Laura and Elliott were in the summer
kitchen, filling glass jars with
raspberries. As they finished filling each
jar, they capped it and lowered it into a
wash-boiler of hot water on the stove.
“It seems odd,” remarked Laura, “to
put up berries without sugar.”
“Isn’t it horrid,” said Elliott, who had
never put up berries at all, but who was
longing for candy and hadn’t had courage
to suggest buying any. “I hope the Allies
are going to appreciate all we are doing
for them.”
“Do you?” Laura looked at her oddly.
“I hope we are going to appreciate all they
have done for us.”
“Aren’t we showing it?” Elliott felt
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really indignant at her cousin. “Think of
the sacrifices we’re making for them.”
“Sacrifices?”
How stupid Laura was! “You know as
well as I do how many things we are giving
up.”
“Sugar, for instance?” queried Laura.
“Sugar is one thing.”
“Oh, well,” said Laura, “I’d rather a
little Belgian had my extra pounds, poor
scrap! Of course, now and then I get
hungry for it, though Mother gives us all
the maple we want, but when I do get
hungry, I think about the Belgians and
the people of northern France who have
lost their homes, and of all those children
over there who haven’t enough to eat to
make them want to play; and I think about
the British fleet and what it has kept us
from for four years; and about the thousands
of girls who have given their youth
and prettiness to making munitions. I
think about things like that and then I say
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to myself, ‘My goodness, what is a little
sugar, more or less!’ Why, Elliott, we
don’t begin to feel the war over here, not
as they feel it!”
Elliott, who considered that she felt the
war a good deal, demurred. “I have lost
my home,” she said, feeling a little
ashamed of the words as she said them.
“But it is there,” objected Laura.
“Your home is all ready to go back to,
isn’t it? That’s my point.”
“And there’s Father,” said Elliott.
“I know, and my brothers. But I don’t
feel that I have done anything in their
being in the army. It is doing them lots
of good: every letter shows that. And,
anyway, I’d be ashamed if they didn’t
go.”
“Something might happen,” said Elliott.
“What would you say then?”
“The same, I hope. But what I mean
is, the war doesn’t really touch us in the
routine of our every-day living. We don’t
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have to darken our windows at night and
take, every now and then, to the cellars.
The machinery of our lives isn’t thrown
out of gear. We don’t live hand in hand
with danger. But lots of us think we’re
killed if we have to use our brains a little,
if we’re asked to substitute for wheat
flour, and can’t have thick frosting on our
cake and eat meat three times a day. Oh,
I’ve heard ’em talk! Why, our life over
here isn’t really topsyturvy a bit!”
“Isn’t it?” There were things, Elliott
thought, that Laura, wise as she was,
didn’t know.
“We’re inconvenienced,” said Laura,
“but not hurt.”
Elliott was silent. She was trying to
decide whether or not she was hurt. Inconvenienced
seemed rather a slim verb
for what had happened to her. But she
didn’t go on to say what she had meant to
say about candy, and she felt in her secret
soul the least bit irritated at Laura.
Then Priscilla whirled in on her tiptoes,
her hands behind her back. “The postman
went right straight by, though I hung
out the window and called and called. I
guess he didn’t hear me, he’s awful deaf
sometimes.”
“Didn’t I get a letter?” Elliott’s face
fell.
“Mail is slow getting through, these
days,” said Aunt Jessica, coming in from
the main kitchen. “We always allow an
extra day or two on the road. Wasn’t
there anything at all from Bob or Sidney
or Pete, Pris? You little witch, you certainly
are hiding something behind your
back.”
Then Priscilla gave a gay little squeal
and jumped up and down till her black
curls bobbed all over her face. When she
stopped jumping she looked straight at
Elliott.
“Which hand will you take?” she
asked.
“I? Oh, have you a letter for me, after
all?”
“You didn’t guess it,” said the child.
“Which hand?”
“The right—no, the left.”
Priscilla shook her head. “You aren’t
a very good guesser, are you? But I’ll
give it to you this time. It’s not fat, but
it looks nice. He didn’t even get out, that
postman didn’t; he just tucked the letter in
the box as he rode along.”
“Certain sure he didn’t tuck any other
letter in too, Pris?” queried Laura.
The child held out empty hands.
“That’s no proof. Your eyes are too
bright.” Laura turned her around gently.
“Oh, I thought so! Stuck in your dress.
From Bob!”
“Two,” squealed Priscilla, with an emphatic
little hop. “Here, give ’em to
Mother. They’re ’dressed to her. Now
let’s get into ’em, quick. Shall I ring the
bell, Mother, to call in Father and the rest?
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Two letters from Bob is a great big emergency;
don’t you think so?”
The words filtered negligently through
Elliott’s inattention. All her conscious
thoughts were centered on her father’s
handwriting. She had had a cable before,
but this was his first letter. It almost made
her cry to see the familiar script and know
that she could get nothing but letters from
him for a whole long year. No hugs, no
kisses, no rumpling of her hair or his, no
confidential little talks—no anything that
had been her meat and drink for years.
How did people endure such separations?
A big lump came up in her throat and the
tears pricked her eyes; but she swallowed
very hard and blinked once or twice and
vowed, “I won’t cry, I won’t!”
And then suddenly, through her preoccupation,
she became aware of a hush
fallen on the bubbling expectancy of the
room. Glancing up from the page, she
saw Henry standing in the doorway.
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Even to unfamiliar eyes there was something
strangely arresting in the boy’s look,
a shocked gravity that cut like a premonition.
“They say Ted Gordon’s been killed,”
he said.
“Ted—Gordon!” cried Laura.
“Practice flight, at camp. Nobody
knows any particulars. Cy Jones told
Father.” The boy’s voice sounded dry
and hard.
“Are they certain there is no mistake?”
his mother asked quietly.
“I guess it’s true. Cy said the Gordons
had a telegram.”
“I must go over at once.” Mrs. Cameron
rose, putting the letters into Laura’s
hands, and took off her apron.
“I’ll bring the car around for you,” said
Henry.
“Thank you.” She smiled at him and
turned to the girls. “You know what we
are having for dinner, Laura. Priscilla
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will help make the shortcake, I’m sure.
I will be back as soon as I can.”
Mutely the four watched the little car
roll out of the yard and down the hill.
Then Henry spoke. “Letters?”
“From Bob,” said Laura.
“Did she read ’em?”
Laura shook her head.
“Gee!” said the boy.
“Perhaps she thought she couldn’t,”
hesitated Laura, “and go over there.”
A moment of silence held the room.
Henry broke it. “Well, we’re not going.
Let’s hear ’em.”
Elliott took a step toward the door.
“Needn’t run away unless you want to,”
he called after her. “We always read
Bob’s letters aloud.”
So Elliott stayed. Laura’s pleasant
voice, a bit strained at first, grew steadier
as the reading proceeded. Henry sat
whittling a stick into the coal-hod, his lips
pursed as though for a whistle, but without
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sound, and still with that odd sober
look on his face. Priscilla, all the jumpiness
gone out of her, stood very still in the
middle of the kitchen floor, a kind of hurt
bewilderment in the big dark eyes fixed on
Laura’s face. Nobody laughed, nobody
even chuckled, and yet it was a jolly letter
that they read first, full of spirit and
life and fun. High-hearted adventure
rollicked through it, and the humor that
makes light of hardship, and the latest
slang of the front adorned its pages with
grotesquely picturesque phrases. The
Cameron boys were obviously getting a
good time out of the war. Bob had got
something else, too. The letter had been
delayed in transmission and near the end
was a sentence, “Brought down my first
Hun to-day—great fight! I’ll tell you
about it next time if after due deliberation
I decide the censor will let me.”
“Some letter!” commented Henry.
“Say, those aviators are living like princes,
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aren’t they! Mess hall in a big grove
with all the fixings. And eats! More
than we get at home. Gee, I wish I was
older!”
“So you could come in for the eats?”
smiled his sister.
“So I could come in for things generally.”
“You couldn’t work any harder if you
were a man grown,” she told him.
“Huh!” said Henry, “a lot I hurt myself!”
But he liked the smile and the
praise, wary though he might pretend to
be of it. Sis was a good sort. “You’re
some worker, yourself. Let’s get on to
the next one.”
The second letter—and it too bore a date
disquietingly far from the present—told
of the fight. It thrilled the four in the
pleasant New England kitchen. The
peaceful walls opened wide, and they were
out in far spaces, patrolling the windy sky,
mounting, diving, dodging through wisps
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of cloud, kings of the air, hunting for
combat. Their eyes shone and their
breathing quickened, and for a minute
they forgot the boy who was dead.
“Why the Hun didn’t bag me, instead
of my getting him,” wrote Bob, “is a mystery.
Just the luck of beginners, I guess.
I did most of the things I shouldn’t have
done, and, by chance, one or two of the
things I should—fired when I was too far
off, went into a spinning nose-dive under
the mistaken notion it would make me a
poor target, etc., etc., etc. Oh, I was
green, all right! He knew how to manœuver,
that Hun did. That’s what feazes
me. How did I manage to top him at last?
Well, I did. And my gun didn’t jam.
Nuff said.”
“Gee!” said Henry between his teeth.
“And Ted Gordon had to go and miss all
that! Gee!”
“If he had only got to the front!” sighed
Laura.
“Anything from Pete?” asked the boy.
“No.”
“Sid?”
She shook her head. “We had a letter
from Sid day before yesterday, you know.”
“Sid lays ’em down pretty thick sometimes.
Well, I must be getting on. This
isn’t weeding cabbages.”
The three girls, left alone, reacted each
in her own way to the touch of the dark
wings that had so suddenly brushed the
rim of their blithe young lives. Priscilla
frankly didn’t understand, but her sensitive
spirit felt the chill of the event, and
her big eyes gazed with a tinge of wonder
at the blue sky and sunshine of the world
outside.
“Seems sort of queer it’s so bright,” she
remarked.
Laura was busy, as were thousands of
sisters at that very minute and every minute
all over the land, scotching the fears
that are always lying in wait, ready to lift
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their ugly heads. Queer the letters had
come through so tardily! Where was
Bob, her darling big brother, this minute?
Where was Pete Fearing, hardly less dear
than Bob? Pictures clicked through her
brain, pictures built on newspaper prints
that she had seen. But one died twice
that way, she reflected, and it did no good.
So she put the letters on the shelf beside
the clock and brought out the potatoes for
dinner.
“Ted Gordon was in the Yale Battery
last summer,” she remarked. “He came
up from camp to get his degree this year.
Mrs. Gordon and Harriet went down. He
was Scroll and Key.”
In Elliott’s brain Laura’s words made a
swift connection. Before that, Ted Gordon
had meant nothing to her, the name of
a boy whom she had never seen, a country
lad, whose death, while sudden and sad,
could not touch her. Now, suddenly, he
clicked into place in her own familiar
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world. A Scroll-and-Key man? Why,
those were the men she knew—Bones,
Scroll and Key, Hasty Pudding—he was
one of them!
She felt a swift recoil. So that was
what war came to. Not just natty figures
in khaki that girls cried over in saying
good-by to, or smiled at and told how perfectly
splendid they were to go; not just
high adventure and martial music and the
rhythm of swinging brown shoulders; not
just surgical dressings and socks and
sweaters; not even just homes broken up
for a time and fathers sailing overseas.
Of course one understood with one’s
brain, that made part of the thrill of their
going, but one didn’t realize with the feeling
part of one—how could a girl?—when
they went away or when one made dressings.
Yet didn’t dressings more than
anything else point to it? And Laura
had said we didn’t feel the war over
here!
A sense of something intolerable, not
to be borne, overwhelmed Elliott. She
pushed at it with both hands, as though by
the physical gesture she could shove away
the sudden darkness that had blotted with
alien shadow the face of her familiar sun.
Death! There was an unbearable unpleasantness
about death. She had always
felt ill at ease in its presence, in the
very mention of its name; she had avoided
every sign and symbol of it as she
would a plague. And now, she foresaw
for an instant of blinding clarity, perhaps
it could not be avoided any longer.
Was this young aviator’s accident
just a symbol of the way death was going
to invade all the happy sheltered
places? The thought turned the girl
sick for a minute. How could Laura
go on with her work so unfeelingly?
And there was Priscilla getting out
raspberries.
“I don’t see,” said Elliott, and her voice
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choked, “I don’t see how you can bear to
peel those potatoes!”
“Some one has to peel them,” said
Laura. “The family must have dinner,
you know. We couldn’t work without
eating. Besides, I think it helps to work.”
Elliott brushed the last sentence aside.
It fell outside her experience, and she
didn’t understand it. The only thing she
did understand was the reiteration of
work, work, and the pall of blackness that
overshadowed her hitherto bright world.
She wished again with all her heart that
she had never come to Vermont. She
didn’t belong here; why couldn’t she have
stayed where she did belong, where people
understood her, and she them?
A great wave of homesickness swept
over the girl, homesickness for the world
as she had always known it, her world as
it had been before the war warped and
twisted and spoiled things. And yet,
oddly enough, there was no sense in the
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Cameron house of anything being spoiled.
They talked of Ted Gordon in the same
unbated tone of voice in which they spoke
of her cousin Bob or of his friend Pete
Fearing, and they actually laughed when
they told stories about him. Laura baked
and brewed, and the results disappeared
down the road in the direction Mother Jess
had taken. Aunt Jessica herself returned,
a trifle pale and tired-looking, but smiling
as usual.
“Lucinda and Harriet are just as brave
as you would expect them to be,” Elliott
heard her tell Father Bob. “No one knows
yet how it happened. They hope to learn
more from Ted’s friends. Two of the
aviators are coming up. Harriet told me
they rather look for them to-morrow
night.”
Hastily Elliott betook herself out of
hearing. She wanted to get beyond sight
and sound of any reference to what had
happened. It was the only way known to
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her to escape the disagreeable—to turn her
back on it and run away. What she
didn’t see and think about, so far as she
was concerned, wasn’t there. Hitherto
the method had worked very well. What
disquieted her now was a dull, persistent
fear that it wasn’t going to work much
longer.
So when Bruce remarked the next day,
“I’m going to take part of the afternoon
off and go for ferns; want to come?” she
answered promptly, “Yes, indeed,” though
privately she thought him crazy. Ferns,
on a perfectly good working-day? But
when they were fairly started, she found
she hadn’t escaped, after all. Instead, she
had run right into the thing, so to speak.
“We want to make the church look
pretty,” Bruce said, as they tramped
along. “And I happen to know where
some beauties grow, maidenhair and the
rarer sorts. It isn’t everybody I’d dare
to take along.”
“Is that so?” queried the girl. She
wondered why.
“Things have a way of disappearing in
the woods, unless they’re treated right.
Took a fellow with me once when I went
for pink-and-white lady’s-slippers, the big
ones—they’re beauties. He was crazy to
go, and he promised to keep the place to
himself. You could have picked bushels
there then. Now they’re all cleaned out.”
“But why? Did people dig them up?”
“Picked’em too close. Some things
won’t stand being cleaned up the way most
people clean up flowers in the woods.
They’re free, and nobody’s responsible.”
In spite of her thoughts Elliott dimpled.
“I think it is quite safe to take me.”
He grinned. “Maybe that’s why I do
it.”
It was very pleasant, tramping along
with Bruce in the bright day; pleasant, too,
leaving the sunshine for the spicy coolness
of the woods, and climbing up, up, among
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great tree-trunks and mossy rocks and
trickling mountain brooks. Or it would
have been pleasant, if one could only have
forgotten the reason that underlay their
journey. But when they had reached
Bruce’s secret spot and were cutting the
wiry brown stems, and packing together
carefully the spreading, many-fingered
fronds so as not to break the delicate
ferns, that undercurrent of numb consternation
reasserted itself. Like Priscilla,
Elliott felt a little shocked at the brightness
of the sunshine, the blueness of the sky,
and the beauty of the fern-filled glade.
“It was dreadful for him to be killed
before he had done anything!” At last
the words so long burning in her heart
reached the tip of her tongue.
“Yes.” Bruce’s voice was sober. “It
sure was hard.”
Cutting the wiry brown stems in the fern-filled glade.
“I should think his people would feel as
though they couldn’t stand it!” Elliott
declared. “If he had got to France—but
now it is just a hideous, hideous waste!”
Bruce hesitated. “I suppose that is one
way of looking at it.”
“Why, what other way could there be?”
She stared at him in surprise. “He was
just learning to fly. He hadn’t done anything,
had he?”
“No, he hadn’t done anything. But
what he died for is just the same as though
he had got across, isn’t it, and had downed
forty Huns?”
She continued to stare fixedly at the boy
for a full minute. “Why, yes,” she said
at last, very slowly; “yes, I suppose it is.”
Curiously enough, the whole thing looked
better from that angle.
For a long time she was silent, cutting
and tying up ferns.
“How did you happen to think of that?”
“To think of what?” Bruce was tying
his own ferns.
“What you said about—about what this
Ted Gordon died for.”
It was Bruce’s turn to look surprised.
“I didn’t think of anything. It’s just a
fact, isn’t it?”
Then he began to load himself with
ferns. Elliott wouldn’t have supposed
any one could carry as many as Bruce
shouldered; he had great bunches in his
hands, too.
“You look like a walking fernery,” she
said.
“Birnam Wood,” he quoted and for a
minute she couldn’t think what he meant.
“Better let me take some of those on the
ground,” he said.
“No, indeed! I am going to do my
share.”
Quietly he possessed himself of two of
her bunches. “That’s your share. It
will be heavy enough before we get home.”
It was heavy, though not for worlds
would Elliott have mentioned the fact.
She helped Bruce put the ferns in water,
and she went out at night and sprinkled
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them to keep them fresh; but she had an
excuse ready when Laura asked if she
would like to go over to the little white-spired
church on the hill and help arrange
them.
Nothing would have induced her to attend
the services, either, though afterward
she wished that she had. There seemed to
have been something so high and fine and—yes—so
cheerful about them, so martial
and exalted, that she wished she had seen
for herself what they were like. In Elliott’s
mind gloom had always been inseparably
linked with a funeral, gloom and
black clothes. Whereas Laura and her
mother and Gertrude and Priscilla wore
white. A good many things at the Cameron
farm were very odd.
It was after every one had gone to bed
and the lights were out that Elliott lay
awake in her little slant-ceilinged room and
worried and worried about Father, three
thousand miles away. He wasn’t an aviator,
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it was true, but in France wasn’t the
land almost as unsafe as the air? She
had imagined so many things that might
perfectly easily happen to him that she was
on the point of having a little weep all by
herself when Aunt Jessica came in. Did
she know that Elliott was homesick?
Aunt Jessica sat down on the bed, as she
had sat that first night, and talked about
comforting, commonplace things—about
the new kittens, and how soon the corn
might be ripe, and what she used to do
when she was a girl in Washington. Elliott
got hold of her hand and wound her
own fingers in and out among Aunt Jessica’s
fingers, but in the end she spoke out
the thing that was uppermost in her mind.
“Mother Jess,” she said, using unconsciously
the Cameron term; “Mother Jess,
I don’t like death.”
She said it in a small, wabbly voice, because
she felt very strongly and she wasn’t
used to talking about such things. But
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she had to say it. Though if the room
hadn’t been dark, I doubt if she could have
got it out at all.
“No, dear,” said Aunt Jessica, quietly.
“Most of us don’t like death. I wonder if
your feeling isn’t due to the fact that you
think of it as an end?”
“What is it,” asked Elliott, “but an
end?” She was so astonished that her
words sounded almost brusque.
“I like to think of it as a coming alive,”
said Aunt Jessica, “a coming alive more
vigorously than ever. The world is beginning
to think of it so, too.”
Elliott lay still after Aunt Jessica had
gone out of the room and tried to think
about what she had said. It was quite the
oddest thing that anybody had said yet.
But all she really succeeded in thinking
about was the quiet certainty in Aunt Jessica’s
voice, the comforting clasp of Aunt
Jessica’s arms, and the kiss still warm on
her lips.
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CHAPTER VII
PICNICKING
“I feel like a picnic,” said Mother Jess,
“a genuine all-day-in-the-woods picnic.”
It was rather queer for a grown-up to
say such a thing right out like a girl, Elliott
thought, but she liked it. And Aunt
Jessica was sitting back on her heels, just
like a girl too, looking up from the border
where she was working. Elliott had
caught sight of her blue chambray skirt
under a haze of blue larkspurs and had
come over to see what she was doing. It
proved to be weeding with a clawlike thing
that, wielded by Aunt Jessica’s right hand,
grubbed out weeds as fast as she could toss
them into a basket with her left. Elliott
was surprised. Weeding a flower-bed
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when, as she happened to know, the garden
beets weren’t finished did not square with
her notions of what was what on the Cameron
farm. She was so surprised that she
answered absently, “That sounds fine. I
think I feel so, too,” and kept on wondering
about Aunt Jessica.
“We usually have a picnic at this time of
year when the haying is done,” said that
lady, and fell again to her weeding. “It
is astonishing how fast a weed can grow.
Look at that!” and she held up a spreading
mat of green chickweed. “I have had to
neglect the borders shamefully this summer.”
Elliott squatted down beside her and
twined her fingers in a tuft of grass.
“May I help?” She gave a little tug to
the grass.
“Delighted to have you. Look out!
That’s a Johnny-jump-up.”
“Is it? Goodness! I thought it was a
weed!”
“Here is one in blossom. Spare
Johnny. He is a faithful friend till the
winter snows.”
“Johnny-jump-up.” Elliott’s laughter
gurgled over the name. “But he does
rather jump up, doesn’t he? Funny little
pansy thing! Funny name, too.”
“Not so odd as a few others I know.
Kiss-me-in-the-buttery, for instance.”
“Not really!”
“Honest Injun, as Priscilla says.”
“These borders are sweet.” The girl
let her gaze wander up and down the curving
lines of color splashed across the gentle
slope of the hill. “But flowers don’t stand
much chance in a war year, do they? I
know people at home who have plowed
theirs up and planted potatoes.”
“A mistake,” said Aunt Jessica, shaking
the dirt vigorously from a fistful of sorrel.
“A mistake, unless it is a question of life
and death. We have too much land in this
country to plow up our flowers, yet a while.
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And a war year is just the time when we
need them most. No, I never feel I am
wasting my time when I work among
flowers.”
“But they’re not necessary, are they?”
questioned Elliott. “Of course, they’re
beautiful; but I thought luxuries had to go,
just now.”
“Flowers a luxury? Oh, my dear little
girl, put that notion out of your head
quickly! American-beauty roses may be a
luxury, and white lilacs in the dead of winter,
but garden flowers, never! Wait till
you see the daffodils dancing under those
apple trees next spring!” And she nodded
up the grassy slope at the apple trees
as though she and they shared a delightful
secret that Elliott did not yet know.
Privately the girl held a different opinion
about next spring, but she wondered
why Aunt Jessica should talk of daffodils.
They seemed rather lugged into a conversation
in July.
Mother Jess reached with her clawlike
weeder far into the border. Her voice
came back over her shoulder in little gusts
of words as she worked. “Did you ever
hear that saying of the Prophet?—‘He
that hath two loaves let him sell one and
buy a flower of the narcissus; for bread is
food for the body, but narcissus is food
for the soul.’ That’s the way I feel about
flowers. They are the least expensive
way of getting beauty and we can’t live
without beauty, now less than ever, since
they have destroyed so much of it in
France. There! now I must stop for to-day.
Don’t you want to take this culling-basket
and pick it full of the prettiest
things you can find for Mrs. Gordon?
Perhaps you would like to take it over to
her, too. It isn’t a very long walk.”
“But I’ve never met her.”
“That won’t matter. Just tell her who
you are and that you belong to us. Mrs.
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Gordon loves flowers, though she hasn’t
much time to tend them.”
“I shouldn’t think any one could have
less time than you.”
Aunt Jessica laughed. “Oh, I make
time!”
Elliott picked up the flat green basket,
lifted the shears she found lying in it, and
went hesitatingly up and down the borders.
“What shall I pick?”
“Anything. Suit yourself. Make the
basket as pretty as you can. If you pick
here and there, the borders won’t show
where you cut from them.”
Mother Jess gathered up gloves and
tools, and went away, tugging her basket
of weeds. Elliott, left behind, surveyed
the borders critically. To cut without letting
it appear that she had cut was evidently
what Aunt Jessica wanted. She
reached in and snipped off a spire of larkspur
from the very back of the border,
then stood back to see what had happened.
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No, if one hadn’t known the stalk had been
there, one wouldn’t now know it was gone.
The thing could be done, then. Cautiously
she selected a head of white phlox.
The result of that operation also was satisfactory.
Up and down the flowery path she went,
snipping busily. On the stalks of larkspur
and phlox she laid a mass of pink snapdragons
and white candytuft, tucking in
here and there sprays of just-opening
baby’s-breath to give a misty look to the
basket. A bunch of English daisies came
next; they blossomed so fast one didn’t
have to pick and choose among them; one
could just cut and cut. And oughtn’t
there to be pansies? “Pansies—that’s for
thoughts.” Those wonderful purple ones
with a sprinkling of the yellow—no, yellow
would spoil the color scheme of the basket.
These white beauties were just the thing.
How lovely it all looked, blue and white
and pink and purple!
But there wasn’t much fragrance.
Eye and nose searched hopefully. Heliotrope!—just
a spray or two. There, now
it was perfect. Anybody would be glad to
see a basket like that coming. Only, she
did wish some one else were to carry it, or
else that she knew the people. It might
not be so bad if she knew the people.
Why shouldn’t Laura or Trudy take it?
Elliott walked very slowly up to the house,
debating the question. A week ago she
wouldn’t have debated; she would have
said, “Oh, I can’t possibly.” Or so she
thought.
“How beautiful!” said Aunt Jessica’s
voice from the kitchen window. “You
have made an exquisite thing, dear.”
Elliott rested the basket on the window
ledge and surveyed it proudly. “Isn’t it
lovely? And I don’t think cutting this has
hurt the borders a bit.”
“I am sure not.” Aunt Jessica’s busy
hands went back to her yellow mixing-bowl.
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“You know where the Gordons
live, don’t you?—in the big brick house at
the cross-roads.”
“Yes,” said Elliott, and her feet carried
her out of the yard, stopping only long
enough to let her get her pink parasol from
the hall, and down the hill toward the
cross-roads. It was odd about Elliott’s
feet, when she hadn’t quite made up her
mind whether or not she would go. Her
feet seemed to have no doubt of it.
The pink parasol threw a becoming light
on her face, as she knew it would, and the
odor of heliotrope rose pleasantly in her
nostrils as she walked along. But the basket
grew heavy, astonishingly heavy. She
wouldn’t have believed a culling-basket
with a few flowers in it could weigh so
much. The farther Elliott walked, the
heavier it grew. And she hadn’t gone a
quarter of the way, either.
A horse’s feet coming up rapidly behind
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her turned the girl’s steps to the side of
the road. The horse drew abreast and
stopped, prancing. “Want a lift?” asked
the man in the wagon. He was a big grizzled
farmer, a friend of her uncle’s.
Elliott nodded, smiling. “Oh, thank
you!”
“Purty flowers you’ve got there.”
“Aren’t they lovely! Aunt Jessica is
sending them to Mrs. Gordon.”
“That’s right! That’s right! Say,
just look at them pansies, now! Flowers,
they don’t do nothin’ but grow for that
aunt of yours. She don’t have to much
more ’n look at ’em.”
Elliott laughed. “She weeds them, I
happen to know. I helped her this afternoon.”
“Did you, now! But there’s a difference
in folks. Take my wife: she plants
’em and plants ’em, but she can’t keep none.
They up and die on her, sure thing.”
Elliott selected a purple pansy. “This
looks to me as though it would like to get
into your buttonhole, Mr. Blair.”
“Sho, now!” He flushed with pleasure,
driving slowly as the girl fitted the pansy
in place, a bit of heliotrope nestling beside
it. “Smells good, don’t it? Mother always
had heliotrope in her garden. Takes
me back to when I was a little shaver.”
Elliott’s deft fingers were busy with the
English daisies.
“Now don’t you go and spoil your basket.”
“No, indeed! see what a lot there are
left. Here is a little nosegay for your
wife. And thank you so much for the
lift.”
He cranked the wheel and she jumped
out, waving her hand as he drove on.
Queer a man like that should love flowers!
It was only when she was walking up
the graveled path to the door of the brick
house that she remembered to compose her
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face into a proper gravity. She felt nervous
and ill at ease. But she needn’t go
in, she reminded herself, just leave the
flowers at the door. If only there were a
maid, which there probably wasn’t! One
couldn’t count for certain on getting right
away from these places where the people
themselves met one at the door.
“How do you do?” said a voice, advancing
from the right. “What a lovely basket!”
Elliott jumped. She was ready to jump
at anything and she had been looking
straight ahead without a single glance
aside from a non-committal brick front.
Now she saw a hammock swung between
two trees, a hammock still swaying from
the impact of the girl who had just left it.
She was the biggest girl Elliott had ever
seen, tall and fat and shapeless and very
plain. She was all in white, which made
her look bigger, and her skirt was at least
three years old. There was a faint trickle
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of brown spots down the front of it, too,
of which the girl seemed utterly unaware.
“You don’t have to tell me where those
flowers come from,” she said. “You are
Laura Cameron’s cousin, aren’t you?
Glad to know you.”
“Yes,” said Elliott, “I am Elliott Cameron.
Aunt Jessica sent these to your
mother.”
The girl’s fingers felt cool and firm as
they touched Elliott’s, the only pleasant impression
she had yet gathered.
“They look just like Mrs. Cameron.
Sit down while I call Mother. Oh, she’s
not doing anything special. Mother!”
Elliott, conducted through the house to
a wide veranda, sank into a chair, conscious
in every nerve of her own slender
waistline. What must it feel like to be so
big? A minute later she seemed to herself
to be engulfed between two mountains
of flesh. A woman—more unwieldy,
more shapeless, more oppressive even than
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the girl—waddled across the veranda
floor. What she said Elliott really didn’t
know; afterward phrases of pleasure came
back to her vaguely. She distinctly remembered
the creaking of the rocking-chair
when the woman sat down and her
own frightened feeling lest some vital part
should give way under the strain.
After a time, to her consciousness, mild
blue eyes emerged from the mass of human
bulk that fronted her; gray hair
crinkled away from a broad white forehead.
Then she perceived that Mrs. Gordon
was not a very tall woman, not so
tall as was her daughter. If anything,
that made it worse, thought Elliott. Why,
if she fell down, no one could tell which
side up she ought to go—except, of course,
head side on top. The idea gave her a
hysterical desire to giggle. The fact that
it would be so dreadful to laugh in this
house made the desire almost uncontrollable.
And then the big girl did laugh about
something or other, laughed simply and
naturally and really pleasantly. Elliott
almost jumped again, she was so startled.
To her, there was something repulsive in
the sight of so much human flesh. At the
same time it discouraged her. In the presence
of these two she felt insignificant,
even while she pitied them. She wished to
get away, but instinctive breeding held her
in her chair, chatting. She hoped what
she said wasn’t too inane; she didn’t know
quite what she did say.
Just then suddenly Harriet Gordon
asked a question: “Has your aunt said
anything yet about a picnic this summer?”
“I heard her say this afternoon that she
felt just like one,” said Elliott.
Mother and daughter looked at each
other triumphantly. “What did I tell
you!” said one. “I thought it was about
time,” said the other.
“Jessica Cameron always feels like a
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picnic in midsummer,” Mrs. Gordon explained.
“After the haying ’s done. You
tell her my little niece will want to go.
Alma has been here three weeks and we
haven’t been able to do much for her.
Do you think you will go, too, Harriet?”
“I’d rather not this time, Mother.”
“The Bliss girls will probably go, and
Alma knows them pretty well. She won’t
be lonesome.”
“Oh, no,” said Elliott, “we will see that
she isn’t lonely.”
“Must you go? Tell Mrs. Cameron we
will send our limousine whenever she says
the word.” On the way back through the
house Harriet Gordon paused before the
picture of a young man in aviator’s uniform.
“My brother,” she said simply,
and there was infinite pride in her voice.
Elliott stumbled down the path to the
road. She quite forgot to put up the pink
parasol. She carried it closed all the way
home. Were they limousine people?
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You would never have guessed it to look
at them. Why, she knew about picnics
of that kind!—motor-car, luncheon-kit
picnics! But what a shame to be so big!
Couldn’t they do something about it?
Good as gold, of course, and in such terrible
sorrow! They weren’t unfeeling.
The girl’s voice when she said, “My
brother,” proved that. It seemed as
though knowing about them ought to make
them attractive, but somehow it didn’t.
If they only understood how to dress, it
would help matters. Queer, how nice
boys could have such frumpy people!
And Ted Gordon had been a perfectly nice
boy. The picture proved that. But Aunt
Jessica had been right about the flowers.
The big woman and the farmer proved
that. Altogether Elliott’s mind was a
queer jumble.
“She said she’d send back the basket
to-morrow, Aunt Jessica,” she reported.
“Said she wanted to sit and look at it for a
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while just as it was. And Miss Gordon
asked me to tell you that whenever you
were ready for the picnic you must let her
know and she would send around their
limousine.”
“If that isn’t just like Harriet Gordon!”
laughed Laura. “She is the wittiest girl!
Didn’t you like her, Elliott?”
Elliott’s eyes opened wide. “What is
there witty in saying she would send their
limousine?”
Tom snorted. “Wait till you see it!”
“Why, she meant their hay-wagon!
We always use the Gordon hay-wagon for
this midsummer picnic. That’s a custom,
too.”
Everybody laughed at the expression on
Elliott’s face.
“Not up on the vernacular, Lot?” gibed
Stannard.
“When is the picnic to be, Mother?”
asked Laura.
“How about to-morrow?”
“Better make it the day after,” Father
Bob suggested, and they all fell to discussing
whom to ask.
So far as Elliott could see they asked
everybody except townspeople. The telephone
was kept busy that night and the
next morning in the intervals of Mother
Jess’s and the girls’ baking. Elliott
helped pack up dozens of turnovers and
cookies and sandwiches and bottled quarts
of lemonade.
“The lemonade is for the children,” said
Laura. “The rest of us have coffee.
Don’t you love the taste of coffee that you
make over a fire that you build yourself in
the woods?”
“On picnics I have always had my
coffee out of a thermos bottle,” said
Elliott.
“Oh, you poor thing! Why, you
haven’t had any good times at all, have
you?”
Laura looked so shocked that for a minute
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Elliott actually wondered whether she
ever really had had any good times. Privately
she wasn’t at all sure that she was
going to have a good time now, but she
kept still about that doubt.
“Aren’t you afraid it may rain to-morrow?”
she asked.
“No, indeed! It never rains on things
Mother plans.”
And it didn’t. The morning of the picnic
dawned clear and dewy and sparkling,
as perfect a summer day as though it had
been made to the Camerons’ order. By
nine o’clock the big hay-wagon had appeared,
driven by Mr. Gordon himself,
who said he was going to turn over the
reins to Mr. Cameron when they reached
the Gordon farm. Two more horses were
hitched on and all the Camerons piled in,
with enough boxes and baskets and bags
of potatoes, one would think, to feed a
small town, and away the hay-wagon went
down the hill, stopping at house after
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house to take in smiling people, with more
boxes and baskets and bags.
It was all very care-free and gay, and
Elliott smiled and chattered away with
the rest; but in her heart of hearts she
knew that there wasn’t one of these boys
and girls who squeezed into the capacious
hay-wagon to whom she would have given
a second glance, before coming up here
to Vermont. Now she wondered whether
they were all as negligible as they looked.
And pretty soon she forgot that she had
ever thought they looked negligible. It
was the jolliest crowd she had ever been
in. One or two were a bit quiet when
they arrived, but soon even the shyest were
talking, or at least laughing, in the midst
of the happy hubbub. It seemed as
though one couldn’t have anything but a
good time when the Camerons set out to
be jolly. Alma Gordon and the little
Bliss girls were the last to squeeze in and
they rode away waving their hands violently
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to a short, fat woman and a tall, fat
girl, who waved briskly from the brick
house’s front door.
Then Mr. Cameron turned the horses
into a mountain road and they began to
climb. Up and up the wagon went with
its merry load, through towering woods
and open pastures and along hillsides
where the woods had been cut and a tangle
of underbrush was beginning to spring up
among the stumps. And the higher the
horses climbed the higher rose the jollity
of the hay-wagon’s company. The sun
was hot overhead when they stopped.
There were gray rocks and a tumbling
mountain brook and a brown-carpeted pine
wood. Everybody jumped out helter-skelter
and began unloading the wagon or
gathering fire-wood or dipping up water,
or simply scampering around for joy of
stretching cramped legs.
It was surprising how soon a fire was
burning on the gray stones and coffee bubbling
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in the big pail Mother Jess had
brought; surprising, too, how good bacon
tasted when you broiled it yourself on a
forked stick and potatoes that you
smooched your face on by eating them in
their skins, black from the hot ashes that
the boys poked them out of with green
poles. Elliott knew now that she had
never really picnicked before in her life
and that she liked it. She liked it so much
that she ate and ate and ate until she
couldn’t eat another mouthful.
Perhaps she ate too much, but I doubt
it. It is much more likely to have been
the climb that she took in the hot sunshine
directly after that dinner, and the climb
wouldn’t have hurt her, if she had ended
the dinner without that last potato and the
extra turnover and two cookies; or if she
had rested a little before the climb. But
perhaps, it wasn’t either the dinner or
the climb; it may have been the pink ice-cream
of the evening before; or that time
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in the celery patch, the previous morning,
when she had forgotten her hat and
wouldn’t go back to the house for it because
Henry hadn’t a hat on, and why
should a girl need a hat more than a boy?
Or it may have been all those things put together.
She certainly had had a slight
headache when she went to bed.
Whatever caused it, the fact was that on
the ride home Elliott began to feel very
sick. The longer she rode the sicker she
felt and the more appalled and ashamed
and frightened she grew. What could be
going to happen to her? And what awful
exhibition was she about to make of herself
before all these people to whom she
had felt so superior?
Before long people noticed how white
she was and by the time the wagon reached
the brick house at the cross-roads poor
Elliott hardly cared if they did see it. Her
pride was crushed by her misery. Mrs.
Gordon and Harriet came out to welcome
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Alma home and they hesitated not a minute.
“Have them bring her right in here,
Jessica. No, no, not a mite of trouble!
We’ll keep her all night. You go right
along home, you and Laura. Mercy me,
if we can’t do a little thing like this for you
folks! She’ll be all right in the morning.”
The words meant nothing to Elliott.
She was quite beyond caring where she
went, so that it was to a bed, flat and still
and unmoving. But even in her distress
she was conscious that, whatever came of
it, she had had a good time.
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CHAPTER VIII
A BEE STING
Elliott was wretchedly, miserably
ill. She despised herself for it
and then she lost even the sensation of
self contempt in utter misery. She didn’t
care about anything—who helped her undress
or where the undressing was done
or what happened to her. Mercifully nobody
talked; it would have killed her, she
thought, to have to try to talk. They
didn’t even ask her how she felt. They
only moved about quietly and did things.
They put her to bed and gave her something
to drink, after which for a time she
didn’t care if she did die; in fact, she
rather hoped she would; and then the disgusting
things happened and she felt worse
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and worse and then—oh wonder!—she began
to feel better. Actually, it was sheer
bliss just to lie quiet and feel how comfortable
she was.
“I am so sorry!” she murmured apologetically
to a presence beside the bed. “I
have made you a horrid lot of trouble.”
“Not a bit,” said the presence, quietly.
“So don’t you begin worrying about that.”
And she didn’t worry. It seemed impossible
to worry about anything just
then.
“I feel lots better,” she remarked, after
a while.
“That’s right. I thought you would.
Now I’m going to telephone your Aunt
Jessica that you feel better, and you just
lie quiet and go to sleep. Then you will
feel better still. I’ll put the bell right here
beside the bed. If you want anything,
tap it.”
The presence waddled away—the girl
could feel its going in the tremor of the bed
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beneath her—and Elliott out of half-shut
eyes looked into the room. The shades
were partially drawn and the light was
dim. A little breeze fluttered the white
scrim curtain. The girl’s lazy gaze traveled
slowly over what she could see without
moving her head. To move her head
would have been too much trouble. What
she saw was spotless and clean and countrified,
the kind of room she would have
scorned this morning; now she thought it
the most peaceful place in the world. But
she didn’t intend to go to sleep in it. She
meant merely to lie wrapped in that delicious
mantle of well-being and continue
to feel how utterly content she was. It
seemed a pity to go to sleep and lose consciousness
of a thing like that.
But the first thing she knew she was
waking up and the room was quite dark
and she felt comfortable, but just the least
bit queer. It couldn’t be that she was
hungry!
She lay and debated the point drowsily
until a streak of light fell across the bed.
The light came from a kerosene lamp in
the hands of an immense woman whose
mild blue eyes beamed on Elliott.
“There, you’ve waked up, haven’t you?
I guess you’ll like a glass of milk now.
You can bring it right up, Harriet. She’s
awake.”
The woman set down her lamp on a little
table and lumbered about the room,
adjusting the shades at the windows, while
the lamp threw grotesque exaggerations on
the wall. Elliott watched the shadows, a
warm little smile at her heart. They
were funny, but she found herself tender
toward them. When the woman padded
back to the bed the girl smiled, her cheek
pillowed on her hand. She liked her
there beside the bed, her big shapeless
form totally obscuring the straight-backed
chair. She didn’t think of waist lines or
clothes at all, only of how comfortable
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and cushiony and pleasant the large face
looked. Mothery—might not that be the
word for it? Somehow like Aunt Jessica,
yet without the slightest resemblance except
in expression, a kind of radiating
lovingness that warmed one through and
through, and made everything right, no
matter how wrong it might have seemed.
“I telephoned your Aunt Jessica,” said
the big woman. “She was just going to
call us, and they all sent their love to you.
Here’s Harriet with the milk. Do you
feel a mite hungry?”
“I think that must be what was the matter
with me. I was trying to decide when
you came in.”
The fat form shook all over with silent
laughter. It was fascinating to watch
laughter that produced such a cataclysm
but made no sound. Elliott forgot to
drink in her absorption.
“Mother,” said Harriet Gordon, “Elliott
thinks you’re a three-ringed circus.
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You mustn’t be so exciting till she has finished
her milk.”
Elliott protested, startled. “I think you
are the kindest people in the world, both
of you!”
“Mercy, child, anybody would have done
the same! Don’t you go to setting us up
on pedestals for a little thing like that.”
The fat girl was smiling. “Make it
singular, mother. I have no quarrel with
a pedestal for you, though it might be a
little awkward to move about on.”
Mrs. Gordon shook again with that
fascinating laughter. “Mercy me! I’d
tip off first thing and then where would we
all be?”
Elliott’s eyes sought Harriet Gordon’s.
If she had observed closely she would
have seen spots on the white dress, but
to-night she was not looking at clothes.
She only thought what a kind face the big
girl had and how extraordinarily pleasant
her voice was and what good friends she
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and her mother were, just like Laura and
Aunt Jessica, only different.
“There!” said Mrs. Gordon. “You
drank up every drop, didn’t you? You
must have been hungry. Now you go
right to sleep again and I’ll miss my guess
if you don’t feel real good in the morning.”
“Good night,” said Harriet from the
door. “Did you give Blink her good-night
mouthful, Mother?”
“No, I didn’t. How I do forget that
cat!” said Mrs. Gordon. She turned
down the sheet under Elliott’s chin, patted
it a little, and asked, “Don’t you want your
pillow turned over?” Then quite naturally
she stooped down and kissed the
girl. “I guess you’re all right now.
Good night.” And Elliott put both arms
around her neck and hugged her, big as
she was. “Good night,” she said softly.
The next time Elliott woke up it was
broad daylight. Her eyes opened on a
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framed motto, “God is Love,” and she had
to lie still and think a full minute before
she could remember where she was and
why she was there at all. Then she smiled
at the motto—it wasn’t the kind of thing
she liked on walls, but to see it there did
not make her feel in the least superior this
morning—and jumped out of bed. As
Mrs. Gordon had prophesied, she felt well,
only the least bit wabbly. Probably that
was because it was before breakfast—her
breakfast. She had a disconcerting fear
that it might be long long after other people’s
breakfasts and for the first time in
her life she was distressed at making trouble.
Hitherto it had seemed right and
normal for people to put themselves out
for her.
She dressed as quickly as she could and
went down-stairs. Harriet was shelling
peas on the big veranda that looked off
across the valley to the mountains. There
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must have been rain in the night, for the
world was bathed clean and shining.
“Mother said to let you sleep as long as
you would.” Harriet stopped the current
of apology on Elliott’s lips. “Did you
have a good night?”
“Splendid! I didn’t know a thing from
the time your mother went out of the room
until half an hour ago.”
“Didn’t know anything about the thunder-shower?”
“Was there a thunder-shower?”
“A big one. It put our telephone out of
commission.”
“I didn’t hear it,” said Elliott.
“It almost pays to be sick, to find out
how good it feels to be well, doesn’t it?
Here’s a glass of milk. Drink that while
I get your breakfast.”
“Can’t I do it? I hate to make you
more trouble.”
“Trouble? Forget that word! We
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like to have you here. It is good for
Mother. Gives her something to think
about. Can’t you spend the day?”
Now, Elliott wanted to get home at
once; she had been longing ever since she
woke up to see Mother Jess and Laura and
Father Bob and Henry and Bruce and
everybody else on the Cameron farm, not
omitting Prince and the chickens and the
“black and whitey” calf; but she thought
rapidly: if it really made things any easier
for the Gordons to have her here—
“Why, yes, I can stay if you want me
to.” It cost her something to say those
words, but she said them with a smile.
“Good! I’ll telephone Mrs. Cameron
that we will bring you home this afternoon.
I’ll go over to the Blisses’ to do it, though
maybe their telephone’s knocked out, too.
The one at our hired man’s house isn’t
working. Here comes Mother with an
egg the hen has just laid for your breakfast.”
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“Just a-purpose,” said Mrs. Gordon.
“It’s warm yet and marked ‘Elliott Cameron’
plain as daylight. Is my hair full of
straw, Harriet?”
“It is, straw and cobwebs. Where have
you been, Mother? You know you
haven’t any business in the haymow or
crawling under the old carryall. Why
don’t you let Alma bring in the eggs?
She’s little and spry.”
“Pooh!” said Mrs. Gordon, with one of
her silent laughs. “Pooh, pooh! Alma
isn’t any match for old Whitefoot yet.
You’d think that hen laid awake nights
thinking up outlandish places to lay her
eggs in. Wait till you get to be sixty,
Harriet. Then you’ll know you can’t let
folks wait on you. Before that it’s all
right, but after sixty you’ve got to do for
yourself, if you don’t want to grow old.—Two,
dearie? I’m going to make you a
drop-egg on toast for your breakfast.”
“Oh, no, one!” cried Elliott. “I never
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eat two. And can’t I help? I hate to
have you get my breakfast.”
“Why, yes, you can dish up your oatmeal,”
calmly cracking a second egg.
“’T won’t do a mite of harm to have two.
Maybe you’re hungrier than you think.
Now Harriet, the water, and we’re all
ready. I’ll help you finish those peas
while she eats.”
The woman and the girl shelled peas,
their fat fingers fairly flying through the
pods, while Elliott devoured both eggs and
a bowl of oatmeal and a pitcher of cream
and a dish of blueberries and wondered
how they could make their fingers move so
fast.
“Practice,” said Mrs. Gordon in answer
to the girl’s query. “You do a thing over
and over enough times and you get so
you can’t help doing it fast, if you’ve got
any gumption at all. The quarts of peas
I’ve shelled in my life time would feed an
army, I guess.”
“Don’t you ever get tired?”
“Tired of shelling peas? Land no, I
like it! I can sit in here and look at you,
or out on the back piazza and watch the
mountains, or on the front step and see
folks drive by, and I’ve always got my
thoughts.” A shadow crossed the placid
face. “My thoughts work better when
my fingers are busy. I’d hate to just sit
and hold my hands. Ted dared me once
to try it for an hour. That was the longest
hour I ever spent.”
Mrs. Gordon had risen to peer through
the window after a rapidly receding
wagon.
“There!” she said. “There goes that
woman from Bayfield I want to sell some
of my bees to. She’s going down to
Blisses’ and I’d better walk right over
and talk to her, as the telephone won’t
work. I ’most think one hive is going to
swarm this morning, but I guess I’ll have
time to get back before they come out.
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Hello, Johnny, how do you do to-day?”
“All right,” lisped the small solemn-eyed
urchin who had strayed in from the
kitchen and now stood in the door hitching
at a diminutive pair of trousers and
eying Elliott absorbedly. “Gone!” he announced
suddenly; coming out of his scrutiny.
“What, your button?” Harriet pulled
him up to her. “I’ll sew it on in a jiffy.
Don’t worry about the bees, Mother. I
can manage them, if they decide to swarm
before you get back, and while you’re at
the Blisses’ just telephone central our
phone’s out of order—and oh, please tell
Mrs. Cameron we’re keeping Elliott till
afternoon.”
Mrs. Gordon departed and Harriet
sewed on the button. “There, Johnny, now
you’re all right. You can run out and
play.”
But Johnny became suddenly galvanized
into action. He dived into a small pocket
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and produced a note, crumpled and soiled,
but still legible.
“If that isn’t provoking!” said Harriet,
when she had read it. “Why didn’t you
give me this the first thing, Johnny? Then
Mother could have done this telephoning,
too, at the Blisses’.”
“What is it?” asked Elliott.
“A message Johnny’s mother wants
sent. She’s our hired man’s wife and I
must say at times she shows about as much
brains as a chicken. You’d think she’d
know our ’phone wouldn’t be likely to
work, if hers didn’t. Now I shall have to
go over to the Blisses’ myself, I suppose.
The message seems fairly important.
Where has your mother gone, Johnny?”
But Johnny didn’t know; beyond a
vague “she wided away” he was non-committal.
“She might have stopped somewhere
and telephoned for herself, I should
think,” grumbled Harriet. “I’ll be back
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in a few minutes. Or will you come, too?
If I can’t ’phone from the Blisses’ I may
have to go farther.”
“I’ll stay here, I think, and wash up
my dishes. And after that I’ll finish the
peas.”
“Mercy me, I shan’t be gone that long!
We’re shelling these to put up, you know.
Don’t bother about washing your dishes,
either. They’ll keep.”
“Who’s saying bother, now?” Elliott’s
dimples twinkled mischievously.
Harriet laughed. “You and Johnny
can mind the place. The men and Alma
are all off at the lower farm and here goes
the last woman. Good-by.”
Elliott went briskly about her program.
She found soap and a pan and rinsed her
dishes under the hot-water faucet. Then
she sat down to the peas. Johnny, who
had followed her about for a while, deserted
her for pressing affairs of his own
out-of-doors. Elliott pinched the pods as
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scientifically as she knew how and wondered
whether, if she should shell peas all
her life, her slender fingers would ever
acquire the lightning nimbleness of the
Gordons’ fat ones. How long Harriet
was gone!
She was thinking about this when she
heard something that made her first stop
her work to listen and then jump up hurriedly,
spilling the peas out of her lap.
The wailing of a terrified child was coming
nearer and nearer. Elliott set down
the peas that were left and ran out on the
veranda. There was Johnny stumbling
up the path, crying at the top of his lungs.
“Why, Johnny!” She ran toward him.
“Why, Johnny, what is the matter?”
Johnny precipitated himself into her
arms in a torrent of tears. Not a word
was distinguishable, but his wails pierced
the girl’s ear-drums.
“Johnny! Johnny, stop it! Tell me
where you’re hurt.”
But Johnny only sobbed the harder.
He couldn’t be in danger of death—could
he?—when he screamed so. That
showed his lungs were all right, and his
legs worked, too, and his arms. They
were digging into her now, with a force
that almost upset her equilibrium. Could
something be wrong inside of him?
“What’s the matter, Johnny? Stop
crying and tell me.”
Johnny’s yells slackened for want of
breath. He held up one brown little hand.
She inspected it. Dirty, of course, unspeakably,
but otherwise—Oh, there was a
bunch on one knuckle, a bunch that was
swelling. “Is that where it hurts you,
Johnny?”
Johnny nodded, gulping.
“Did something sting you?”
“Bee stung Johnny. Naughty bee!”
The girl stared at the small grimy hand
in consternation. A bee sting! What
did you do for a bee sting or any kind of
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a sting for that matter? Mosquitoes—hamamelis.
And where did the Gordons
keep their hamamelis bottle?
Johnny’s screams, abated in expectation
of relief, began to rise once more. He
was angry. Why didn’t she do something?
This delay was unendurable.
His voice mounted in a long, piercing wail.
“Don’t cry,” the girl said nervously.
“Don’t cry. Let’s go into the house and
find something.”
Up-stairs and down she trailed the
shrieking child. At the Cameron farm
there were two hamamelis bottles, one in
the bath-room, the other on a shelf in the
kitchen. But nothing rewarded her
search here. If only some one were at
home! If only the telephone weren’t out
of order! Desperately she took down the
receiver, to be greeted by a faint, continuous
buzzing. There was nothing for it;
she must leave Johnny and run to a neighbor’s.
But Johnny refused to be left. He
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clung to her and kicked and screamed for
pain and the terror of finding his secure
baby world falling to pieces about his
ears.
“It’s a shame, Johnny. I ought to
know what to do, but I don’t. You come
too, then.”
But Johnny refused to budge. He
threw himself on his back on the veranda
and beat the floor with his heels and wailed
long heart-piercing wails that trembled
into sobbing silence, only to begin all over
with fresh vigor. Elliott was at her wits’
end. She didn’t dare go away and leave
him; she was afraid he might kill himself
crying. But mightn’t he do so if she
stayed? He pushed her away when she
tried to comfort him. There was only one
thing that he wanted; he would have none
of her, if she didn’t give it to him.
Never in her life had Elliott Cameron
felt so insignificant, so helpless and futile,
as she did at that minute. “Oh, you
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poor baby!” she cried, and hated herself
for her ignorance. Laura would have
known what to do; Harriet Gordon would
have known. Would nobody ever come?
“What’s the matter with him?” The
question barked out, brusque and sharp,
but never had a voice sounded more welcome
in Elliott Cameron’s ears. She
turned around in joyful relief to encounter
a pair of gimlet-like black eyes in the face
of an old woman. She was an ugly little
old woman in a battered straw hat and a
shabby old jacket, though the day was
warm, and a faded print skirt that was
draggled with mud at the hem. Her hair
strayed untidily about her face and unfathomable
scorn looked out of her snapping
black eyes.
“It’s a—a bee sting,” stammered the
girl, shrinking under the scorn.
“Hee-hee-hee!” The old woman’s
laughter was cracked and high. “What
kind of a lummux are you? Don’t know
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what to do for a bee sting! Hee-hee!
Mud, you gawk you, mud!”
She bent down and slapped up a handful
of wet soil from the edge of the fern
bed below the veranda. “Put that on
him,” she said and went away giggling a
girl’s shrill giggle and muttering between
her giggles: “Don’t know what to do for
a bee sting. Hee-hee!”
For a whole minute after the queer old
woman had gone Elliott stood there, staring
down at the spatter of mud on the
steps, dismay and wrath in her heart.
Then, because she didn’t know anything
else to do and because Johnny’s screams
had redoubled, she stooped, and with
gingerly care picked up the lump of black
mud and went over to the boy. Mud
couldn’t hurt him, she thought, put on outside;
it certainly couldn’t hurt him, but
could it help?
She sat down on the floor and lifted
the little swollen fist and held the cool mud
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on it, neither noticing nor caring that some
trickled down on her own skirt. She sat
there a long time, or so it seemed, while
Johnny’s yells sank to long-drawn sobs
and then ceased altogether as he snuggled
forgivingly against her arm. And in her
heart was a great shame and an aching
feeling of inadequacy and failure. Elliott
Cameron had never known so bitter a five
minutes. All her pride and self-sufficiency
were gone. What was she good for
in a practical emergency? Just nothing
at all. She didn’t know even the commonest
things, not the commonest.
“It must have been Witless Sue,” said
Aunt Jessica, late that afternoon, when Elliott
told her the story. “She is a half-witted
old soul who wanders about digging
herbs in summer and lives on the
town farm in winter. There’s no harm in
her.”
“Half-witted!” said Elliott. “She knew
more than I did.”
“You have not had the opportunity to
learn.”
“That didn’t make it any better for
Johnny. Laura knows all those things,
doesn’t she? And Trudy, too?”
“I think they know what to do in the
simpler emergencies of life.”
“I wish I did. I took a first-aid course,
but it didn’t have stings in it, not as far as
we’d gone when I came away. We were
taught bandaging and using splints and
things like that.”
“Very useful knowledge.”
“But Johnny got stung,” said Elliott, as
though nothing mattered beyond that
fact. “Do you think you could teach me
things, now and then, Aunt Jessica? the
things Laura and Trudy know?”
“Surely,” said Aunt Jessica, “and very
gladly. There are things that you could
teach Laura and Trudy, too. Don’t forget
that entirely.”
“Could I? Useful things?” She asked
the question with humility.
“Very useful things in certain kinds of
emergency. What did Mrs. Gordon do
for Johnny when she got home?”
“Oh, she washed his hand and soaked
it in strong soda and water, baking-soda,
and then she bound some soda right on, for
good measure, she said.”
“There!” said Aunt Jessica. “Now
you know two things to do for a bee sting.”
Elliott opened her eyes wide. “Why, so
I do, don’t I? I truly do.”
“That’s the way people learn,” said
Mother Jess, “by emergencies. It is the
only way they are sure to remember.
Laura is helping Henry milk. Suppose
you make us some biscuit for supper, Elliott.”
Elliott started to say, “I’ve never made
biscuit,” but shut her lips tight before the
words slipped out.
“I will tell you the rule. You’d better
double it for our family. Everything is
plainly marked in the pantry. Perhaps
the fire needs another stick before you begin.”
Carefully the girl selected a stick from
the wood-box. “Just let me get my apron,
Aunt Jessica,” she said.