She would repel me! but I’ll see her once
Before we part for ever: claim her pardon.
How could I deem her worthless! Oh, what wild
Playthings of fortune we—who if the cup
We drink hath aught of bitter—dash it down—
And madly spurn the sweetness in the dregs!
We tear the wound—and hate the balm that heals it!
So cold! then all I feared is true:
You love me not!
Hush—busy torturer!
Should I be here, else?
Such was not your welcome
When last we met!
And is all else unchanged?
Look in my face, and read what I have borne
Since then.
Alas! so wasted and so wan—
Yet never half so lovely!
Why—that’s well—
If burning sorrow could dry up life’s springs—
But they flow on—though every fount is sealed
That could renew them. Strange—that life should cling
But closer as we strive to shake it off!
And mock its tenement, though that be worn
Too thin to harbor it!
Oh, there has been a weary fever here,
That scorched—and scorched—as it would sear my brain,
’Till that grew wayward. All things seemed a vision,
‘Measureless, shadowy—strange—yet dim and fleeting’—
But I’m awake now!
Awake to keener grief,
I would not add to it!
You pity me!
You have forgiven me! All my fault and wrong,
And suffering—you know!
All—but too well.
I know you guiltless.
No—you know not half
The wild, bad thoughts I’ve cherished.—Foscarini,
I’ve wished thee dead! I’ve looked upon the sky
When the fierce tempest blackened it—and hoped—
And hoped its wings would sweep thee to destruction!
Invoked the hoary mountain rocks to crush thee!
Prayed, as I ne’er before have prayed for weal
Of thine or mine—for death—ere thou shouldst come
To find me thus.—Why art thou here?
I come
To look on you once more; to hear your voice
Even in these groves—where we were wont to meet
In happy hours——
Speak not, speak not of them!
They’re angels, whose accusing voice to heaven
Doth tell of broken faith, and trampled hopes,
And injured goodness! They have baneful influence
They made me what I am!
Mine own Teresa!
Let me so call you now—blame not yourself
For what hath severed us. I blame you not.
Heaven doth attest my truth, I hold you now,
As pure, as guiltless of all wrong—as when
I first believed you.
Oh! thou wilt not hate me!
I bless thee for it! That fear has wrought so oft
My thoughts to bitterness! It was a phantom
That haunted me, and mocked my tears! No—no!
Thy pity, like the angel of Heaven’s mercy,
Will smile—and smile—and soothe me as I pass
Down to the cold and welcome grave—and then—
When I am dead—thou’lt think on me—weep for me—
Wilt thou not, Foscarini?
Listen to me!
The victim hath no duties. That forced vow
Which came not from the heart, and bears no sanction
Of the consenting will, Heaven did not register.
You are mine! Good spirits have heard
Our vows, and sealed those bonds, which mortal hands
Can never loose. Far from this hated land
Shine skies as bright—and fields as verdant bloom
To bless the fond and true. Escape with me.
The ship is waiting—let it bear us far
To some propitious clime, where no regrets
Or misery shall pursue us.
Ha! a fitting
Companion to your flight! a fugitive wife!
Whose wife? ’Tis well—peace I have lost—and you
Would take all that remains!
Forgive—forgive me!
’Twas but a thought of madness. It is past.
I’ll not offend again. Now shall you know
What he can dare, who loses you!
What frenzy
Gleams in your eye! No—Foscarini—no!
You could not do so wild, so fierce a wrong,
Because the blossom of young life is blighted,
To pluck its stem of verdure from the root!
Live—for my sake! Hence from this wretched city,
Where you are watched, and sought for, as the bloodhound
Doth seek his prey! Go—go! we may not meet
On earth again.
‘Happier far
‘Than I, since you in liberty may weep;
‘While I in secret, chided, must pour forth
‘The bitter drops that burn where’er they fall.
‘Remain not here’—we part——