Dying to Win.
Fierce blows the gale and cold,
Loudly the windows[27] rattle;
Why, the stars seemed never half so bright.
Hark![28] ’Twas a bell that tolled—
There, again! must I battle
Through another dreadful winter night?
Better by far to die.
Who[29] in this mighty city
Wastes a thought on such a wretched life?
Who heeds my weary sigh?
Who sheds a tear in pity?
All alone I wage[30] the bitter strife.
Bright gleams yon chandelier,[31]
Gay sound the reckless voices;
And how tempting warm the red grate glows!
No![32] rather perish here—
Ah, no—my soul rejoices,[33]
For I triumph spite of all my woes.
Now, that I’ve made my vow,
Who[34] comes to help me keep it?
Are the saints that preach asleep or dead?
Ripe is the harvest now,
Yet comes there none to reap it.
Not a cent![35] no home; no crust of bread.
Fie,[36] upon hearts so cold!
Not one will deign to aid me;
And my own sex turn[37] me off with scorn;
Sneer at me; call me bold;
Taunt me, and then upbraid me—
O, my God,[38] how can I wait till morn?
Mother, is that you[39] there?
Surely,[40] I must be dreaming—
Do not leave me, mother;[41] take me home!
Oh, how keen[42] bites the air!
Yonder[43] the dawn is gleaming.
It is I, your child: Oh, mother,[44] come!
Sleepy, indeed, am I—
Wait till I kneel[45] down, mother—
Help! help! help! I shall die—
Give me some air—I smother!
I am saved![48] Now let the cold world scoff.
* * * * *
Fierce blows the gale and cold,
Loudly the windows[49] rattle,
And the stars are paling[50] out with fright:
Oh, ’tis a tale oft told:
Done is the hard-fought battle—
And a weary soul has said good-night.
- [27] H. O.
- [28] Hand raised to listen.
- [29] H. O.
- [30] Clasp hands.
- [31] H. F.
- [32] B. V. H. F.
- [33] A. O.
- [34] H. O.
- [35] D. L.
- [36] P. Ind. H. O.
- [37] Ver. H. L.
- [38] Look up.
- [39] B. H. F.
- [40] Hand to brow.
- [41] B. H. F.
- [42] Shiver.
- [43] Ind. H. O.
- [44] B. H. F.
- [45] Kneel.
- [46] Clasp hands.
- [47] B. Par. H. O.
- [48] B. A. O.
- [49] H. O.
- [50] V. A. Sweep.