sufficient eloquence. By such tokens it will be seen that Isaac D. Worthington is destined to become great, though the greatness will be akin to that possessed by those gentlemen who in past ages had built castles across the highway between Venice and the North Sea. All this was in store for Bob Worthington, if he could only be brought to see it. These things would be given him, if he would but confine his worship to the god of wealth.
We are running ahead, however, of Bob's reflections in Mr. Merrill's parlor in Mount Vernon Street, and the ceremony of showing him the cities of his world from Brampton hill was yet to be gone through. Bob knew his father's plans only in a general way, but in the past week he had come to know his father with a fair amount of thoroughness. If Isaac D. Worthington had but chosen a worldly wife, he might have had a more worldly son. As it was, Bob's thoughts were a little bitter when Cynthia spoke of his father, and he tried to think instead what his mother would have him do. He could not, indeed, speak of Mr. Worthington's shortcomings as he understood them, but he answered Cynthia vigorously enough—even if his words were not as serious as she desired.
“I tell you I am old enough to judge for myself, Cynthia,” said he, “and I intend to judge for myself. I don't pretend to be a paragon of virtue, but I have a kind of a conscience which tells me when I am doing wrong, if I listen to it. I have not always listened to it. It tells me I'm doing right now, and I mean to listen to it.”
Cynthia could not but think there was very little self-denial attached to this. Men are not given largely to self-denial.
“It is easy enough to listen to your conscience when you think it impels you to do that which you want to do, Bob,” she answered, laughing at his argument in spite of herself.
“Are you wicked?” he demanded abruptly.
“Why, no, I don't think I am,” said Cynthia, taken aback. But she corrected herself swiftly, perceiving his bent. “I should be doing wrong to let you come here.”
He ignored the qualification.
“Are you vain and frivolous?”
She remembered that she had looked in the glass before she had come down to him, and bit her lip.
“Are you given over to idle pursuits, to leading young men from their occupations and duties?”
“If you've come here to recite the Blue Laws,” said she, laughing again, “I have something better to do than to listen to them.”
“Cynthia,” he cried, “I'll tell you what you are. I'll draw your character for you, and then, if you can give me one good reason why I should not associate with you, I'll go away and never come back.”
“That's all very well,” said Cynthia, “but suppose I don't admit your qualifications for drawing my character. And I don't admit them, not for a minute.”
“I will draw it,” said he, standing up in front of her. “Oh, confound it!”
This exclamation, astonishing and out of place as it was, was caused by a ring at the doorbell. The ring was followed by a whispering and giggling in the hall, and then by the entrance of the Misses Merrill into the parlor. Curiosity had been too strong for them. Susan was human, and here was the opportunity for a little revenge. In justice to her, she meant the revenge to be very slight.
“Well, Cynthia, you should have come to the concert,” she said; “it was fine, wasn't it, Jane? Is this Mr. Worthington? How do you do. I'm Miss Susan Merrill, and this is Miss Jane Merrill.” Susan only intended to stay a minute, but how was Bob to know that? She was tempted into staying longer. Bob lighted the gas, and she inspected him and approved. Her approval increased when he began to talk to her in his bantering way, as if he had known her always. Then, when she was fully intending to go, he rose to take his leave.
“I'm awfully glad to have met you at last,” he said to Susan, “I've heard so much about you.” His leave-taking of Jane was less effusive, and then he turned to Cynthia and took her hand. “I'm going to Brampton on Friday,” he said, “for the holidays. I wish you were going.”
“We couldn't think of letting her go, Mr. Worthington,” cried Susan, for the thought of the hills had made Cynthia incapable of answering. “We're only to have her for one short winter, you know.”
“Yes, I know,” said Mr. Worthington, gravely. “I'll see old Ephraim, and tell him you're well, and what a marvel of learning, you've become. And—and I'll go to Coniston if that will please you.”
“Oh, no, Bob, you mustn't do anything of the kind,” answered Cynthia, trying to keep back the tears. “I—I write to Uncle Jethro very often. Good-by. I hope you will enjoy your holidays.”
“I'm coming to see you the minute I get back and tell you all about everybody,” said he.
How was she to forbid him to come before Susan and Jane! She could only be silent.
“Do come, Mr. Worthington,” said Susan, warmly, wondering at Cynthia's coldness and, indeed, misinterpreting it. “I am sure she will be glad to see you. And we shall always make you welcome, at any rate.”
As soon as he was out of the door, Susan became very repentant, and slipped her hand about Cynthia's waist.
“We shouldn't have come in at all if we had known he would go so soon, indeed we shouldn't, Cynthia.” And seeing that Cynthia was still silent, she added: “I wouldn't do such a mean thing, Cynthia, I really wouldn't. Won't you believe me and forgive me?”
Cynthia scarcely heard her at first. She was thinking of Coniston mountain, and how the sun had just set behind it. The mountain would be ultramarine against the white fields, and the snow on the hill pastures to the east stained red as with wine. What would she not have given to be going back to-morrow—yes, with Bob. She confessed—though startled by the very boldness of the thought—that she would like to be going there with Bob. Susan's appeal brought her back to Boston and the gas-lit parlor.
“Forgive you, Susan! There's nothing to forgive. I wanted him to go.”
“You wanted him to go?” repeated Susan, amazed. She may be pardoned if she did not believe this, but a glance at Cynthia's face scarcely left a room for doubt. “Cynthia Wetherell, you're the strangest girl I've ever known in all my life. If I had a—a friend” (Susan had another word on her tongue) “if I had such a friend as Mr. Worthington, I shouldn't be in a hurry to let him leave me. Of course,” she added, “I shouldn't let him know it.”
Cynthia's heart was very heavy during the next few days, heavier by far than her friends in Mount Vernon Street imagined. They had grown to love her almost as one of themselves, and because of the sympathy which comes of such love they guessed that her thoughts would be turning homeward at Christmastide. At school she had listened, perforce, to the festival plans of thirty girls of her own age; to accounts of the probable presents they were to receive, the cost of some of which would support a family in Coniston for several months; to arrangements for visits, during which there were to be theatre-parties and dances and other gaieties. Cynthia could not help wondering, as she listened in silence to this talk, whether Uncle Jethro had done wisely in sending her to Miss Sadler's; whether she would not have been far happier if she had never known about such things.
Then came the last day of school, which began with leave-takings and embraces. There were not many who embraced Cynthia, though, had she known it, this was largely her own fault. Poor Cynthia! how was she to know it? Many more of them than she imagined would have liked to embrace her had they believed that the embrace would be returned. Secretly they had grown to admire this strange, dark girl, who was too proud to bend for the good opinion of any one—even of Miss Sally Broke. Once during the term Cynthia had held some of them—in the hollow of her hand, and had incurred the severe displeasure of Miss Sadler by refusing to tell what she knew of certain mischief-makers.
Now, Miss Sadler was going about among them in the school parlor saying good-by, sending particular remembrance to such of the fathers and mothers as she thought worthy of that honor; kissing some, shaking, hands with all. It was then that a dramatic incident occurred—dramatic for a girls' school, at least. Cynthia deliberately turned her back on Miss Sadler and looked out of the window. The chatter in the room was hushed, and for a moment a dangerous wrath flamed in Miss Sadler's eyes. Then she passed on with a smile, to send most particular messages to the mother of Miss Isabel Burrage.
Some few moments afterward Cynthia felt a touch on her arm, and turned to find herself confronted by Miss Sally Broke. Unfortunately there is not much room for Miss Broke in this story, although she may appear in another one yet to be written. She was extremely good-looking, with real golden hair and mischievous blue eyes. She was, in brief, the leader of Miss Sadler's school.
“Cynthia,” she said, “I was rude to you when you first came here, and I'm sorry for it. I want to beg your pardon.” And she held out her hand.
There was a moment's suspense for those watching to see if Cynthia would take it. She did take it.
“I'm sorry, too,” said Cynthia, simply, “I couldn't see what I'd done to offend you. Perhaps you'll explain now.”
Miss Broke blushed violently, and for an instant looked decidedly uncomfortable. Then she burst into laughter,—merry, irresistible laughter that carried all before it.
“I was a snob, that's all,” said she, “just a plain, low down snob. You don't understand what that means, because you're not one.” (Cynthia did understand, ) “But I like you, and I want you to be my friend. Perhaps when I get to know you better, you will come home with me sometime for a visit.”
Go home with her for a visit to that house in Washington Square with the picture gallery!
“I want to say that I'd give my head to have been able to turn my back on Miss Sadler as you did,” continued Miss Broke; “if you ever want a friend, remember Sally Broke.”
Some of Cynthia's trouble, at least, was mitigated by this episode; and Miss Broke having led the way, Miss Broke's followers came shyly, one by one, with proffers of friendship. To the good-hearted Merrill girls the walk home that day was a kind of a triumphal march, a victory over Miss Sadler and a vindication of their friend. Mrs. Merrill, when she heard of it, could not find it in her heart to reprove Cynthia. Miss Sadler had got her just deserts. But Miss Sadler was not a person who was likely to forget such an incident. Indeed, Mrs. Merrill half expected to receive a note before the holidays ended that Cynthia's presence was no longer desired at the school. No such note came, however.
If one had to be away from home on Christmas, there could surely be no better place to spend that day than in the Merrill household. Cynthia remembers still, when that blessed season comes around, how each member of the family vied with the others to make her happy; how they showered presents on her, and how they strove to include her in the laughter and jokes at the big family dinner. Mr. Merrill's brother was there with his wife, and Mrs. Merrill's aunt and her husband, and two broods of cousins. It may be well to mention that the Merrill relations, like Sally Broke, had overcome their dislike for Cynthia.
There were eatables from Coniston on that board. A turkey sent by Jethro for which, Mr. Merrill declared, the table would have to be strengthened; a saddle of venison—Lem Hallowell having shot a deer on the mountain two Sundays before; and mince-meat made by Amanda Hatch herself. Other presents had come to Cynthia from the hills: a gorgeous copy of Mr. Longfellow's poems from Cousin Ephraim, and a gold locket from Uncle Jethro. This locket was the precise counterpart (had she but known it) of a silver one bought at Mr. Judson's shop many years before, though the inscription “Cynthy, from Uncle Jethro,” was within. Into the other side exactly fitted that daguerreotype of her mother which her father had given her when he died. The locket had a gold chain with a clasp, and Cynthia wore it hidden beneath her gown-too intimate a possession to be shown.
There was still another and very mysterious present, this being a huge box of roses, addressed to Miss Cynthia Wetherell, which was delivered on Christmas morning. If there had been a card, Susan Merrill would certainly have found it. There was no card. There was much pretended speculation on the part of the Merrill girls as to the sender, sly reference to Cynthia's heightened color, and several attempts to pin on her dress a bunch of the flowers, and Susan declared that one of them would look stunning in her hair. They were put on the dining-room table in the centre of the wreath of holly, and under the mistletoe which hung from the chandelier. Whether Cynthia surreptitiously stole one has never been discovered.
So Christmas came and went: not altogether unhappily, deferring for a day at least the knotty problems of life. Although Cynthia accepted the present of the roses with such magnificent unconcern, and would not make so much as a guess as to who sent them, Mr. Robert Worthington was frequently in her thoughts. He had declared his intention of coming to Mount Vernon Street as soon as the holidays ended, and had been cordially invited by Susan to do so. Cynthia took the trouble to procure a Harvard catalogue from the library, and discovered that he had many holidays yet to spend. She determined to write another letter, which he would find in his rooms when he returned. Just what terrible prohibitory terms she was to employ in that letter Cynthia could not decide in a moment, nor yet in a day, or a week. She went so far as to make several drafts, some of which she destroyed for the fault of leniency, and others for that of severity. What was she to say to him? She had expended her arguments to no avail. She could wound him, indeed, and at length made up her mind that this was the only resource left her, although she would thereby wound herself more deeply. When she had arrived at this decision, there remained still more than a week in which to compose the letter.
On the morning after New Year's, when the family were assembled around the breakfast table, Mrs. Merrill remarked that her husband was neglecting a custom which had been his for many years.
“Didn't the newspaper come, Stephen?” she asked.
Mr. Merrill had read it.
“Read it!” repeated his wife, in surprise, “you haven't been down long enough to read a column.”
“It was full of trash,” said Mr. Merrill, lightly, and began on his usual jokes with the girls. But Mrs. Merrill was troubled. She thought his jokes not as hearty as they were wont to be, and disquieting surmises of business worries filled her mind. The fact that he beckoned her into his writing room as soon as breakfast was over did not tend to allay her suspicions. He closed and locked the door after her, and taking the paper from a drawer in his desk bade her read a certain article in it.
The article was an arraignment of Jethro Bass—and a terrible arraignment indeed. Step by step it traced his career from the beginning, showing first of all how he had debauched his own town of Coniston; how, enlarging on the same methods, he had gradually extended his grip over the county and finally over the state; how he had bought and sold men for his own power and profit, deceived those who had trusted in him, corrupted governors and legislators, congressmen and senators, and even justices of the courts: how he had trafficked ruthlessly in the enterprises of the people. Instance upon instance was given, and men of high prominence from whom he had received bribes were named, not the least important of these being the Honorable Alva Hopkins of Gosport.
Mrs. Merrill looked up from the paper in dismay.
“It's copied from the Newcastle Guardian,” she said, for lack of immediate power to comment. “Isn't the Guardian the chief paper in that state?”
“Yes, Worthington's bought it, and he instigated the article, of course. I've been afraid of this for a long time, Carry,” said Mr. Merrill, pacing up and down. “There's a bigger fight than they've ever had coming on up there, and this is the first gun. Worthington, with Duncan behind him, is trying to get possession of and consolidate all the railroads in the western part of that state. If he succeeds, it will mean the end of Jethro's power. But he won't succeed.”
“Stephen,” said his wife, “do you mean to say that Jethro Bass will try to defeat this consolidation simply to keep his power?”
“Well, my dear,” answered Mr. Merrill, still pacing, “two wrongs don't make a right, I admit. I've known these things a long time, and I've thought about them a good deal. But I've had to run along with the tide, or give place to another man who would; and—and starve.”
Mrs. Merrill's eyes slowly filled with tears.
“Stephen,” she began, “do you mean to say—?” There she stopped, utterly unable to speak. He ceased his pacing and sat down beside her and took her hand.
“Yes, my dear, I mean to say I've submitted to these things. God knows whether I've been right or wrong, but I have. I've often thought I'd be happier if I resigned my office as president of my road and became a clerk in a store. I don't attempt to excuse myself, Carry, but my sin has been in holding on to my post. As long as I remain president I have to cope with things as I find them.”
Mr. Merrill spoke thickly, for the sight of his wife's tears wrung his heart.
“Stephen,” she said, “when we were first married and you were a district superintendent, you used to tell me everything.”
Stephen Merrill was a man, and a good man, as men go. How was he to tell her the degrees by which he had been led into his present situation? How was he to explain that these degrees had been so gradual that his conscience had had but a passing wrench here and there? Politics being what they were, progress and protection had to be obtained in accordance with them, and there was a duty to the holders of bonds and stocks.
His wife had a question on her lips, a question for which she had to summon all her courage. She chose that form for it which would hurt him least.
“Mr. Worthington is going to try to change these things?”
Mr. Merrill roused himself at the words, and his eyes flashed. He became a different man.
“Change them!” he cried bitterly, “change them for the worse, if he can. He will try to wrest the power from Jethro Bass. I don't defend him. I don't defend myself. But I like Jethro Bass. I won't deny it. He's human, and I like him, and whatever they say about him I know that he's been a true friend to me. And I tell you as I hope for happiness here and hereafter, that if Worthington succeeds in what he is trying to do, if the railroads win in this fight, there will be no mercy for the people of that state. I'm a railroad man myself, though I have no interest in this affair. My turn may come later. Will come later, I suppose. Isaac D. Worthington has a very little heart or soul or mercy himself; but the corporation which he means to set up will have none at all. It will grind the people and debase them and clog their progress a hundred times more than Jethro Bass has done. Mark my words, Carry. I'm running ahead of the times a little, but I can see it all as clearly as if it existed now.”
Mrs. Merrill went about her duties that morning with a heavy heart, and more than once she paused to wipe away a tear that would have fallen on the linen she was sorting. At eleven o'clock the doorbell rang, and Ellen appeared at the entrance to the linen closet with a card in her hand. Mrs. Merrill looked at it with a flurry of surprise. It read:—
The Woman's Hour
CHAPTER X
It was certainly affinity that led Miss Lucretia to choose the rosewood sofa of a bygone age, which was covered with horsehair. Miss Lucretia's features seemed to be constructed on a larger and more generous principle than those of women are nowadays. Her face was longer. With her curls and her bonnet and her bombazine,—which she wore in all seasons,—she was in complete harmony with the sofa. She had thrown aside the storm cloak which had become so familiar to pedestrians in certain parts of Boston.
“My dear Miss Penniman,” said Mrs. Merrill, “I am delighted and honored. I scarcely hoped for such a pleasure. I have so long admired you and your work, and I have heard Cynthia speak of you so kindly.”
“It is very good of you to say so, Mrs. Merrill” answered Miss Lucretia, in her full, deep voice. It was by no means an unpleasant voice. She settled herself, though she sat quite upright, in the geometrical centre of the horsehair sofa, and cleared her throat. “To be quite honest with you, Mrs. Merrill,” she continued, “I came upon particular errand, though I believe it would not be a perversion of the truth if I were to add that I have had for a month past every intention of paying you a friendly call.”
Good Mrs. Merrill's breath was a little taken away by this extremely scrupulous speech. She also began to feel a misgiving about the cause of the visit, but she managed to say something polite in reply.
“I have come about Cynthia,” announced Miss Lucretia, without further preliminaries.
“About Cynthia?” faltered Mrs. Merrill.
Miss Lucretia opened a reticule at her waist and drew forth a newspaper clipping, which she unfolded and handed to Mrs. Merrill.
“Have you seen this?” she demanded.
Mrs. Merrill took it, although she guessed very well what it was, glanced at it with a shudder, and handed it back.
“Yes, I have read it,” she said.
“I have come to ask you, Mrs. Merrill” said Miss Lucretia, “if it is true.”
Here was a question, indeed, for the poor lady to answer! But Mrs. Merrill was no coward.
“It is partly true, I believe.”
“Partly?” said Miss Lucretia, sharply.
“Yes, partly,” said Mrs. Merrill, rousing herself for the trial; “I have never yet seen a newspaper article which was wholly true.”
“That is because newspapers are not edited by women,” observed Miss Lucretia. “What I wish you to tell me, Mrs. Merrill, is this: how much of that article is true, and how much of it is false?”
“Really, Miss Penniman,” replied Mrs. Merrill, with spirit, “I don't see why you should expect me to know.”
“A woman should take an intelligent interest in her husband's affairs, Mrs. Merrill. I have long advocated it as an entering wedge.”
“An entering wedge!” exclaimed Mrs. Merrill, who had never read a page of the Woman's Hour.
“Yes. Your husband is the president of a railroad, I believe, which is largely in that state. I should like to ask him whether these statements are true in the main. Whether this Jethro Bass is the kind of man they declare him to be.”
Mrs. Merrill was in a worse quandary than ever. Her own spirits were none too good, and Miss Lucretia's eye, in its search for truth, seemed to pierce into her very soul. There was no evading that eye. But Mrs. Merrill did what few people would have had the courage or good sense to do.
“That is a political article, Miss Penniman,” she said, “inspired by a bitter enemy of Jethro Bass, Mr. Worthington, who has bought the newspaper from which it was copied. For that reason, I was right in saying that it is partly true. You nor I, Miss Penniman, must not be the judges of any man or woman, for we know nothing of their problems or temptations. God will judge them. We can only say that they have acted rightly or wrongly according to the light that is in us. You will find it difficult to get a judgment of Jethro Bass that is not a partisan judgment, and yet I believe that that article is in the main a history of the life of Jethro Bass. A partisan history, but still a history. He has unquestionably committed many of the acts of which he is accused.”
Here was talk to make the author of the “Hymn to Coniston” sit up, if she hadn't been sitting up already.
“And don't you condemn him for those acts?” she gasped.
“Ah,” said Mrs. Merrill, thinking of her own husband. Yesterday she would certainly have condemned. Jethro Bass. But now! “I do not condemn anybody, Miss Penniman.”
Miss Lucretia thought this extraordinary, to say the least.
“I will put the question in another way, Mrs. Merrill,” said she. “Do you think this Jethro Bass a proper guardian for Cynthia Wetherell?”
To her amazement Mrs. Merrill did not give her an instantaneous answer to this question. Mrs. Merrill was thinking of Jethro's love for the girl, manifold evidences of which she had seen, and her heart was filled with a melting pity. It was such a love, Mrs. Merrill knew, as is not given to many here below. And there was Cynthia's love for him. Mrs. Merrill had suffered that morning thinking of this tragedy also.
“I do not think he is a proper guardian for her, Miss Penniman.”
It was then that the tears came to Mrs. Merrill's eyes for there is a limit to all human endurance. The sight of these caused a remarkable change in Miss Lucretia, and she leaned forward and seized Mrs. Merrill's arm.
“My dear,” she cried, “my dear, what are we to do? Cynthia can't go back to that man. She loves him, I know, she loves him as few girls are capable of loving. But when she, finds out what he is! When she finds out how he got the money to support her father!” Miss Lucretia fumbled in her reticule and drew forth a handkerchief and brushed her own eyes—eyes which a moment ago were so piercing. “I have seen many young women,” she continued; “but I have known very few who were made of as fine a fibre and who have such principles as Cynthia Wetherell.”
“That is very true,” assented Mrs. Merrill too much cast down to be amazed by this revelation of Miss Lucretia's weakness.
“But what are we to do?” insisted that lady; “who is to tell her what he is? How is it to be kept from her, indeed?”
“Yes,” said Mrs. Merrill, “there will be more, articles. Mr. Merrill says so. It seems there is to be a great political struggle in that state.”
“Precisely,” said Miss Lucretia, sadly. “And whoever tells the girl will forfeit her friendship. I—I am very fond of her,” and here she applied again to the reticule.
“Whom would she believe?” asked Mrs. Merrill, whose estimation of Miss Lucretia was increasing by leaps and bounds.
“Precisely,” agreed Miss Lucretia. “But she must hear about it sometime.”
“Wouldn't it be better to let her hear?” suggested Mrs. Merrill; “we cannot very well soften that shock: I talked the matter over a little with Mr. Merrill, and he thinks that we must take time over it, Miss Penniman. Whatever we do, we must not act hastily.”
“Well,” said Miss Lucretia, “as I said, I am very fond of the girl, and I am willing to do my duty, whatever it may be. And I also wished to say, Mrs. Merrill, that I have thought about another matter very carefully. I am willing to provide for the girl. I am getting too old to live alone. I am getting too old, indeed, to do my work properly, as I used to do it. I should like to have her to live with me.”
“She has become as one of my own daughters,” said Mrs. Merrill. Yet she knew that this offer of Miss Lucretia's was not one to be lightly set aside, and that it might eventually be the best solution of the problem. After some further earnest discussion it was agreed between them that the matter was, if possible, to be kept from Cynthia for the present, and when Miss Lucretia departed Mrs. Merrill promised her an early return of her call.
Mrs. Merrill had another talk with her husband, which lasted far into the night. This talk was about Cynthia alone, and the sorrow which threatened her. These good people knew that it would be no light thing to break the faith of such as she, and they made her troubles their own.
Cynthia little guessed as she exchanged raillery with Mr. Merrill the next morning that he had risen fifteen minutes earlier than usual to search his newspaper through. He would read no more at breakfast, so he declared in answer to his daughters' comments; it was a bad habit which did not agree with his digestion. It was something new for Mr. Merrill to have trouble with his digestion.
There was another and scarcely less serious phase of the situation which Mr. and Mrs. Merrill had yet to discuss between them—a phase of which Miss Lucretia Penniman knew nothing.
The day before Miss Sadler's school was to reopen nearly a week before the Harvard term was to commence—a raging, wet snowstorm came charging in from the Atlantic. Snow had no terrors for a Coniston person, and Cynthia had been for her walk. Returning about five o'clock, she was surprised to have the door opened for her by Susan herself.
“What a picture you are in those furs!” she cried, with an intention which for the moment was lost upon Cynthia. “I thought you would never come. You must have walked to Dedham this time. Who do you think is here? Mr. Worthington.”
“Mr. Worthington!”
“I have been trying to entertain him, but I am afraid I have been a very poor substitute. However, I have persuaded him to stay for supper.”
“It needed but little persuasion,” said Bob, appearing in the doorway. All the snowstorms of the wide Atlantic could not have brought such color to her cheeks. Cynthia, for all her confusion at the meeting, had not lost her faculty of observation. He seemed to have changed again, even during the brief time he had been absent. His tone was grave.
“He needs to be cheered up, Cynthia,” Susan went on, as though reading her thoughts. “I have done my best, without success. He won't confess to me that he has come back to make up some of his courses. I don't mind owning that I've got to finish a theme to be handed in tomorrow.”
With these words Susan departed, and left them standing in the hall together. Bob took hold of Cynthia's jacket and helped her off with it. He could read neither pleasure nor displeasure in her face, though he searched it anxiously enough. It was she who led the way into the parlor and seated herself, as before, on one of the uncompromising, straight-backed chairs. Whatever inward tremors the surprise of this visit had given her, she looked at him clearly and steadily, completely mistress of herself, as ever.
“I thought your holidays did not end until next week,” she said.
“They do not.”
“Then why are you here?”
“Because I could not stay away, Cynthia,” he answered. It was not the manner in which he would have said it a month ago. There was a note of intense earnestness in his voice—now, and to it she could make no light reply. Confronted again with an unexpected situation, she could not decide at once upon a line of action.
“When did you leave Brampton?” she asked, to gain time. But with the words her thoughts flew to the hill country.
“This morning,” he said, “on the early train. They have three feet of snow up there.” He, too, seemed glad of a respite from something. “They're having a great fuss in Brampton about a new teacher for the village school. Miss Goddard has got married. Did you know Miss Goddard, the lanky one with the glasses?”
“Yes,” said Cynthia, beginning to be amused at the turn the conversation was taking.
“Well, they can't find anybody smart enough to replace Miss Goddard. Old Ezra Graves, who's on the prudential committee, told Ephraim they ought to get you. I was in the post-office when they were talking about it. Just see what a reputation for learning you have in Brampton!”
Cynthia was plainly pleased by the compliment.
“How is Cousin Eph?” she asked.
“Happy as a lark,” said Bob, “the greatest living authority in New England on the Civil War. He's made the post-office the most popular social club I ever saw. If anybody's missing in Brampton, you can nearly always find them in the post-office. But I smiled at the notion of your being a school ma'am.”
“I don't see anything so funny about it,” replied Cynthia, smiling too. “Why shouldn't I be? I should like it.”
“You were made for something different,” he answered quietly.
It was a subject she did not choose to discuss with him, and dropped her lashes before the plainly spoken admiration in his eyes. So a silence fell between them, broken only by the ticking of the agate clock on the mantel and the music of sleigh-bells in a distant street. Presently the sleigh-bells died away, and it seemed to Cynthia that the sound of her own heartbeats must be louder than the ticking of the clock. Her tact had suddenly deserted her; without reason, and she did not dare to glance again at Bob as he sat under the lamp. That minute—for it was a full minute—was charged with a presage which she could not grasp. Cynthia's instincts were very keen. She understood, of course, that he had cut short his holiday to come to see her, and she might have dealt with him had that been all. But—through that sixth sense with which some women are endowed—she knew that something troubled him. He, too, had never yet been at a loss for words.
The silence forced him to speak first, and he tried to restore the light tone to the conversation.
“Cousin Ephraim gave me a piece of news,” he said. “Ezra Graves got it, too. He told us you were down in Boston at a fashionable school. Cousin Ephraim knows a thing or two. He says he always callated you were cut out for a fine lady.”
“Bob,” said Cynthia, nerving herself for the ordeal, “did you tell Cousin Ephraim you had seen me?”
“I told him and Ezra that I had been a constant and welcome visitor at this house.”
“Did, you tell your father that you had seen me?”
This was too serious a question to avoid.
“No, I did not. There was no reason why I should have.”
“There was every reason,” said Cynthia, “and you know it. Did you tell him why you came to Boston to-day?”
“No.”
“Why does he think you came?”
“He doesn't think anything about it,” said Bob. “He went off to Chicago yesterday to attend a meeting of the board of directors of a western railroad.”
“And so,” she said reproachfully, “you slipped off as soon as his back was turned. I would not have believed that of you, Bob. Do you think that was fair to him or me?”
Bob Worthington sprang to his feet and stood over her. She had spoken to a boy, but she had aroused a man, and she felt an amazing thrill at the result. The muscles in his face tightened, and deepened the lines about his mouth, and a fire was lighted about his eyes.
“Cynthia,” he said slowly, “even you shall not speak to me like that. If I had believed it were right, if I had believed that it would have done any good to you or me, I should have told my father the moment I got to Brampton. In affairs of this kind—in a matter of so much importance in my life,” he continued, choosing his words carefully, “I am likely to know whether I am doing right or wrong. If my mother were alive, I am sure that she would approve of this—this friendship.”
Having got so far, he paused. Cynthia felt that she was trembling, as though the force and feeling that was in him had charged her also.
“I did not intend to come so soon,” he went on, “but—I had a reason for coming. I knew that you did not want me.”
“You know that that is not true, Bob,” she faltered. His next words brought her to her feet.
“Cynthia,” he said, in a voice shaken by the intensity of his passion, “I came because I love you better than all the world—because I always will love you so. I came to protect you, and care for you whatever happens. I did not mean to tell you so, now. But it cannot matter, Cynthia!”
He seized her, roughly indeed, in his arms, but his very roughness was a proof of the intensity of his love. For an instant she lay palpitating against him, and as long as he lives he will remember the first exquisite touch of her firm but supple figure and the marvellous communion of her lips. A current from the great store that was in her, pent up and all unknown, ran through him, and then she had struggled out of his arms and fled, leaving him standing alone in the parlor.
It is true that such things happen, and no man or woman may foretell the day or the hour thereof. Cynthia fled up the stairs, miraculously arriving unnoticed at her own room, and locked the door and flung herself on the bed.
Tears came—tears of shame, of joy, of sorrow, of rejoicing, of regret; tears that burned, and yet relieved her, tears that pained while they comforted. Had she sinned beyond the pardon of heaven, or had she committed a supreme act of right? One moment she gloried in it, and the next upbraided herself bitterly. Her heart beat with tumult, and again seemed to stop. Such, though the words but faintly describe them, were her feelings, for thoughts were still to emerge out of chaos. Love comes like a flame to few women, but so it came to Cynthia Wetherell, and burned out for a while all reason.
Only for a while. Generations which had practised self-restraint were strong in her—generations accustomed, too, to thinking out, so far as in them lay, the logical consequences of their acts; generations ashamed of these very instants when nature has chosen to take command. After a time had passed, during which the world might have shuffled from its course, Cynthia sat up in the darkness. How was she ever to face the light again? Reason had returned.
So she sat for another space, and thought of what she had done—thought with a surprising calmness now which astonished her. Then she thought of what she would do, for there was an ordeal still to be gone through. Although she shrank from it, she no longer lacked the courage to endure it. Certain facts began to stand out clearly from the confusion. The least important and most immediate of these was that she would have to face him, and incidentally face the world in the shape of the Merrill family, at supper. She rose mechanically and lighted the gas and bathed her face and changed her gown. Then she heard Susan's voice at the door.
“Cynthia, what in the world are you doing?”
Cynthia opened the door and the sisters entered. Was it possible that they did not read her terrible secret in her face? Apparently not. Susan was busy commenting on the qualities and peculiarities of Mr. Robert Worthington, and showering upon Cynthia a hundred questions which she answered she knew not how; but neither Susan nor Jane, wonderful as it may seem, betrayed any suspicion. Did he send the flowers? Cynthia had not asked him. Did he want to know whether she read the newspapers? He had asked Susan that, before Cynthia came. Susan was ready to repeat the whole of her conversation with him. Why did he seem so particular about newspapers? Had he notions that girls ought not to read them?
The significance of Bob's remarks about newspapers was lost upon Cynthia then. Not till afterward did she think of them, or connect them with his unexpected visit. Then the supper bell rang, and they went downstairs.
The reader will be spared Mr. Worthington's feelings after Cynthia left him, although they were intense enough, and absorbing and far-reaching enough. He sat down on a chair and buried his head in his hands. His impulse had been to leave the house and return again on the morrow, but he remembered that he had been asked to stay for supper, and that such a proceeding would cause comment. At length he got up and stood before the fire, his thoughts still above the clouds, and it was thus that Mr. Merrill found him when he entered.
“Good evening,” said that gentleman, genially, not knowing in the least who Bob was, but prepossessed in his favor by the way he came forward and shook his hand and looked him clearly in the eye.
“I'm Robert Worthington, Mr. Merrill” said he.
“Eh!” Mr. Merrill gasped, “eh! Oh, certainly, how do you do, Mr. Worthington?” Mr. Merrill would have been polite to a tax collector or a sheriff. He separated the office from the man, which ought not always to be done. “I'm glad to see you, Mr. Worthington. Well, well, bad storm, isn't it? I had an idea the college didn't open until next week.”
“Mr. Worthington's going to stay for supper, Papa,” said Susan, entering.
“Good!” cried Mr. Merrill. “Capital! You won't miss the old folks after supper, will you, girls? Your mother wants me to go to a whist party.”
“It can't be helped, Carry,” said Mr. Merrill to his wife, as they walked up the hill to a neighbor's that evening.
“He's in love with Cynthia,” said Mrs. Merrill, somewhat sadly; “it's as plain as the nose on your face, Stephen.”
“That isn't very plain. Suppose he is! You can dam a mountain stream, but you can't prevent it reaching the sea, as we used to say when I was a boy in Edmundton. I like Bob,” said Mr. Merrill, with his usual weakness for Christian names, “and he isn't any more like Dudley Worthington than I am. If you were to ask me, I'd say he couldn't do a better thing than marry Cynthia.”
“Stephen!” exclaimed Mrs. Merrill. But in her heart she thought so, too. “What will Mr. Worthington say when he hears the young man has been coming to our house to see her?”
Mr. Merrill had been thinking of that very thing, but with more amusement than concern.
To return to Mr. Merrill's house, the three girls and the one young man were seated around the fire, and their talk, Merrill as it had begun, was becoming minute by minute more stilted. This was largely the fault of Susan, who would not be happy until she had taken Jane upstairs and left Mr. Worthington and Cynthia together. This matter had been arranged between the sisters before supper. Susan found her opening at last, and upbraided Jane for her unfinished theme; Jane, having learned her lesson well, accused Susan. But Cynthia, who saw through the ruse, declared that both themes were finished. Susan, naturally indignant at such ingratitude, denied this. The manoeuvre, in short, was executed very clumsily and very obviously, but executed nevertheless—the sisters marching out of the room under a fire of protests. The reader, too, will no doubt think it a very obvious manoeuvre, but some things are managed badly in life as well as in books.
Cynthia and Bob were left alone: left, moreover, in mortal terror of each other. It is comparatively easy to open the door of a room and rush into a lady's arms if the lady be willing and alone. But to be abandoned, as Susan had abandoned them, and with such obvious intent, creates quite a different atmosphere. Bob had dared to hope for such an opportunity: had made up his mind during supper, while striving to be agreeable, just what he would do if the opportunity came. Instead, all he could do was to sit foolishly in his chair and look at the coals, not so much as venturing to turn his head until the sound of footsteps had died away on the upper floors. It was Cynthia who broke the silence and took command—a very different Cynthia from the girl who had thrown herself on the bed not three hours before. She did not look at him, but stared with determination into the fire.
“Bob, you must go,” she said.
“Go!” he cried. Her voice loosed the fetters of his passion, and he dared to seize the band that lay on the arm of her chair. She did not resist this.
“Yes, you must go. You should not have stayed for supper.”
“Cynthia,” he said, “how can I leave you? I will not leave you.”
“But you can and must,” she replied.
“Why?” he asked, looking at her in dismay.
“You know the reason,” she answered.
“Know it?” he cried. “I know why I should stay. I know that I love you with my whole heart and soul. I know that I love you as few men have ever loved—and that you are the one woman among millions who can inspire such a love.”
“No, Bob, no,” she said, striving hard to keep her head, withdrawing her hand that it might not betray the treason of her lips. Aware, strange as it may seem, of the absurdity of the source of what she was to say, for a trace of a smile was about her mouth as she gazed at the coals. “You will get over this. You are not yet out of college, and many such fancies happen there.”
For the moment he was incapable of speaking, incapable of finding an answer sufficiently emphatic. How was he to tell her of the rocks upon which his love was built?
How was he to declare that the very perils which threatened her had made a man of him, with all of a man's yearning to share these perils and shield her from them? How was he to speak at all of those perils? He did not declaim, yet when he spoke, an enduring sincerity which she could not deny was in his voice.
“You know in your heart that what you say is not true, Cynthia. Whatever happens, I shall always love you.”
Whatever happens: She shuddered at the words, reminding her as they did of all her vague misgivings and fears.
“Whatever happens!” she found herself repeating them involuntarily.
“Yes, whatever happens I will love you truly and faithfully. I will never desert you, never deny you, as long as I live. And you love me, Cynthia,” he cried, “you love me, I know it.”
“No, no,” she answered, her breath coming fast. He was on his feet now, dangerously near her, and she rose swiftly to avoid him.
She turned her head, that he might not read the denial in her eyes; and yet had to look at him again, for he was coming toward her quickly. “Don't touch me,” she said, “don't touch me.”
He stopped, and looked at her so pitifully that she could scarce keep back her tears.
“You do love me,” he repeated.
So they stood for a moment, while Cynthia made a supreme effort to speak calmly.
“Listen, Bob,” she said at last, “if you ever wish to see me again, you must do as I say. You must write to your father, and tell him what you have done and—and what you wish to do. You may come to me and tell me his answer, but you must not come to me before.” She would have said more, but her strength was almost gone. Yes, and more would have implied a promise or a concession. She would not bind herself even by a hint. But of this she was sure: that she would not be the means of wrecking his opportunities. “And now—you must go.”
He stayed where he was, though his blood leaped within him, his admiration and respect for the girl outran his passion. Robert Worthington was a gentleman.
“I will do as you say, Cynthia,” he answered, “but I am doing it for you. Whatever my father's reply may be will not change my love or my intentions. For I am determined that you shall be my wife.”
With these words, and one long, lingering look, he turned and left her. He had lacked the courage to speak of his father's bitterness and animosity. Who will blame him? Cynthia thought none the less of him for not telling her. There was, indeed, no need now to describe Dudley Worthington's feelings.
When the door had closed she stoke to the window, and listened to his footfalls in the snow until she heard them no more.