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CHAPTER IX
ELLIOTT ACTS ON AN IDEA
Six weeks later a girl was busy in the
sunny white kitchen of the Cameron
farm. The girl wore a big blue apron
that covered her gown completely from
neck to hem, and she hummed a little song
as she moved from sink to range and
range to table. There was about her a
delicate air of importance, almost of elation.
You know as well as I where Elliott
Cameron ought to have been by this
time. Six weeks plus how many other
weeks was it since she left home? The
quarantine must have been lifted from her
Uncle James’s house for at least a month.
But the girl in the kitchen looked surprisingly
like Elliott Cameron. If it wasn’t
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she, it must have been her twin, and I
have never heard that Elliott had a twin.
Though she was all alone in the kitchen—washing
potatoes, too—she didn’t appear
in the least unhappy. She went over
to the stove, lifted a lid, glanced in, and
added two or three sticks of wood to the
fire. Then she brought out a pan of
apples and went down cellar after a roll
of pie crust. Some one else may have
made that pie crust. Elliott took it into
the pantry, turned the board on the
flour barrel, shook flour evenly over
it from the sifter, and, cutting off
one end of the pie crust, began to roll
it out thin on the board. She arranged
the lower crust on three pie-plates, and,
going into the kitchen again, began to peel
the apples and cut them up into the pies.
Perhaps she wasn’t so quick about it as
Laura might have been, but she did very
well. The skin fell from her knife in
long, thin, curly strips. After that she
finished the pies off in the pantry and
tucked all three into the oven. Squatting
on her feet in front of the door, she studied
the dial intently for a moment and hesitatingly
pushed the draft just a crack
open. If it hadn’t been for that momentary
indecision, you might have
thought that she had been baking pies all
her life. Then she began to peel the
potatoes.
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“I’m getting dinner all by myself”
So it was that Stannard found her.
“Hello!” he said, with a grin. “Busy?”
“Indeed, I am! I’m getting dinner all
by myself.”
He went through a pantomime of dodging
a blow. “Whew-ee! Guess I’ll take
to the woods.”
“Better not. If you do, you will miss a
good dinner. Mother Jess said I might
try it. Boiled potatoes and baked fish—she
showed me how to fix that—and corn
and things. There’s one other dish
on my menu that I’m not going to tell
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you.” And all her dimples came into
play.
“H’m!” said Stannard, “we feel pretty
smart, don’t we? Well, maybe I’ll stay
and see how it pans out. A fellow can
always tighten his belt, you know.”
“Aren’t you horrid!” She made up a
face at him, a captivating little grimace
that wrinkled her nose and set imps of
mischief dancing in her eyes.
Stannard watched her as with firm motions
she stripped the husks from the
corn, picking off the clinging strands of
silk daintily.
“Gee, Elliott!” he exclaimed. “Do you
know, you’re prettier than ever!”
She dropped him a courtesy. “I must
be, with a smooch of flour on my nose and
my hair every which way.”
He grinned. “That’s a story. Your
hair looks as though Madame What-’s-her-name,
that you and Mater and the
girls go to so much, had just got through
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with you. I’ve never seen you when you
didn’t look as though you had come out
of a bandbox.”
“Haven’t you? Think again, Stan,
think again! What about your Cousin
Elliott in a corn-field?”
Stannard slapped his thigh. “That’s
so, too! I forgot that. But your hair’s
all to the good, even then.”
“Stan,” warned Elliott, “you’d better
be careful. You will get in too deep to
wade out, if you don’t watch your step.
What are you getting at, anyway? Why
all these compliments?”
“Compliments! A fellow doesn’t have
to praise up his cousin, does he? It just
struck me, all of a sudden, that you look
pretty fit.”
“Thanks. I’m feeling as fit as I look.
Out with it, Stan; what do you want?”
“Why, nothing,” said Stannard, “nothing
at all. Shall I take out those husks,
Lot?”
“Delighted. The pigs eat ’em.” Her
eyes held a quizzical light. “If you’re
trying to rattle me so I shall forget something
and spoil my dinner, you can’t do
it.”
“What do you take me for?” He departed
with the husks, deeply indignant.
In five minutes he was back. “When
are you going home?”
“I don’t know. Not just yet. Your
mother has too many house parties.”
“That won’t make any difference.”
“Oh, yes, it does! Her house is full all
the time.”
“Shucks! Have you asked her if
there’s a room ready for you?”
“Indeed I haven’t! I wouldn’t think
of imposing on a busy hostess.”
“I might say something about it,” he
suggested slyly.
“You will do nothing of the kind.”
“Oh, I don’t know! I’m going home
myself day after to-morrow.”
Hastily Elliott set down the kettle she
had lifted. “Are you? That’s nice. I
mean, we shall miss you, but of course you
have to go some time, I suppose.”
“It won’t be any trouble at all to speak
to Mother.”
“Stannard,” and the color burned in her
cheeks, “will you please stop fiddling
around this kitchen? It makes me nervous
to see you. I nearly burned myself
in the steam of that kettle and I’m liable
to drop something on you any time.”
“Oh, all right! I’ll get out. Fiddling
is a new verb with you, isn’t it?”
“Yes, I picked it up. Very expressive,
I think.”
“Sounds like the natives.”
“Sounds pretty well, then. Did I
hear you say you had an errand somewhere?”
“No, you didn’t. You merely heard
me say that finding myself de trop in my
fair cousin’s company, I’d get out of
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range of her big guns. Never expected
to rattle you, Lot.”
“I’m not rattled.”
“No? Pretty good imitation, then.
Oh, I’m going! Mother’s ready for you
all right, though; says so in this letter.
Here, I’ll stick it in your apron pocket.
Better come along with me, day after to-morrow.
What say?”
“I’ll see,” said Elliott, briefly.
He grinned teasingly, “Ta-ta,” and
went off, leaving turmoil behind him.
The minute Stannard was out of the
door Elliott did a strange thing. Reaching
with wet pink thumb and forefinger
into the depths of the blue apron pocket,
she extracted the letter and hurled it
across the kitchen into a corner.
“There!” she cried disdainfully, “you
go over there and stay a while, horrid old
letter! I’m not going to let you spoil my
perfectly good time getting dinner.”
But it was spoiled: no mere words
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could alter the fact. Try as she would to
put the letter out of her mind and think
only of how to do a dozen things at once
one quarter as quickly and skilfully as
Laura and Aunt Jessica did them, which
is what the apparently simple process of
dishing up a dinner means, the fine thrill
of the enterprise was gone. Laura came
in to help her and Elliott’s tongue tripped
briskly through a deal of chatter, but all
the while underneath there was a little
undercurrent of uneasiness and anxiety.
Wouldn’t you have thought it would
delight her to have the opportunity of
doing what she had so much wished to
do?
“What’s this?” Laura asked, spying
the white envelop on the floor; “a letter?”
“Oh, yes,” said Elliott, “one I dropped,”
and she tucked it into the pocket of the
white skirt that had been all the time
under the blue apron, giving it a vindictive
little slap as she did so. Which, of
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course, was quite uncalled for, as if any
one was responsible for what was in the
letter, that person was Elliott Cameron.
The fact that she knew this very well only
added a little extra vigor to the slap.
And all through dinner she sat and
laughed and chattered away, exactly as
though she weren’t conscious in every
nerve of the letter in her pocket, despite
the fact that she didn’t know a word it
said. But she didn’t eat much: the taste
of food seemed to choke her. Her gaze
wandered from Mother Jess to Father
Bob and back, around the circle of eager,
happy, alert faces. And she felt—poor
Elliott!—as though her first discontent
were a boomerang now returned to stab
her.
“This is Elliott’s dinner, I would have
you all know,” announced Laura when the
pie was served. “She did it all herself.”
“Not every bit,” said Elliott, honestly;
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but her disclaimer was lost in the chorus
of praise.
Father Bob laid down his fork, looking
pleased. “Did you, indeed? Now, this
is what I call a well-cooked dinner.”
“I’ll give you a recommend for a cook,”
drawled Stannard, “and eat my words
about tightening my belt, too.”
“Some dinner!” Bruce commented.
“Please, I’d like another piece,” said
Priscilla.
“Me, too,” chimed in Tom. “It’s corking.”
Laura clapped her hands. “Listen,
Elliott, listen! Could praise go further?”
But Mother Jess, when they rose from
the table, slipped an arm through Elliott’s
and drew her toward the veranda. “Did
the cook lose her appetite getting dinner,
little girl?”
“Oh, no, indeed, Aunt Jessica! Getting
dinner didn’t tire me a bit. I just
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loved it. I—I didn’t seem to feel hungry
this noon, that was all.”
Mother Jess patted her arm. “Well,
run away now, dear. You are not to give
a thought to the dishes. We will see to
them.”
At that minute Elliott almost told her
about the letter in her pocket, that lay like
a lump of lead on her heart. But Henry
appeared just then in the doorway and the
moment passed.
“Run away, dear,” repeated Aunt
Jessica, and gave the girl a little push and
another little pat. “Run away and get
rested.”
Slowly Elliott went down the steps and
along the path that led to the flower borders
and the apple trees. She wasn’t
really conscious of the way she was going;
her feet took charge of her and carried
her body along while her mind was busy.
When she came out among a few big trees
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with a welter of piled-up crests on every
side, she was really astonished.
“Why!” she cried; “why, here I am on
the top of the hill!”
A low, flat rock invited her and she sat
down. It was queer how different everything
seemed up here. What looked large
from below had dwindled amazingly. It
took, she decided, a pretty big thing to
look big on a hilltop.
She drew Aunt Margaret’s letter out of
her pocket and read it. It was very nice,
but somehow had no tug to it. Phrases
from a similar letter of Aunt Jessica’s returned
to the girl’s mind. How stupid
she had been not to appreciate that letter!—stupid
and incredibly silly.
But hadn’t she felt something else in
her pocket just now? Conscience pricked
when she saw Elizabeth Royce’s handwriting.
The seal had not been broken,
though the letter had come yesterday.
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She remembered now. They were putting
up corn and she had tucked it into
her pocket for later reading and then had
forgotten it completely. Luckily, Bess
need never know that. But what would
Bess have said to see her friend Elliott,
corn to the right of her, corn to the left
of her, cobs piled high in the summer
kitchen?
Bess’s staccato sentences furnished a
sufficiently emphatic clue. “You poor,
abused dear! Whenever are you coming
home? If I had an aëroplane I’d fly up
and carry you off. You must be nearly
crazy! Those letters you wrote were the
most TRAGIC things! I shouldn’t have
been a bit surprised any time to hear you
were sick. Are you sick? Perhaps
that’s why you don’t write or come home.
Wire me the minute you get this. Oh,
Elliott darling, when I think of you
marooned in that awful place—”
There was more of it. As Elliott read,
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she did a strange thing. She began to
laugh. But even while she laughed she
blushed, too. Had she sounded as desperate
as all that? How far away such
tragedies seemed now! Suppose she
should write, “Dear Bess, I like it up here
and I am going to stay my year out.”
Bess would think her crazy; so would all
the girls, and Aunt Margaret, too.
And then suddenly an arresting idea
came into her head. What difference
would it make if they did think her crazy?
Elliott Cameron had never had such an
idea before; all her life she had in a perfectly
nice way thought a great deal about
what people thought of her. This idea
was so strange it set her gasping. “But
how they would talk about me!” she said.
And then her brain clicked back, exactly
like another person speaking, “What if
they did? That wouldn’t really make
you crazy, would it?” “Why, no, I suppose
it wouldn’t,” she thought. “And
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most likely they’d be all talked out by the
time I got back, too. But even if they
weren’t, any one would be crazy to think
it was crazy to want to stay up here at
Uncle Bob’s and Aunt Jessica’s. Even
Stannard has stayed weeks longer than he
needed to!”
When she thought of that she opened
her eyes wide for a minute. “Oho!” she
said to herself; “I guess Stan did get a
rise out of me! You were easy game that
time, Elliott Cameron.”
She sat on her mossy stone a long time.
There wasn’t anything in the world, was
there, to stand in the way of her staying
her year out, the year she had been invited
for, except her own silly pride? What a
little goose she had been! She sat and
smiled at the mountains and felt very
happy and fresh and clean-minded, as
though her brain had finished a kind of
house-cleaning and were now put to rights
again, airy and sweet and ready for use.
The postman’s wagon flashed by on the
road below. She could see the faded gray
of the man’s coat. He had been to the
house and was townward bound now.
How late he was! Nothing to hurry
down for. There would be a letter, perhaps,
but not one from Father. His had
come yesterday. She rose after a while
and drifted down through the still September
warmth, as quiet and lazy and contented
as a leaf.
Priscilla’s small excited face met her at
the door.
“Sidney’s sick; we just got the letter.
Mother’s going to camp to-morrow.”
“Sidney sick! Who wrote? What’s
the matter?”
“He did. He’s not much sick, but he
doesn’t feel just right. He’s in the hospital.
I guess he can’t be much sick, if he
wrote, himself. Mother wasn’t to come,
he said, but she’s going.”
“Of course.” Nervous fear clutched
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Elliott’s throat, like an icy hand. Oh,
poor Aunt Jessica! Poor Laura!
“Where are they?” she asked.
“In Mumsie’s room,” said Priscilla.
“We’re all helping.”
Elliott mounted the stairs. She had to
force her feet along, for they wished,
more than anything else, to run away.
What should she say? She tried to think
of words. As it turned out, she didn’t
have to say anything.
Laura was the only person in Aunt
Jessica’s room when they reached it. She
sat in a low chair by a window, mending a
gray blouse.
“Elliott’s come to help, too,” announced
Priscilla.
“That’s good,” said Laura. “You can
put a fresh collar and cuffs in this gray
waist of Mother’s, Elliott—I’ll have it
done in a minute—while I go set the
crab-apple jelly to drip. And perhaps
you can mend this little tear in her skirt.
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Then I’ll press the suit. There isn’t
anything very tremendous to do.”
It was all so matter-of-fact and quiet
and natural that Elliott didn’t know what
to make of it. She managed to gasp, “I
hope Sidney isn’t very sick.”
“He thinks not,” said Laura, “but of
course Mother wants to see for herself.
She is telephoning Mrs. Blair now about
the Ladies’ Aid. They were to have met
here this week. Mother thinks perhaps
she can arrange an exchange of dates,
though I tell her if Sid’s as he says he is,
they might just as well come.”
Elliott, who had been all ready to put
her arms around Laura’s neck and kiss
and comfort her, felt the least little bit
taken aback. It seemed that no comfort
was needed. But it was a relief, too.
Laura couldn’t sit there, so cool and calm
and natural-looking, sewing and talking
about crab-apple juice and Ladies’ Aid, if
there were anything radically wrong.
Then Aunt Jessica came into the room
and said that Mrs. Blair would like the
Ladies’ Aid, herself, that week; she had
been wishing she could have them; and
didn’t Elliott feel the need of something
to eat to supplement her scanty dinner?
That put to rout the girl’s last fears.
She smiled quite naturally and said without
any stricture in her throat: “Honestly,
I’m not hungry. And I am going to put
a clean collar in your blouse.”
“What should I do without my girls!”
smiled Mother Jess.
It was after supper that the telegram
came, but even then there was no panic.
These Camerons didn’t do any of the
things Elliott had once or twice seen
people do in her Aunt Margaret’s household.
No one ran around futilely, doing
nothing; no one had hysterics; no one even
cried.
Mother Jess’s face went very white
when Father Bob came back from the telephone
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and said, “Sidney isn’t so well.”
“Have they sent for us?”
He nodded. “You’d better take the
sleeper. The eighty-thirty from Upton
will make it.”
“Can you—?”
“Not with things the way they are
here.”
Then they all scattered, to do the things
that had to be done. Elliott was helping
Laura pack the suit-case when she had
her idea. It really was a wonderful idea
for a girl who had never in her life put
herself out for any one else. Like a flash
the first part of it came to her, without
thought of a sequel; and the words were
out of her mouth almost before she was
aware she had thought them.
“You ought to go, Laura!” she cried.
“Sidney is your twin.”
“I’d like to go.” Something in the
guarded tone, something deep and intense
and controlled, struck Elliott to consternation.
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If Laura felt that way about it!
“Why don’t you, Laura? Can’t you
possibly?”
The other shook her head. “Mother is
the one to go. If we both went, who
would keep house here?”
For a fraction of a second Elliott hesitated.
“I would.”
The words once spoken, fairly swept
her out of herself. All her little prudences
and selfishnesses and self-distrusts
went overboard together. Her cheeks
flamed. She dropped the brush and comb
she was packing and dashed out of the
room.
A group of people stood in the kitchen.
Without stopping to think, Elliott ran up
to them.
“Can’t Laura go?” she cried eagerly.
“It will be so much more comfortable to
be two than one. And she is Sidney’s
twin. I don’t know a great deal, but
people will help me, and I got dinner this
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noon. Oh, she must go! Don’t you see
that she must go?”
Father Bob looked at the girl for a
minute in silence. Then he spoke:
“Well, I guess you’re right. I will look
after the chickens.”
“I’ll mix their feed,” said Gertrude; “I
know just how Laura does it—and I’ll do
the dishes.”
“I’ll get breakfasts,” said Bruce.
“I’ll make the butter,” said Tom.
“I’ve watched Mother times enough. And
helped her, too.”
“I’ll see to Prince and the kitty,”
chimed in Priscilla, “and do, oh, lots of
things!”
“I’ll be responsible for the milk,” said
Henry.
“I’ll keep house,” said Elliott, “if you
leave me anything to do.”
“And I’ll help you,” said Harriet
Gordon.
It was really settled in that minute,
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though Father Bob and Mother Jess talked
it over again by themselves.
“Are you sure, dear, you want to do
this?” Mother Jess asked Elliott.
“Perfectly sure,” the girl answered.
She felt excited and confident, as though
she could do anything.
“It won’t be easy.”
“I know that. But please let me try.”
“And there are the Gordons,” said
Mother Jess, half to herself.
“Yes,” echoed Elliott, “there are the
Gordons.”
When the little car ran up to the door
to take the two over to Upton and Mother
Jess and Laura were saying good-by,
Laura strained Elliott tight. “I’ll love
you forever for this,” she whispered.
Then they were off and with them
seemed to have gone something indispensable
to the well-being of the people who
lived in the white house at the end of the
road. Elliott, watching the car vanish
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around a turn in the road, hugged Laura’s
words tight to her heart. It was the only
way to keep her knees from wabbling at
the thought of what was before her.
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CHAPTER X
WHAT’S IN A DRESS?
Of course Elliott never could have
done it without the Gordons.
Elliott and Harriet made the crab-apple
juice into jelly, Mrs. Gordon sent in bread
and cookies, and both mother and daughter
stood behind the girl with their skill and
experience, ready to be called on at a
moment’s notice.
“Just send for us any time you get into
trouble or want help about something,”
said Mrs. Gordon over the telephone.
“One of us will come right up. Most
likely it will be Harriet. I’m so cumbersome,
I can’t get about as I’d like to.
Large bodies move slowly, you know.”
Other people besides the Gordons sent
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in things to eat. Elliott thought she had
never known such a stream of generosity
as set toward the white house at the end
of the road—intelligent generosity, too.
There seemed a definite plan and some
consultation behind it. Mr. Blair brought
a roast of beef already cooked, from Mrs.
Blair, and hoped for both of them that
there would soon be good news of the boy.
The Blisses sent in pies enough for two
days and asked Elliott to let them know
when she was ready for more. People
she knew and people she didn’t know
brought rolls and cookies and doughnuts
and gelatines and even roast chickens, and
asked, with real anxiety in their voices, for
the latest news from Camp Devens.
They didn’t bring their offerings all at
once; they brought them continuously and
steadily and with truly remarkable appropriateness.
Just when Elliott was thinking
that she must begin to cook, something
was sure to rattle up to the door in a
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wagon, or roll up in an automobile, or
travel on foot in a basket. It was the extreme
timeliness of the gifts that proved
the guiding intelligence behind them.
“They couldn’t all happen so,” was
Henry’s conclusion. “Now, could they?
Gee! and I’ve thought some of those folks
were pokes!”
“So have I,” said Elliott, feeling very
much ashamed of her hasty judgments.
“You never know till you get into
trouble how good people are,” was Father
Bob’s verdict.
Gertrude fingered a doughnut ruefully.
“I want it, but I’m almost ashamed to eat
it. I’ve thought such horrid things of that
old Mrs. Gadsby that made ’em.”
“They’re good,” said Tom. “Mrs.
Gadsby knows how to make doughnuts, if
she has got a tongue in her head! Say,
but I’d as soon have thought old Allen
would send us doughnuts as the Gadsby.”
“Mr. Allen brought us a tongue this
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morning,” Elliott remarked; “said his
housekeeper boiled it; hoped it wasn’t too
tough to eat. You couldn’t ‘git nothin’
good, these days!’”
“Enoch Allen?” demanded Henry;
“the old fellow that lives at the foot of the
hill? Go tell that to the marines!”
“I don’t know where he lives,” said
Elliott, “but he certainly said his name
was Enoch Allen.”
Bruce chuckled. “Mother Jess’s chickens
have come home to roost, all right.”
“What did she ever do for Enoch
Allen?” asked Tom.
“Oh, don’t you remember,” cried Gertrude,
“the time his old dog died?
Mother found the dog one day, dying in
the woods. I was along and she sent me
to call Mr. Allen, while she stayed with
the dog. I was just a little girl and kind
of scared, but Mother said Mr. Allen
wasn’t anybody to be afraid of; he was
just a lonely old man. I heard him tell
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her it wasn’t every woman would have
stayed with his dog. It was dead when
he got there.”
But even with competent advisers
within call and all the aids that came in
the shape of “Mother Jess’s chickens,”
and with the best family in the world all
eagerness to be helpful and to “carry on”
during Laura and Mother Jess’s absence,
Elliott found that housekeeping wasn’t
half so simple as it looked.
Life still had its moments and she was
in the midst of one of the worst of them
now. If you have ever stood in a kitchen
where little gray kittens of dust rollicked
under the chairs and all the dinner kettles
and pans were piled on the table, unscraped
and unwashed, and you saw ahead of you
more things that you had planned to do
than you could possibly get through before
supper, and one girl was crying in the attic
and another was crying in the china-closet,
and your own heart was in your
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boots, you know how Elliott Cameron felt
at this minute. Everything had gone
wrong, since the time she got up half an
hour late in the morning; but the most
wrong thing of all was the letter from
Laura.
It had come just as they were finishing
dinner, for the postman was late. Father
Bob had cut it open, while every one looked
eager and hopeful. Mother Jess had
written the day before that the doctors
thought Sidney was better; there had been
a telegram to that effect, too. Father
Bob read Laura’s letter quite through before
he opened his lips. It wasn’t a long
letter. Then he said: “The boy’s not so
well, to-day.—Bruce, we must finish the
ensilage. Come out as soon as you’re
through, boys. Tom, I want you to get
in the tomatoes before night. We’re due
for a freeze, unless signs fail.” Not another
word about Sidney. And he went
right out of the room.
“What does she say?” whispered Gertrude,
dropping her fork so that it rattled
against her plate. Gertrude was always
dropping things, but this time she didn’t
flush, as she usually did, at her own
awkwardness.
Elliott picked up the letter Father Bob
had left beside her plate. She dreaded to
unfold the single sheet, but what else could
she do, with all those pairs of anxious eyes
fixed on her? She steadied her voice and
read slowly and without a trace of expression:
“Sidney had a bad time in the night, but is
resting more easily this morning. Mother never
leaves him. Every one is so good to us here.
His officers seem to think a lot of Sid. So do
the men of his company, as far as we have seen
them. I don’t know what to write you, Father.
The doctor says, ‘While there’s life there’s
hope, and that our coming is the only thing that
has saved Sid so far. He says that he has seen
the sickest of boys pull through with their
mothers here. We will telegraph when there is
any change. Love to all of you, dear ones, and
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tell Elliott I shall never forget what she has done
for me.
“Laura”
The room was very still for a minute.
Elliott kept her eyes on the letter, to hide
the tears that filled them. Sidney was going
to die; she knew it.
Slowly, silently, one after another, they
all got up from the table. The boys filed
out into the kitchen, washed their hands
at the sink, and still without a word went
about their work. Gertrude and Priscilla
began mechanically to clear the table. A
plate crashed to the floor from Gertrude’s
hands and shattered to fragments. She
stared at the pieces stupidly, as though
wondering how they had come there, took
a step in the direction of the dust-pan, and,
suddenly bursting into tears, turned and
ran out of the room. Elliott could hear
her feet pounding up-stairs, on, on, till
they reached the attic. A door slammed
and all was quiet.
Down in the kitchen Elliott and Priscilla
faced each other. Great round drops
were running down Priscilla’s cheeks, but
she looked up at Elliott trustfully. And
then Elliott failed her. She knew herself
that she was failing. But it seemed as
though she just couldn’t keep from crying.
“Oh, dear!” she sighed. “Oh, dear, isn’t
everything just awful!” Then she did
cry.
And over Priscilla’s sober little face—Elliott
wasn’t so blinded by her tears that
she failed to see it—came the queerest expression
of stupefaction and woe and utter
forlornness. It was after that that
Elliott heard Priscilla sobbing in the china-closet.
Her first impulse was to go to the closet
and pull the child out. Her second was
to let her stay. “She may as well have
her cry out,” thought the girl, unhappily.
“I couldn’t do anything to comfort her!”—which
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shows how very, very, very
miserable Elliott was, herself.
The world was topsyturvy and would
never get right again.
Instead of going for Priscilla she went
for a dust-pan and brush and collected the
fragments of broken china. Then she
began to pile up the dishes, but, after a
few futile movements, sat down in a chair
and cried again. It didn’t seem worth
while to do anything else. So now there
were three girls crying all at once in that
house and every one of them in a different
place. When at last Elliott did look in
the closet Priscilla wasn’t there.
The appearance of that usually spotless
kitchen had a queer effect on Elliott. She
saw so many things needing to be done at
once that she didn’t do any of them. She
simply stood and stared hopelessly at the
wreck of comfort and cleanliness and good
cheer.
“Hello!” said Bruce at the door.
“Want an extra hand for an hour?”
“I thought you were cutting ensilage,”
said Elliott. It was good to see Bruce;
the courage in his voice lifted her spirits
in spite of her.
“I’ve left a substitute.” The boy
glanced into the stove and started for the
wood-box.
“Oh, dear! I forgot that fire. Has it
gone out?”
“Not quite. I’ll have it going again
in a jiff.”
He came back with a broom in his
hands.
“Let me do that,” said the girl.
“Oh, all right.” He relinquished the
broom and brought out the dish-pan.
“Hi-yi, Stan, lend a hand here!”
The boy in the doorway gave one glance
at Elliott’s tear-stained face and came
quietly into the room. “Sure,” he said,
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picking up a dish-cloth and gingerly
reaching for a tumbler. “Which end do
you take ’em by, top or bottom?”
Stannard wiping dishes, and with
Bruce Fearing! The sight was so strange
that Elliott’s broom stopped moving.
The two boys at the dish-pan chaffed each
other good-naturedly; their jokes might
have seemed a little forced, had you
examined them carefully, but the effect
was normal and cheering. Now and then
they threw a word to the girl and the pile
of clean dishes grew under their hands.
Elliott’s broom began to move again.
Something warm stirred at her heart.
She felt sober and humble and ashamed
and—yes, happy—all at once. How nice
boys were when they were nice!
Then she remembered something.
“Oh, Stan, wasn’t it to-day you were
going home?”
“Nix,” Stannard replied. “Guess I’ll
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stay on a bit. School hasn’t begun. I
want to go nutting before I hit the trail
for home.”
It was a different-looking kitchen the
boys left half an hour later and a different-looking
girl.
Bruce lingered a minute behind Stannard.
“We haven’t had any telegram,”
he said. “Remember that. And as for
things in here, I wouldn’t let ’em bother
me, if I were you! You can’t do everything,
you know. Keep cool, feed us the
stuff folks send in, and let some things
slide.”
“Mother Jess doesn’t let things slide.”
“Mother Jess has been at it a good many
years, but I’ll bet she would now and then
if things got too thick and she couldn’t
keep both ends up. There’s more to
Mother Jess’s job than what they call
housekeeping.”
“Oh, yes,” sighed Elliott, “I know that.
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But just what do you mean, Bruce, that I
could do?”
He hesitated a minute. “Well, call it
morale. That suggests the thing.”
Elliott thought hard for a minute after
the door closed on Bruce. Perhaps, after
all, seeing that the family had three meals
a day and lived in a decently clean house
and slept warm at night, necessary as such
oversight was, wasn’t the most imperative
business in hand. Somehow or other
those things weren’t at all what came into
her mind when she thought of Aunt
Jessica—no, indeed, though Aunt Jessica
made such perfectly delicious things to
eat. What came into her mind was far
different—like the way Aunt Jessica had
sat on Elliott’s bed and kissed her, that
homesick first night; Aunt Jessica’s face
at meal-time, with Uncle Bob across the
table and all her boys and girls filling the
space between; Aunt Jessica comforting
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Priscilla when the child had met with some
mishap. Priscilla seldom cried when she
hurt herself; “Mother kisses the place
and makes it well.” The words linked
themselves with Bruce’s in Elliott’s
thought. Was that what he had meant
by morale? She couldn’t have put into
words what she understood just then.
For a minute a door in her brain seemed
to swing open and she saw straight into
the heart of things. Then it clicked together
and left her saying, “I guess I fell
down on that part of my job, Mother
Jess.”
Elliott hung up her apron and mounted
the stairs. She didn’t stop with the
second floor and her own little room, but
kept right on to the attic. There was a
door at the head of the attic stairs.
Elliott pushed it open. On a broken-backed
horsehair sofa Gertrude lay, face
down, her nose buried in a faded pillow.
In a wabbly rocker, at imminent risk of a
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breakdown, Priscilla jerked back and
forth. Gertrude’s hair was tousled and
Priscilla’s face was tear-stained and
swollen.
“Don’t you think,” Elliott suggested,
“it is time we girls washed our faces and
made ourselves pretty?”
“I left you all the dishes to do.” Gertrude’s
voice was muffled by the pillow.
“I—I just couldn’t help it.”
“That’s all right. They’re done now.
I didn’t do them, either. Let’s go down-stairs
and wash up.”
“I don’t want to be pretty,” Priscilla
objected, continuing to rock. Gertrude
neither moved nor spoke again.
What should Elliott do? She remembered
Bruce.
“We haven’t had any telegram, you
know,” she said. Nobody spoke. “Well,
then, we were three little geese, weren’t
we? Not having had a telegram means a
lot just now.” Priscilla stopped rocking.
“I’m going to believe Sidney will get
well,” Elliott continued. It was hard
work to talk to such unresponsive ears, but
she kept right on. “And now I am going
down-stairs to put on one of my prettiest
dresses, so as to look cheerful for supper.
You may try whether you can get into that
blue dress of mine you like so much,
Trudy. I’m going to let Priscilla wear
my coral beads.”
“The pink ones?” asked Priscilla.
“The pink ones. They will be just a
match for your pink dress.”
“I don’t feel like dressing up,” said
Gertrude.
Elliott felt like clapping her hands.
She had roused Trudy to speech.
“Then wear something of your own,”
she said stanchly. “It doesn’t matter
what we wear, so long as we look nice.”
Mercurial Priscilla was already feeling
the new note in the air. Elliott wouldn’t
talk so, would she, if Sidney really were
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not going to get well? And yet there was
Gertrude, who didn’t seem to feel cheered
up a bit. Pris’s little heart was torn.
Elliott tried one last argument. “I
think Mother Jess would like to have us do
it for Father Bob and the boys’ sake—to
help keep up their courage.”
Priscilla bounced out of the rocker.
“Will it help keep up their courage for us
to wear our pretty clothes?”
“I had a notion it might.”
“Let’s do it, Trudy. I—I think I feel
better already.”
Gertrude sat up on the horsehair sofa.
“Maybe Mother would like us to.”
“I’m sure she’d like us to keep on
hoping,” said Elliott earnestly. “And it
doesn’t matter what we do, so long as we
do something to show that’s the way
we’ve made up our minds to feel. If you
can think of any better way to show it than
by dressing up, Trudy—”
“No,” said Gertrude. “But I think I’ll
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wear my own clothes to-day, Elliott.
Thank you, just the same. Some day, if
Sid—I mean some day I’ll love to try on
your blue dress, if you will let me.”
Three girls, as pretty and chic and trim
as nature and the contents of their closets
could make them, sat down to supper that
night. It was not a jolly meal, but the
girls set the pace, and every one did his
best to be cheerful and brave.
Half-way through supper Stannard laid
down his fork to ask a question.
“What’s happened to your hair, Trudy?”
“Elliott did it for me. Do you like it?”
Stannard nodded. “Good work!”
Father Bob, his attention aroused, inspected
the three with new interest in his
sober eyes. He said nothing then, but
after supper his hand fell on Elliott’s
shoulder approvingly.
“Well done, little girl! That’s the
right way. Face the music with your
chin up.”
Elliott felt exactly as though some one
had stiffened her spine. The least little
doubt had been creeping into her mind lest
what she had done had been heartless.
Father Bob’s words put that qualm at rest.
And, of course, good news would come
from Sidney in the morning.
But courage has a way of ebbing in
spite of one. It was dark and very cold
when a forlorn little figure appeared beside
Elliott’s bed.
“I can’t go to sleep. Trudy’s asleep.
I can hear her. I think I am going to
cry again.”
Elliott sat up. What should she do?
What would Aunt Jessica do?
“Come in here and cry on me.”
Priscilla climbed in between the sheets
and Elliott put both arms around the little
girl. Priscilla snuggled close.
“I tried to think—the way you said, but
I can’t. Is Sidney—” sniffle—“going to
die—” sniffle—“like Ted Gordon?”
“No,” said Elliott, who a minute ago
had been afraid of the very same thing.
“No, I am perfectly positive he is going to
get well.”
Just saying the words seemed to help,
somehow.
Priscilla snuggled closer. “You’re
awful comforting. A person gets scared
at night.”
“A person does, indeed.”
“Not so much when you’ve got company,”
said Priscilla.
The warmth of the little body in her
arms struck through to Elliott’s own
shivering heart. “Not half so much
when you’ve got company,” she acknowledged.
Sure enough, in the morning came
better news. Father Bob’s face,
when he turned around from the telephone,
told that, even before he opened his
lips.
“Sidney is holding his own,” he said.
You may think that wasn’t much better
news, but it meant a great deal to the
Camerons. “Sidney is holding his own,”
they told every one who inquired, and their
faces were hopeful. If Father Bob had
any fears, he kept them to himself. The
rest of the Camerons were young and it
didn’t seem possible to them that Sidney
could do anything but get well. Last
night had been a bad dream, that was all.
The next morning’s message had the
word “better” in it. “Little” stood before
“better,” but nobody, not even Father
Bob, paid much attention to “little.”
Sidney was better. It was a week before
Mother Jess wrote that the doctors pronounced
him out of danger and that she
and Laura would soon be home. Meanwhile,
many things had happened.
You might have thought that Sidney’s
illness was enough trouble to come to the
Camerons at one time, but as Bruce quoted
with a twist in his smile, “It never rains
but it pours.” This time Bruce himself
got the message which came from the War
Department and read:
You are informed that Lieutenant Peter Fearing
has been reported missing since September
fifteenth. Letter follows.
The Camerons felt as badly as though
Peter Fearing had been their own brother.
“The telegram doesn’t say that he’s
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dead,” Trudy declared, over and over
again.
“Maybe he’s a prisoner,” Tom suggested.
“Perhaps he had to come down in a
wood somewhere,” Henry speculated,
“and will get back to our lines.”
“The government makes mistakes
sometimes,” Stannard said. “There was
a woman in Upton—” He went on with
a long story about a woman whose son
was reported killed in France on the very
day the boy had been in his mother’s house
on furlough from a cantonment. There
were a great many interesting and ingenious
details to the story, but nobody
paid much attention to them. “So you
never can tell,” Stannard wound up.
“No, you never can tell,” Bruce agreed,
but he didn’t look convinced. Something,
he was quite sure, was wrong with
Pete.
“Don’t anybody write Mother Jess,” he
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said. “She and Laura have enough to
worry about with Sid.”
“What if they see it in the papers?”
Elliott asked.
“They’re busy. Ten to one they won’t
see it, since it isn’t head-lined on the front
page. Wait till we get the letter.”
“How soon do you suppose the letter
will come?” Gertrude wished to know.
“‘Letter follows,’” Henry read from
the yellow slip which the postman delivered
from the telegraph office. “That
means right away, I should say.”
“Maybe it does and maybe it doesn’t,”
said Tom and then he had a story to tell.
It didn’t take Tom long, for he was a
boy of fewer words than Stannard.
Morning, noon, and night the Camerons
speculated about that telegram. They
combed its words with a fine-toothed comb,
but they couldn’t make anything out of
them except the bald fact that Pete was
missing.
If you think they let it go at that, you
are very much mistaken. Where the fact
stopped the Cameron imaginations began,
and imaginations never know where to
stop. The less actual information an
imagination has to work on, the busier it
is. The Camerons hadn’t any more
imagination than most people, but what
they had grew very busy. It fairly
amazed them with its activity. If you
think that this was silly and that they
ought to have chained up their imaginations
until the promised letter arrived, it
only shows that you have never received
any such telegram.
After all, the letter, when it came,
didn’t tell them much. The letter said
that Lieutenant Peter Fearing had gone
out with his squadron on a bombing-expedition
well within the enemy lines.
The formation had successfully accomplished
its raid and was returning when
it was taken by surprise and surrounded
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by a greatly superior force of enemy
planes, which gave the Americans a running
fight of thirty-nine minutes to their
lines. Lieutenant Fearing’s was one of
two planes which failed to return to the
aërodrome. When last seen, his machine
was in combat with four Hun planes over
enemy territory.
“What did I tell you?” interrupted Tom.
“He’s a prisoner.”
An airplane had been reported as falling
in flames near this spot, but whether
it was Lieutenant Fearing’s machine or
another, no data was as yet at hand to
prove. The writer begged to remain, etc.
No, that letter only opened up fresh
fields for Cameron imaginations to torment
Cameron hearts. Nobody had happened
to think before of Pete’s machine
catching fire.
“Gee!” said Henry, “if that plane was
his—”
“There’s no certainty that it was,” said
Bruce, quickly.
All the Camerons, you see, knew perfectly
well what happens to an aviator
whose machine catches fire.
“If that machine was Pete’s,” Father
Bob mused, “Hun aviators may drop word
of him within our lines. They have done
that kind of thing before.”
“Wouldn’t Bob cable, if he knew anything
more than this letter says?” Gertrude
questioned.
“I expect Bob’s waiting to find out
something certain before he cables,” said
Father Bob. “Doubtless he has written.
We shall just have to wait for his letter.”
“Wait! Gee!” whispered Henry.
“Both the boys’ letters were so awfully
late, in the summer!” sighed Gertrude.
“However can we wait for a letter from
Bob?”
Elliott said nothing at all. Her heart
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was aching with sympathy for Bruce.
When a person could do something, she
thought, it helped tremendously. Mother
Jess and Laura had gone to Sidney and she
had had a chance to make Laura’s going
possible, but there didn’t seem to be anything
she could do for Bruce. And she
wished to do something for Bruce; she
found that she wished to tremendously.
Thinking about Mother Jess and Laura
reminded her to look up and ask, “What
are we going to write them at Camp
Devens?”
Then she discovered that she and Bruce
were alone in the room. He was sitting
at Mother Jess’s desk, in as deep a brown
study as she had been. The girl’s voice
roused him.
“The kind of thing we’ve been writing—home
news. Time enough to tell
them about Pete when they get here.
By that time, perhaps, there will be something
definite to tell.” He hesitated a
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minute. “Laura is going to feel pretty
well cut up over this.”
Elliott looked up quickly. “Especially
cut up?”
“I think so. Oh, there wasn’t anything
definite between her and Pete—nothing,
at least, that they told the rest
of us. But a fellow who had eyes—” He
left the sentence unfinished and walked
over to Elliott’s chair. “You know, I told
you,” he said, “that I shouldn’t go into
this war unless I was called. Of course
I’m registered now, but whether or not
they call me—if Pete is out of it—and I
can possibly manage it, I’m going in.”
A queer little pain contracted Elliott’s
heart. And then that odd heart of hers
began to swell and swell until she thought
it would burst. She looked at the boy,
with proud eyes. It didn’t occur to her
to wonder what she was proud of. Bruce
Fearing was no kin of hers, you know.
“I knew you would.” Somehow it
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seemed to the girl that she could always
tell what Bruce Fearing was going to do,
and that there was nothing strange in such
knowledge. How strong he was! how
splendid and understanding and fine!
“Oh,” she cried, “I wish, how I wish I
could help you!”
“You do help me,” he said.
“I?” Her eyes lifted in real surprise.
“How can I?”
“By being you.”
His hand had only to move an inch to
touch hers, but it lay motionless. His
eyes, gray and steady and clear, held the
girl’s. She gave him back look for look.
“I am glad,” she said softly and her
face was like a flower.
Bruce was out of the house before
Elliott thought of the thing she could do
for him.
“Mercy me!” she cried. “You’re the
slowest person I’ve ever seen in my life,
Elliott Cameron!” She ran to the kitchen
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door, but the boy was nowhere in sight.
“He must be out at the barn,” she said
and took a step in that direction, only to
take it back. “No, I won’t. I’ll just go
by myself and do it.”
Whatever it was, it put her in a great
hurry. As fast as she had dashed to the
kitchen she now ran to the front hall, but
the third step of the stairs halted her.
“Elliott Cameron,” she declared earnestly,
“I do believe you have lost your
mind! Haven’t you any sense at all?
And you a responsible housekeeper!”
Perhaps it wasn’t the first time a whirlwind
had ever struck the Cameron farmhouse.
Elliott hadn’t a notion that she
could work so fast. Her feet fairly flew.
Bed-covers whisked into place; dusting-cloths
raced over furniture; even milk-pans
moved with unwonted celerity. But
she left them clean, clean and shining.
“There!” said the girl, “now we shall
do well enough till dinner-time. I’m going
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into the village. Anybody want to
come?”
Priscilla jumped up. “I do, unless
Trudy wants to more.”
Gertrude shook her head. “I’m going
to put up tomatoes,” she said, “the rest
of the ripe ones.”
“Don’t you want help?”
“Not a bit. Tomatoes are no work, at
all.”
Elliott dashed up-stairs. In a whirl of
excitement she pinned on her hat and
counted her money. No matter how
much it cost, she meant to say all that she
wanted to.
Her cheeks were pink and her dimples
hard at work playing hide-and-seek with
their own shadows, when she cranked the
little car. Everything would come right
now; it couldn’t fail to come right.
Priscilla hopped into the seat beside her
and they sped away.
“I have cabled Father,” Elliott announced
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at dinner, with the prettiest
imaginable little air of importance and
confidence, “I have cabled Father to find
out all he can about Pete and to let us
know at once. Perhaps we shall hear
something to-morrow.”
But the next day passed, and the next,
and the day after that, and still no cable
from Father.
It was very bewildering. At first
Elliott jumped every time the telephone
rang, and took down the receiver with
quickened pulses. No matter what her
brain said, her heart told her Father would
send good news. She couldn’t associate
him with thoughts of ill news. Of course,
her brain said there was no logic in that
kind of argument, and that facts were
facts; and in a case like Pete’s, fathers
couldn’t make or mar them. Her heart
kept right on expecting good tidings.
But when long days and longer nights
dragged themselves by and no word at all
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came from overseas, the girl found out
what a big empty place the world may become,
even while it is chuck-full of people,
and what three thousand miles of water
really means. She thought she had
known before, but she hadn’t. So long
as letters traveled back and forth, irregularly
timed it might be, but continuously,
she still kept the familiar sense of Father—out
of sight, but there, as he had always
been, most dependably there. Now, for
the first time in her life, she had called
to him and he had not answered. There
might be—there probably were, she reminded
herself—reasons why he hadn’t
answered; good, reassuring reasons, if
one only knew them. He might be temporarily
in a region out of touch with
cables; the service might have dropped a
link somewhere. One could imagine possible
explanations. But it was easier to
imagine other things. And the fact remained
that, since he didn’t answer, she
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couldn’t get away from a horrible,
paralyzing sense that he wasn’t there.
It didn’t do any good to try to run from
that sensation; there was nowhere to run.
It blocked every avenue of thought, a
sinister shape of dread. The only help
was in keeping very, very busy. And
even then one couldn’t stop one’s thoughts
traveling, traveling, traveling along those
fearful paths.
At last Elliott knew how the others felt
about Pete. She had thought she understood
that and felt it, too, but now she
found that she hadn’t. It makes all the
difference in the world, she discovered,
whether one stands inside or outside a
trouble. The heart that had ached so sympathetically
for Bruce knew its first stab
of loss and recoiled. The others recognized
the difference; or was it only that
Elliott herself had eyes to see what she
had been blind to before? No one said
anything. In little unconscious, lovable
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ways they made it quite clear that now
she was one with them.
“Perhaps we would better send for
them to come home from Camp Devens,”
Father Bob suggested one day. He threw
out his remark at the supper-table, which
would seem to address it to the family at
large, but he looked straight at Elliott.
“Oh, no,” she cried, “don’t send for
them!” But she couldn’t keep a flash of
joy out of her eyes.
“Sure you’re not getting tired?”
“Certain sure!”
It disappointed her the least little bit
that Uncle Bob let the suggestion drop so
readily. And she was disappointed at
her own disappointment. “Can’t you
‘carry on’ at all?” she demanded of herself,
scornfully. “It was all your own doing,
you know.” But how she did long
at times for Aunt Jessica!
Of course, Elliott couldn’t cry, however
much she might wish to, with the family
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all taking their cues from her mood. She
said so fiercely to every lump that rose in
her throat. She couldn’t indulge herself
at all adequately in the luxury of being
miserable; she couldn’t even let herself
feel half as scared as she wished to, because,
if she did, just once, she couldn’t
keep control of herself, and if she lost control
of herself there was no telling where
she might end—certainly in no state that
would be of any use to the family. No,
for their sake, she must sit tight on the
lid of her grief and fear and anxiety.
But there were hours when the cover
lifted a little. No girl, not the bravest,
could avoid such altogether. Elliott
didn’t think herself brave, not a bit. She
knew merely that the thing she had to do
couldn’t be done if there were many such
hours.
One day Bruce heard somebody sobbing
up in the hay-loft. The sound didn’t
carry far; it was controlled, suppressed;
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but Bruce had gone up the ladder for
something or other, I forget just what,
and, thinking Priscilla was in trouble, he
kept on. The girl crying, face down in
the hay, wasn’t Priscilla. Very softly
Bruce started to tiptoe away, but the
rustling of the hay under his feet betrayed
him.
“I didn’t mean—any one to—find me.”
“Shall I go away?”
She shook her head. “I can’t stand it!”
she wailed. “I simply can’t stand it!”
And she sobbed as though her heart would
break.
Bruce sat down beside the girl on the
hay and patted the hand nearest him. He
didn’t know anything else to do. Her
fingers closed on his convulsively.
“I’m an awful old cry-baby,” she
choked at last. “I’ll behave myself, in a
minute.”
“No, cry away,” said Bruce. “A girl
has to cry sometimes.”
After a while the racking sobs spent
themselves. “There!” she said, sitting
up. “I never thought I’d let a boy see
me cry. Now I must go in and help
Trudy get supper.”
She dabbed at her eyes with a wet little
wad of linen. Bruce plucked a clean
handkerchief from his pocket and tucked
it into her fingers.
“Yours doesn’t seem quite big enough
for the job,” he said.
She took it gratefully. She had never
thought of a boy as a very comforting person,
but Bruce was. “Oh, Bruce, you
know!”
“Yes, I know.”
“It’s so—so lonely. Dad’s all I’ve
got, of my really own, in the world.”
He nodded. “You’re gritty, all right.”
“Why, Bruce Fearing! how can you say
that after the way I’ve acted?”
“That’s why I say it.”
“But I’m scared all the time. If I did
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what I wanted to, I’d be a perpetual
fountain.”
“And you’re not.”
She stared at him. “Is being scared
and trying to cover it up what you call
grit?”
“The grittiest kind of grit.”
For a sophisticated girl she was
singularly naïve, at times. He watched
her digest the idea, sitting up on the hay,
her chin cupped in her two hands, straws
in her hair. Her eyes were swollen and
her nose red, and his handkerchief was
now almost as wet as her own. “I
thought I was an awful coward,” she said.
A smile curved his firm lips, but the
steady gray eyes were tender. “I
shouldn’t call you a coward.”
She shook herself and stood up.
“Bruce, you’re a darling. Now, will you
please go and see if the coast is clear, so I
can slide up-stairs without being seen? I
must wash up before supper.”
“I’d get supper,” he said, “if I didn’t
have to milk to-night. Promised Henry.”
She shook her head positively. “I’ll let
you do lots of things, Bruce, but I won’t
let you get supper for me—not with all
the other things you have to do.”
“Oh, all right! I dare you to jump off
the hay.”
“Down there? Take you!” she cried,
and with the word sprang into the air.
Beside her the boy leaped, too. They
landed lightly on the fragrant mass in the
bay of the barn.
“Oh,” she cried, “it’s like flying, isn’t
it! Why wasn’t I brought up on a
farm?”
There was a little choke still left in her
voice, and her smile was a trifle unsteady,
but her words were ready enough. In the
doorway she turned and waved to the boy
and then went on, her head held high,
slender and straight and gallant, into the
house.