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CHAPTER X
The Portrait
To Nancy’s surprise Hitty welcomed the little
girl warmly, when she was introduced
into the family circle. She liked to be busy all
day, and her duties in taking care of Nancy
were not onerous enough to keep her full energy
employed. She liked children and family life,
and she seemed to have the feeling that if
Nancy continued to assemble the various parts
that go to make up a family, she would end by
adding to it the essential masculine element,
though it was Dick and not Collier Pratt that
she visualized at the head of the table cutting
up Sheila’s meat for her. Collier Pratt
was to her a necessary but insignificant detail
in Nancy’s scheme of things, a poor artist who
had “frittered away so much time in furrin
parts” that he was incapable of supporting his
only child—“poor little motherless lamb!”—in
anything like a befitting and adequate manner.
Whenever he came to see Sheila she treated him
with the condescension of a poor relation, and
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served his tea in the second best china with the
kitchen silver and linen, unless Nancy caught
her at it in time to demand the best.
Nancy had expected that Collier Pratt would
try to make some business arrangement with
her when she took Sheila in charge,—that he
would insist on paying her at least a nominal
sum a week for the child’s board. She had
lain awake nights planning the conversations
with him in which she would overcome his delicate
but natural scruples in the matter and persuade
him to her own way of thinking. She had
even fixed on the smallest sum—two dollars and
a half a week—at which she thought she might
induce him to compromise, if all her eloquence
failed. She knew that he considered her the
hard working, paid manager of Outside Inn,
and took it for granted that she had no other
source of income. She was a little disconcerted
that he made no effort, beyond thanking her
sincerely and simply for her kindness, to put
the matter on a more concrete basis, but when
he told her presently that he was going to do a
portrait of her, she scourged herself for her
New England perspective on an affair that he
handled with so much delicacy.
Her friends were, on the whole, pleased with
her experiment in vicarious motherhood. Dick
instinctively resented the fact that Nancy had
taken Collier Pratt’s daughter into her home
and heart, but the child herself was a delight
to him, and he spent hours romping with her
and telling her stories, loading her with toys
and sweetmeats, and taking her off for enchanting
holiday excursions “over the Palisades and
far away.” Billy was hardly less diverted with
her, and Betty regarded her advent as a provision
on the part of Providence against things
becoming too commonplace. Caroline, as was
her wont, took the child very seriously, and
tried to interest Nancy in all the latest educational
theories for her development, including
posture dancing, and potato raising.
Nancy herself had loved the child from the
moment the big lustrous gray eyes opened, on
the day of her sudden illness at Outside Inn,
and looked confidingly up into hers. For the
first time in her life her maternal ardor—the
instinct which made her yearn to nourish and
minister to a race—had concentrated on a single
human being. Sheila, hungry for mothering,
had turned to her with the simplicity of the
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people among whom she had been brought up,
taking her sympathetic response as a matter of
course; and the two were soon on the closest,
most affectionate terms.
Sheila and Outside Inn divided Nancy’s time
to the practical exclusion of all other interests.
She had, without realizing her processes, taken
into her life artificial responsibilities in almost
exact proportion to the normal ones of any
woman who makes the choice of marriage
rather than that of a career. She was doing
housekeeping on a large scale,—she had a child
to care for, and she felt that she had entirely
disproved any lingering feeling in the mind of
any one associated with her that she ought to
marry,—at least that she ought to marry Dick.
No woman ought to marry for the sake of
marrying, but she was growing to understand
now that the experiences of love and marriage
might be necessary to the true development of
a woman like herself; that there might even be
some tragedy in missing them. She was twenty-five,
practically alone in the world, and the
growing passion of her life was for a child
that she had borrowed, and might be constrained
to relinquish at any moment.
She was tired. The unaccustomed confinement
of the long hours at the Inn, the strain of
enduring the thick, almost unalleviated heat of
an exceptionally humid New York summer, and
the tension engendered by her various executive
responsibilities, all told on her physically,
and her physical condition in its turn reacted
on her mind, till she was conscious of a
nostalgia,—a yearning and a hunger for something
that she could not understand or name,
but that was none the less irresistible. She fell
into strange moods of brooding and lassitude;
but there were two connections in which her
spirit and ambition never failed her. She
never failed of interest in the distribution of
food values to her unconscious patrons, and incidentally
to Collier Pratt, or in directing the
activities and diversions of Sheila.
She bathed and dressed the child with her
own hands every morning, combed out the
cloudy black hair, fine spun and wavy, that
framed the delicate face, and accentuated the
dazzling white and pink of her coloring. She
had bought her a complete new wardrobe—she
was spending money freely now on every one
but herself—venturing on one dress at a time
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in fear and trepidation lest Collier Pratt should
suddenly call her to account for her interference
with his rights as a parent, but he seemed
entirely oblivious of the fact that Sheila had
changed her shabby studio black for the most
cobwebby of muslins and linens, frocks that by
virtue of their exquisite fineness cost Nancy
considerably more than her own.
“I say to my father, ‘See the pretty new gown
that Miss Dear bought for me,’ and my father
says to me, ‘Comb your hair straight back from
your brow, and don’t let your arms dangle from
your shoulders.’” Sheila complained, “He sees
so hard the little things that nobody sees—and
big things like a dress or a hat he does not
notice.”
“Men are like that,” Nancy said. “Last night
when I put on my new rose-colored gown for
the first time, your friend Monsieur Dick told
me he had always liked that dress best of all.”
“Comme il est drôle, Monsieur Dick,” Sheila
said; “he asked me to grow up and marry him
some day. He said I should sit on a cushion
and sew a fine seam, and feast upon strawberries,
sugar and cream—like the poetry.”
“And what did you say?” Nancy asked.
“I said that I thought I should like to marry
him if I ever got to be big enough,—but I was
afraid I should not be bigger for a long time.
Miss Betty said she would marry him if I was
trop petite.”
“What did Dick say to that?” Nancy could
not forbear asking.
“He said she was very kind, and maybe the
time might come when he would think seriously
of her offer.”
There was a feeling in Nancy’s breast as if
her heart had suddenly got up and sat down
again. Betty bore no remotest resemblance to
the pale kind girl, practically devoid of feminine
allure, that Nancy had visualized as the
mate for Dick, and frequently exhorted him to
go in search of.
“Miss Betty was only making a joke,” she
told Sheila sharply.
“We were all making jokes, Miss Dear,”
Sheila explained.
“I have never loved any one in the world
quite so much as I love you, Sheila,” Nancy
cried in sudden passion as the little girl turned
her face up to be kissed, as she always did when
the conversation puzzled her.
“I like being loved,” Sheila said, sighing happily.
“My father loves me,—when he is not
painting or eating. He is very good to me, I
think.”
“Your father is a very wise man, Sheila,”
Nancy said, “he understands beautiful things
that other people don’t know anything about.
He looks at a flower and knows all about it, and—and
what it needs to make it flourish. He
looks at people that way, too.”
“But he doesn’t always have time to get the
flower what it wants,” Sheila said; “my jessamine
died in Paris because he forgot to water
them.”
“Your father needs taking care of himself,
Sheila. We must plan ways of trying to make
him more comfortable. Don’t you think of
something that he needs that we could get for
him?”
“More socks—he would like,” Sheila said unexpectedly.
“When his socks get holes in them
he will not wear them. He stops whatever he
is doing to mend them, and the mends hurt him.
He mends my stockings, too, sometimes, but I
like better the holes especially when he mends
them on my feet.”
Sheila could have presented no more appealing
picture of her father to Nancy’s vivid
imagination. Collier Pratt with the incongruous
sewing equipment of the unaccustomed
male, using, more than likely, black darning
cotton on a white sock—Nancy’s mental pictures
were always full of the most realistic detail—bent
tediously over a child’s stocking,
while the precious sunlight was streaming unheeded
upon the waiting canvas. She darned
very badly herself, but the desire was not less
strong in her to take from him all these preposterous
and unbefitting tasks, and execute them
with her own hands. She stared at the child
fixedly.
“You buy him some socks out of your allowance,”
she said at last. Then she added an anxious
and inadequate “Oh, dear!”
“Aren’t you happy?” Sheila asked in unconscious
imitation of Dick, with whom she had
been spending most of her time for days, while
Nancy superintended the additions and improvements
she was making in the up-stairs
quarters of her Inn, preparatory to moving in
for the winter.
“Yes, I’m happy,” Nancy said, “but I’m sort
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of—stirred, too. I wish you were my own little
girl, Sheila. I think I’ll take you with me to
the Inn to-day. You might melt and trickle
away if I left you alone here with Hitty.”
“Quelle joie! I mean, how nice that will be!
Then I can talk about Paris to Gaspard, and he
will give me some baba, with a soupçon of maraschine in the sauce, if you will tell him that I
may, Miss Dear.”
“I’ll think about it.” It was Nancy’s dearest
privilege to be asked and grant permission for
such indulgences. “Put on that floppy white
hat with the yellow ribbon, and take your white
coat.”
“When I had only one dress to wear I suppose
I got just as dirty,” Sheila reflected, “only
it didn’t show on black satin. Now I can tell
just how dirty I am by looking. I make lots of
washing, Miss Dear.”
“Yes, thank heaven,” Nancy said, unaccountably
tearful of a sudden.
The first part of the day at the Inn went much
like other days. Gaspard, eager to retrieve
the record of the week when Hitty and a Viennese
pastry cook had divided the honors of preparing
the daily menus between them—for
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Nancy had never again attempted the feat—never
let a day go by without making a new
plat de jour or inventing a sauce; was in the
throes of composing a new casserole, and it was
a pleasure to watch him deftly sifting and sorting
his ingredients, his artist’s eyes aglow with
the inward fire of inspiration. Nancy called all
the waitresses together and offered them certain
prizes and rewards for all the buttermilk,
and prunes and other health dishes that they
were able to distribute among ailing patrons,—with
the result they were over assiduous at the
luncheon hour, and a red-headed young man
with gold teeth made a disturbance that it took
both Hilda and Michael, who appeared suddenly
in his overalls from the upper regions where
he was constructing window-boxes, to quell.
But these incidents were not sufficiently significant
to make the day in any way a memorable
one to Nancy. It took a telephone message
from Collier Pratt, requesting, nay demanding,
her presence in his studio for the first sitting
on her portrait, to make the day stand out
upon her calendar.
“Sheila is with me. Shall I bring her?”
Nancy asked.
“No,” Collier Pratt said uncompromisingly,
“I am not a parent at this hour. She would
disturb me.”
“What shall I wear?”
“What have you got on?”
“That blue crêpe, made surplice,—the one
you liked the other night.”
“That’s just what I want—Madonna blue.
Can you get down here in fifteen minutes?”
“Yes, I’ll send Michael up-town with Sheila.”
The bare, ramshackle studio on Washington
Square shocked her,—it was so comfortless, so
dingy; but the canvases on the walls, set up
against the wainscoting, stacked on every
available chair, gave her a new and almost appalling
impression of his personality, and the
peculiar poignant power of him. She could not
appraise them, or get any real sense of their
quality apart from the astounding revelation of
the man behind the work.
“They’re wonderful!” she gasped, but
“You’re wonderful” were the words she stifled
on her lips.
He painted till the light failed him.
“It’s this diffused glow,—this gentle, faded
afternoon light that I want,” he said. “I want
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you to emerge from your background as if you
had bloomed out of it that very moment. Oh!
I’ve got you at your hour, you know! The
prescient maternal—that’s what I want. The
conscious moment when a woman becomes
aware that she is potentially a mother. Sheila’s
done that for you. She’s brought it out in you.
It was ready, it was waiting there before, but
now it’s come. It’s wonderful!”
“Yes,” Nancy said, “it’s—it’s come.”
“It hasn’t been done, you know. It’s a modern
conception, of course; but they all do the
thing realized, or incipient. I want to do it
implicit—that’s what I want. I might have
searched the whole world over and not found
it.”
“Well, here I am,” said Nancy faintly.
“Yes, here you are,” Collier Pratt responded
out of the fervor of his artist’s absorption.
“It’s rather a personal matter to me,” Nancy
ventured some seconds later.
Collier Pratt turned from the canvas he was
contemplating, and looked at her, still posed as
he had placed her, upright, yet relaxed in the
scooped chair that held her without constraining
her.
“Like a flower in a vase,” he said; “to me
you’re a wonderful creature.”
“I’m glad you like me,” Nancy said, quivering
a little. “This is a rather uncommon experience
to me, you know, being looked at so
impersonally. Now please don’t say that I’m
being American.”
“But, good God! I don’t look at you impersonally.”
“Don’t you?” Nancy meant her voice to be
light, and she was appalled to hear the quaver
in it.
“You know I don’t.” He glanced toward a
dun-colored curtain evidently concealing shelves
and dishes. “Let’s have some tea.”
“I can’t stay for tea.” Nancy felt her lips
begin to quiver childishly, but she could not
control their trembling. “Oh! I had better go,”
she said.
Collier Pratt took one step toward her. Then
he turned toward the canvas. Nancy read his
mind like a flash.
“You’re afraid you’ll disturb the—what you
want to paint,” she said accusingly.
“I am.” He smiled his sweet slow smile, then
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he took her stiff interlaced hands and raised
them, still locked together, to his lips where
he kissed them gently, one after the other.
“Will you forgive me?” he asked, and pushed
her gently outside of his studio door.
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CHAPTER XI
Billy and Caroline
It was one night in middle October when Billy
and Caroline met by accident on Thirty-fourth
Street between Fifth and Sixth Avenues.
Caroline stood looking into a drug-store
window where an automatic mannikin was
shaving himself with a patent safety razor.
“There’s a wax feller going to bed in an automatic
folding settee, a little farther down the
street,” Billy offered gravely at her elbow; “and
on Forty-second Street there is a real live duck
pond advertising the advantages of electric
heaters in the home.”
“H’lo,” said Caroline, who was colloquial
only in moments of real pleasure or excitement.
“I’ve just written to you. I asked you to come
and see me to-morrow evening,” she added more
seriously, “to talk about something that’s
weighing on my mind.”
“I’m going out with a blonde to-morrow,
night,” Billy said speciously, “but what’s the
matter with to-night? I’m free until six-fifty
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A. M. and I could spare an hour or two between
then and breakfast time.”
“I can’t to-night,” Caroline said, “I promised
Nancy to dine at the Inn.”
“That wasn’t your line at all,” Billy groaned.
“Who’s the blonde?—that was your cue. If
it’s only Nancy you’re dining with—that can be
fixed.”
“I regard an engagement with Nancy as just
as sacred as—”
“So do I,” Billy cut in. “She is the blonde.
Well, let to-morrow night be as it may; let’s
you and I call up the Nancy girl now and tell
her that we’re going batting together; she
won’t care.”
“I don’t like doing that,” Caroline said; “it’s
a nice night for a bat, though.”
“I walked down Murray Hill and saw the sun
set in a nice pinky gold setting,” Billy said artfully.
Caroline liked to have him get an artistic
perspective on New York. “Let’s walk down
the avenue to the Café des Artistes and have
Emincé Bernard, and a long wide high, tall
drink of—ginger ale,” he finished lamely.
“We’d have to telephone Nancy,” Caroline
hesitated.
Billy took her by the arm and guided her
into the interior of the drug-store to the side
aisle where the telephones were, and stepped
into the first empty booth that offered. Caroline
stopped him firmly as he was about to shut
himself inside.
“I’d rather hear what you say,” she said.
Billy slipped his nickel in the slot and took up
the receiver.
“Madison Square 3403 doesn’t answer,” Central
informed him crisply after an interval.
“Oh! Nancy, dear,” Billy replied softly into
her astonished ear. “Caroline and I are going
off by ourselves to-night, you don’t care, do
you?”
“Ringing thr-r-ree-four-o-thr-r-ee, Madison
Square.”
“That’s nice of you,” Billy responded heartily.
“I thought you’d say that.”
“Madison Square thr-r-ree-four-o-t-h-r-r-ree
doesn’t answer. Hang up your receiver and I’ll
call you if I get the party.”
“Of course I will. You’re always so tactful
in the way you put things, always so generous
and kind and thoughtful. I can’t tell you how
much I appreciate it.”
“What did Nancy say?” Caroline asked, as
they turned away from the booth.
“You heard my end of the conversation,”
Billy said blandly. “You can deduce hers
from it.”
“There was something about your end of the
conversation that sounded queer to me somehow.
It was odd that Central should have returned
your nickel to you after you had talked
so long.”
“Yes, wasn’t it?” Billy asked innocently.
“Well, I suppose mistakes will happen in the
best regulated telephone companies.”
“I like you,” Billy said contentedly, as the
lights of the avenue strung themselves out before them.
“I like walking down this royal
thoroughfare with you. You’re a kind of a neutral
girl, but I like you.”
“You’re a kind of ridiculous boy.”
“Don’t you like me a little bit?”
“Yes, a little.”
“What did you get engaged to me for if you
only like me a little?”
“Ought not to be engaged to you. That’s one
of the things I want to talk to you about.”
“Well, you are engaged to me, and that’s one
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of the things I don’t care to discuss—even with
you.”
“Oh! Billy,” Caroline sighed, “why can’t we
be just good friends and see a good deal of each
other without this perpetual argument about
getting married?”
“I don’t know why we can’t, but we can’t,”
Billy said firmly. “What was the other thing
you wanted to talk to me about?”
“Nancy’s affairs. The reckless—the criminal
way she is running that restaurant, and the
unthinkable expenditure of money involved. I
can’t sleep at night thinking of it.”
“And I thought this was going to be a pleasant
evening,” Billy cried to the stars.
“I wish you’d be serious about this,” Caroline
said. “Nancy’s the best friend I have in
the world, and she doesn’t seem to be quite right
in her mind, Billy. Of course, I approve of a
good part of her scheme. I believe that she
can be of incalculable value as a pioneer in an
enterprise of this sort. Her restaurant is
based on a strictly scientific theory, and every
person who patronizes it gets a balanced ration,
if he has the good sense to eat it as it’s served.”
“And not leave any protein on his plate,”
Billy murmured.
“I don’t even mind the slight extra expenditure
and the deficit that is bound to follow
her theory of stuffing all her subnormal
patrons with additional nourishment. That is
charity. I believe in devoting a certain amount
of one’s income to charity, but what I mind
about the whole proceeding is the crazy way
that Nancy is running it. She’s not even trying
to break even. She orders all the delicacies
of the season—no matter what they are. She’s
paid an incredible amount for the new set of
carved chairs she has bought for up-stairs.
You’d think she had an unlimited fortune behind
her, instead of being in a position where
the sheriff may walk in upon her any day.”
“Handy men to have around the house,—sheriffs.
I knew a deputy sheriff once that
helped the lady of the house do a baby wash
while he was standing around in charge of the
place. All the servants had deserted, and—”
“You pretend to be Nancy’s friend, and
you’re the only thing remotely approaching a
lawyer that she has, and yet you can shake with
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joy at the thought of her going into bankruptcy.”
“That isn’t what I’m shaking with joy
about.”
“Nancy must have spent at least twice the
amount of her original investment.”
“Just about,” Billy agreed cheerfully.
Caroline turned large reproachful eyes on
him.
“Billy, how can you?”
“Listen to me, Caroline, honey love, it will
be all right. Nancy isn’t so crazy as she seems.
She is running wild a little, I admit, but there’s
no danger of the sheriff or any other disaster.
She knows what she’s doing, and she’s playing
safe, though I admit it’s an extraordinary
game.”
“She’s unhappy,” Caroline said. “You don’t
suppose she’s going to marry Dick to get out of
the scrape, and that she’s suffering because
she’s had to make that compromise.”
“No, I don’t,” said Billy.
“I can’t imagine anything more dreadful
than to give up your career—your independence
because you were beaten before you could demonstrate
it.”
“Let’s go right in here,” Billy said, guiding
her by the arm through the door of the grill of
the Café des Artistes which she was ignoring
in her absorption.
It was early but the place was already
crowded with the assortment of upper cut Bohemians,
Frenchmen, and other discriminating
diners to whom the café owed its vogue. Billy
and Caroline found a snowy table by the window,
a table so small that it scarcely seemed to
separate them.
“If it’s Dick that Nancy’s depending on,”
Caroline shook out her mammoth napkin vigorously,
“then I think the whole situation is
dreadful.”
“I don’t see why,” Billy argued; “have him to
fall back on—that’s what men are for.”
“Your opinion of women, Billy Boynton, just
about tallies with the most conservative estimate
of the Middle Ages.”
“Charmed, I’m sure,” he grinned, then his
evil genius prompting, he continued. “Isn’t
that just about what you have me for—to fall
back on? You’re fond of me. You know I’ll
be there if the bottom drops out. You’re sure
of me, and you’re holding me in reserve against
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the time when you feel like concentrating your
attention on me.”
“Is that what you think?”
“Sure, it’s the way it is. If I haven’t got any
kick coming I don’t see why you should have
any. You’re worth it to me. That’s the point.”
Caroline opened her lips to speak, and then
thought better of it. The dangerous glint in
her pellucid hazel eyes was lost on Billy. He
was watching the clear cool curve of her cheek,
the smooth brown hair brushed up from the
temple, and tucked away under the smart folds
of a premature velvet turban.
“I like those mouse-colored clothes of yours,”
he said contentedly.
“I think the only reason a woman should
marry a man is that she—she—”
“Likes him?” Billy suggested.
“No, that she can be of more use in the
world married than single. She can’t be that
unless she’s going to marry a man who is entirely
in sympathy with her point of view.”
“That I know to be unsound,” Billy said.
“Caroline, my love, this is a bat. Can’t we let
these matters of the mind rest for a little? See,
I’ve ordered Petite Marmite, and afterward an
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artichoke, and all the nice fattening things that
Nancy won’t let me eat.”
“I wish you’d tell me about Nancy,” Caroline
said. “It makes a lot of difference. You
haven’t any idea how much difference it
makes.”
“See the nice little brown pots with the soup
in them,” Billy implored her. “Cheese, too, all
grated up so fine and white. Sprinkle it in like
little snow-flakes.”
But in spite of all Billy’s efforts the evening
went wrong after that. Caroline was wrapped
in a mantle of sorrowful meditation the opacity
of which she was not willing to let Billy penetrate
for a moment. After they had dined they
took a taxi-cab up-town and danced for an hour
on the smooth floor of one of the quieter hotels.
Billy’s dancing being of that light, sure, rhythmic
quality that should have installed him irrevocably
in the regard of any girl who had
ever danced with a man who performed less
admirably. Caroline liked to dance and fell in
step with an unexpected docility, but even in
his arms, dipping, pivoting, swaying to the curious
syncopation of modern dance time, she
was as remote and cool as a snow maiden.
At the table on the edge of the dancing platform
where they sat between dances, Billy
pledged her in nineteen-four Chablis Mouton.
“This is what you look like,” he said, holding
up his glass to the light, “or perhaps I ought to
say what you act like,—clear, cold stuff,—lovely,
but not very sweet.”
“If it’s Dick,”—Caroline refused to be diverted—“Nancy
is merely taking the easiest
way out. Just getting married because she
hasn’t the courage to go through any other
way. She and Dick have hardly a taste in common—they
don’t even read the same books.”
“What difference does that make?”
“If you don’t know I can’t tell you. When
you see somebody else in danger of following
the same course of action that you, yourself,
are pursuing,” she added cryptically, “it puts
a new face on your own affairs.”
“Oh! let’s get out of here,” Billy said, signaling
for his check.
Caroline lived, for the summer while her
family were away, in an elaborate Madison Avenue
boarding-house. The one big room into
which the entrance gave, dim and palatial in
effect—at least in the light of the single gas-jet
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turned economically low—seemed scarcely to
present a departure from its prototype, the
great living hall of the private residence for
which the house was originally designed. It was
only on the second floor that the character of the
establishment became unmistakable. Billy took
Caroline’s latchkey from her,—she usually
opened the door for herself—and let her quietly
into the dim interior. Then he stepped inside
himself, and closed the door gently after him.
Being a man he entirely failed to note the drift
of psychological straws that indicated the sudden
sharp turn of the wind, and the presage
of storm in the air. He was thinking only of
the illusive, desirable, maddening quality of the
girl that walked beside him, filled with inexplicable
forebodings for a friend, whom he knew
to be invulnerable to misfortune. Certain
phrases of Dick’s were ringing in his ears to
the exclusion of all more immediate conversational
fragments.
“Cave-man stuff—that’s the answer to you
and Caroline.... This watchful waiting’s
entirely the wrong idea....”
Billy made a great lunge toward the figure
of his fiancée, and caught her in his arms.
“I’ve never really kissed you before,” he
cried, “now I shan’t let you go.”
She struggled in his arms, but he mastered
her. He covered her cool brow with kisses, her
hands, the lovely curve of her neck where the
smooth hair turned upward, and at last—her
lips.
“You’re mine, my girl,” he exulted, “and
nothing, nothing, nothing shall ever take you
away from me now.”
There was a click in the latch of the door
through which they had just entered. Another
belated boarder was making his way into the
domicile which he had chosen as a substitute
for the sacred privacy of home. Caroline tore
herself out of Billy’s arms just in time to exchange
greetings with the incoming guest with
some pretense of composure. He was a fat man
with an umbrella which clattered against the
balusters as he ascended the carved staircase.
“Caught with the goods,” Billy tried to say
through lips stiffened in an effort at control.
Caroline turned on him, her face blazing with
anger, the transfiguring white rage of the
woman whose spiritual fastnesses have been
invaded through the approach of the flesh.
“There is no way of my ever forgiving you,”
she said. “No way of my ever tolerating you,
or anything you stand for again. You are utterly—utterly—utterly
detestable in my eyes.”
“Is—is that so?” Billy stammered, dizzied by
the suddenness of the onslaught.
“I—I’ve got some decent hold on my pride
and self-respect—even if Nancy hasn’t, and I’m
not going to be subjugated like a cave woman
by mere brute force either.”
“Aren’t you?” said Billy weakly, his mind in
a whirl still from the lightning-like overthrow
of all his theories of action.
“I’m not going to do what Nancy is going to
do, just out of sheer temperamental weakness,
and—and tendency to follow the line of least
resistance.”
Billy had no idea of the significance of her
last phrase, and let it go unheeded. Caroline
turned and walked away from him, her head
high.
“But, good lord, Nancy isn’t going to do it,”
he called after her retreating figure, but all the
answer he got was the silken swish of her petticoat
as she took the stairs.
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CHAPTER XII
More Cave-Man Stuff
When Nancy left Collier Pratt’s studio
on the day of her first sitting for the
portrait he was to do of her, she never expected
to enter it again. She was in a panic of hurt
pride and anger at his handling of the situation
that had developed there, and in a passion of
self-disgust that she had been responsible for it.
It was a simple fact of her experience that
the men she knew valued her favors, and exerted
themselves to win them. She had always
had plenty of suitors, or at least admirers who
lacked only a few smiles of encouragement to
make suitors of them, and she was accustomed
to the consideration of the desirable woman,
whose privilege it is to guide the conversation
into personal channels, or gently deflect it
therefrom. An encounter in which she could
not find her poise was as new as it was bewildering
to her.
From the moment that she had begun to
realize Collier Pratt’s admiration for her she
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had scarcely given a thought to any other man.
With the insight of the artist he had seen
straight into the heart of Nancy’s secret—the
secret that she scarcely knew herself until he
translated it for her, the most obvious secret
that a prescient universe ever throbbed with,—that
a woman is not fulfilled until she is a mate
and a mother. The nebulous urge of her spirit
had been formulated. In Nancy’s world there
was no abstract sentimentality—if this man indulged
himself in emotional regret for her frustrated
womanhood—she called it that to herself—it
must in some way concern him. She had
never in her life been troubled by a condition
that she was not eager to ameliorate, and she
could not conceive of an emotional interest in
an individual disassociated from a certain responsibility
for that individual’s welfare. She
took Collier Pratt’s growing tenderness for her
for granted, and dreamed exultant dreams of
their romantic association.
The scene in the studio had shocked her only
because he put his art first. He had taken a
lover’s step toward her, and then glancing at
the crudely splotched canvas from which his
ideal of her was presently to emerge, he had
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thought better of it, soothing her with caresses
as if she were a child, and like a child dismissing
her. She felt that she never wanted to see
again the man who could so confuse and humiliate
her. But this mood did not last. As
the days went on, and she feverishly recapitulated
the circumstances of the episode, she began
to feel that it was she who had failed to respond
to the beautiful opportunity of that hour.
She had inspired the soul of an artist with a
great concept of womanhood, and had, in effect,
demanded an immediate personal tribute from
him. He had been wise to deflect the emotion
that had sprung up within them both. After
the picture was done—. She became eager to
show him that she understood and wanted to
help him conserve the impression of her from
which his inspiration had come, and when he
asked her to go to the studio again the following
week she rejoiced that she had another chance
to prove to him how simply she could behave in
the matter.
She looked in the mirror gravely every night
after she had done her hair in the prescribed
pig-tails to try to determine whether or not the
look he had discovered in her face was still
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there,—the look of implicit maternity that she
had been fortunate enough to reflect and symbolize
for him,—but she was unable to come to
any decision about it. Her face looked to her
much as it had always looked—except that her
brow and temples seemed to have become more
transparent and the blue veins there seemed to
be outlined with an even bluer brush than usual.
She was busier than she had ever been in her
life. The volume of her business was swelling.
With the return of the native to the city of his
adoption—there is no native New Yorker in the
strict sense of the word—Outside Inn was besieged
by clamorous patrons. Gaspard, with the
adaptability of his race, had evolved what was
practically a perfect system of presenting the
balanced ration to an unconscious populace, and
the populace was responding warmly to his
treatment. It had taken him a little time to
gauge the situation exactly, to adapt the supply
to the idiosyncrasies of the composite demand,
but once he had mastered his problem he dealt
with it inspiredly. His southern inheritance
made it possible for him to apprehend if he
could not actually comprehend the taste of a
people who did not want the flavor of nutmeg
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in their cauliflower, and who preferred cocoanut
in their custard pie, and he realized that
their education required all the diplomacy and
skill at his command.
Nancy found him unexpectedly intelligent
about the use of her tables. He grasped the essential
fact that the values of food changed in
the process of cooking, and that it was necessary
to Nancy’s peace of mind to calculate the
amount of water absorbed in preparing certain
vegetables, and that the amount of butter and
cream introduced in their preparation was an
important factor in her analysis. He also
nodded his head with evident appreciation when
she discoursed to him of the optimum amount
of protein as opposed to the actual requirements
in calories of the average man, but she never
quite knew whether the matter interested him,
or his native politeness constrained him to listen
to her smilingly as long as she might choose
to claim his attention. But the fact remained
that there was no such cooking in any restaurant
in New York of high or low degree, as that
which Gaspard provided, and as time went on,
and he realized that expense was not a factor
in Nancy’s conception of a successfully conducted
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restaurant, the reputation of Outside
Inn increased by leaps and bounds.
To Nancy’s friends—with the exception, of
course, of Billy, who was in her confidence—the
whole business became more and more puzzling.
Caroline, her susceptibility to vicarious distress
being augmented by the sensitiveness of her
own emotional state, yearned and prayed over
her alternately. Betty, avid of excitement,
spent her days in the pleasurable anticipation
of a dramatic bankruptcy. It was on Dick,
however, that the actual strain came. He saw
Nancy growing paler and more ethereal each
day, on her feet from morning till night manipulating
the affairs of an enterprise that seemed
to be assuming more preposterous proportions
every hour of its existence. He made surreptitious
estimates of expenditures and suffered
accordingly, approximating the economic unsoundness
of the Inn by a very close figure, and
still Nancy kept him at arm’s length and flouted
all his suggestions for easing, what seemed to
him now, her desperate situation.
He managed to pick her up in his car one day
with Sheila, and persuaded her to a couple of
hours in the open. She was on her way home
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from the Inn, and had meant to spend that time
resting and dressing before she went back to
consult with Gaspard concerning the night meal.
She had no complaint to make now of the usurpation
of her authority or the lack of actual
executive service that was required of her.
With the increase in the amount of business
that the Inn was carrying she found that every
particle of her energy was necessary to get
through the work of the day.
“I’m worried about you,” Dick said, as they
took the long ribbon of road that unfurled in
the direction of Yonkers, and Nancy removed
her hat to let the breeze cool her distracted
brow. His man Williams, was driving.
“Well, don’t tell me so,” she answered a trifle
ungraciously.
“Miss Dear is cross to-day,” Sheila explained.
“The milk did not come for Gaspard to make
the poor people’s custard, crême renversé, he
makes—deliciously good, and we give it to the
clerking girls.”
“The buttermilk cultures were bad,” Nancy
said. “And I wasn’t able to get any of the preparations
of it, that I can trust. There are one
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or two people that ought to have it every day
and their complexions show it if they don’t.”
“I suppose so,” Dick said, with a grimace.
“These people who have worked in New York
all summer have run pretty close to their margin
of energy. You’ve no idea what a difference
a few calories make to them, or how
closely I have to watch them, and when I have
to substitute an article of diet for the thing
they’ve been used to, it’s awfully hard to get
them to take it.”
“I should think it might be,” Dick said. “It’s
true about people who have worked in New
York all summer, though. I have—and you
have.”
“Oh! I’m all right,” Nancy said.
“So am I,” Sheila said, “and so is Monsieur
Dick, n’est-ce pas?”
“Vraiment, Mademoiselle.”
“Father isn’t very right, though. Even when
Miss Dear has all the beautiful things in the
most beautiful colors in the world cooked for
him and sent to him, he won’t eat them unless
she comes and sits beside him and begs him.”
“He’s very fond of sauce verte,” Nancy said
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hastily, “and apricot mousse and cèpes et pimentos,
things that Gaspard can’t make for the
regular menu,—bright colored things that
Sheila loves to look at.”
“He likes petit pois avec laitue too and haricot
coupé, and artichaut mousselaine. Sometimes
when he does not want them Miss Dear
eats them.”
“I’m glad they are diverted to some good
use,” Dick said.
“I’ve been looking into the living conditions
of my waitresses.” Nancy changed the subject
hastily. “Did you realize, Dick, that the
waitresses have about the unfairest deal of any
of the day laborers? They’re not organized,
you know. Their hours are interminable, the
work intolerably hard, and the compensation
entirely inadequate. Moreover, they don’t last
out for any length of time. I’m trying out a
new scheme of very short shifts. Also, I’m
having a certain sum of money paid over to
them every month from my bank. If they don’t
know where it comes from it can’t do them any
harm. That is, I am not establishing a precedent
for wages that they won’t be able to earn
elsewhere. I consider it immoral to do that.”
“You are paying them an additional sum of
money out of your own pocket? You told me
you paid them the maximum wage, anyhow, and
they get lots of tips.”
“Oh! but that’s not nearly enough.”
“Nancy,” Dick said dramatically, “where do
you get the money?”
“Oh, I don’t know,” Nancy said, “it comes
along. The restaurant makes some.”
“Very little.”
“I could make it pay any time that I wanted
to.”
“Sometimes I wonder if you are in full possession
of your senses.”
“Caroline is affected that way, too. I feel
that she is likely to get an alienist in at any
time. She is so earnest in anything she undertakes.
She and Billy have had a scrap, did you
know it?”
“I didn’t.”
“Billy wants to marry her, and he has
shocked her delicate feelings by suggesting it
to her.”
“I imagine you have a good deal to do with
her feelings on the subject,” Dick said gloomily.
“I suppose at heart you don’t believe in
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marriage, or think you don’t and you’ve communicated
the poison to Caroline.”
“I’ve done nothing of the kind,” Nancy insisted
warmly. “I do believe in marriage with
all my heart. I think the greatest service any
woman can render her kind in this mix-up
age is to marry one man and make that marriage
work by taking proper scientific care of
him and his children.”
“This is news to me,” Dick said. “I thought
that you thought that the greatest service a
woman could do was to run Outside Inn, and
stuff all the derelicts with calories.”
“That’s a service, too.”
“Sure.”
They were out beyond the stately decay of the
up-town drive, with its crumbling mansions and
the disheveled lawns surrounding them, beyond
the view of the most picturesque river in the
world, though, comparatively speaking, the
least regarded, covering the prosaic stretch of
dusty road between Van Courtland Park and
the town of Yonkers.
“I like the Bois better,” Sheila said, “but I
like Central Park better than the Champs Elyseés.
In Paris the children are not so gay as
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the grown-up people. Here it is the grown-up
people who are without smiles on the streets.”
“Why is that, Dick?” Nancy asked.
“That’s always true of the maturer races, the
gaiety of the French is appreciative enthusiasm,—if
I may invent a phrase. The children
haven’t developed it.”
“I would like to have my hand held, Monsieur
Dick,” Sheila announced. “I always feel
homesick when I think about Paris. I was so
contente and so malheureuse there.”
“Why were you unhappy, sweetest?” Nancy
asked.
“My father says I am never to speak of those
things, and so I don’t—even to Miss Dear, my
bien aimée.”
Dick lifted Sheila into his lap, he took the
hand that still clung to Nancy’s in his warm
palm, and held them both there caressingly.
“My bien aimée,” he said softly.
Beyond the town a more gracious and magnificent
country revealed itself; lovely homes
set high on sweeping terraces, private parks
and gardens and luxuriant estates, all in a blaze
of October radiance with the glorious pigments
of the season.
“Isn’t it time to go back?” Nancy asked.
“Not yet,” Dick said. “I want to show you
something. There’s an old place here I want
you to see. That colonial house set way back
in the trees there.”
“Williams is driving in,” Nancy said as they
approached it.
“He’s been here before.”
“Are we going to get out?” Sheila asked.
Dick was already opening the door of the
tonneau and assisting Nancy out of the car.
“I’m going to leave Sheila with Williams, and
take you over the house, Nancy. She’ll be more
interested in the grounds than she would in the
interior. I want you to see the inside.”
He took a key out of his pocket, and unlocked
the stately door. Everything about the place
was gigantic, stately,—the huge columns that
supported the roof of the porch, the big elms
that flanked it, and the great entrance hall, as
they stepped into its majestic enclosure.
“It’s a biggish sort of place, isn’t it?” Nancy
said.
“But it’s rather lovely, don’t you think so?”
Dick asked anxiously. “These old places are
getting increasingly hard to find,—real old
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homes, dignified and beautiful, within a reasonable
distance from town.”
“It is lovely,” Nancy said, “it could be made
perfectly wonderful to live in. I can see this
big hall—furnished in mahogany or even
carved oak that was old enough. Thank heaven,
we’re no longer slaves to a period in our decorating;
we can use anything that’s beautiful
and suitable and not intrinsically incongruous
with a clear conscience.”
“Come up-stairs.”
Nancy lingered on the landing of the fine old
staircase, white banistered with a mahogany
hand-rail, that turned only once before it led
into the region up-stairs.
“I’d rather see the kitchen,” she said.
“The kitchen isn’t the thing that I’m proudest
of. Its plumbing is early English, or Scottish,
I’m afraid. I think this arrangement up
here is delightful. See these front suites, one
on either side of the hall. Bedroom, dressing-room,
sitting-room. Which do you like best? I
thought perhaps I might take the one that overlooks
the orchard.”
Nancy stopped still on her way from window
to window.
“Dick Thorndyke, whose house is this?” she
demanded.
“Mine.”
“Yours—have you bought it?”
“Yes, I put the deed in my safe deposit vault
yesterday. Come in here. Isn’t this a cunning
little guest chamber nested in the trees? Be
becoming to Betty’s style of beauty, wouldn’t
it?” He held the door open for her ingratiatingly,
and she passed under his arm perfunctorily.
“What on earth did you buy a house like
this for?”
“I thought you might like it.”
“I—what have I to do with it?”
Dick turned the rusty key in the lock deliberately,
and put it in his pocket, thus closing
them into the little musty room which had no
other exit. A branch of flaming maple leaves
tapped lightly on the window.
“You’ve a whole lot to do with it, Nancy,” he
said. “It’s yours, and I’m yours, and I want to
know how much longer you’re going to hedge.”
“I’m not hedging,” Nancy blazed. “Take that
key out of your pocket. This is moving-picture
stuff.”
“I know it is. I can’t get you to talk to me
any other way, so I thought I’d try main force
for a change.”
“Well, it is a change,” she agreed. “Shall I
begin to scream now, or do you intend to give
me some other provocation?”
“Don’t be coarse, darling.” There is a certain
disadvantage in having known the woman
who is the object of your tenderest emotions all
your life, and to be on terms of the most familiar
badinage with her. Dick was feeling this
disadvantage acutely at the moment. He took
a step toward her, and put a heavy hand on her
shoulder. “Nancy, don’t you love me?” he said,
“don’t you really?”
“No,” Nancy said deliberately, “I don’t, and
you know very well I don’t. Unlock that door,
and let’s be sensible.”
“Don’t you know, dear, or care that you’re
hurting me?”
“No, I don’t,” Nancy said. “You say so, and I
hear you, but I don’t really believe it. If I
did—”
“If you did—what?”
“Then I’d be sorrier.”
“You aren’t sorry at all, as it stands.”
“I find it’s awfully hard to be sorry for you,
Dick, in any connection. There’s really nothing
pathetic about you, no matter how tragic you
think you are being. You’re rich and lucky and
healthy. You have everything you want—”
“Not everything.”
“And you live the way you want to, and eat
the food you want to—”
“The ruling passion.”
“And make the jokes you want to.” Nancy
literally stuck up a saucy nose at him. “There
is really nothing that I could contribute to your
happiness. I mean nothing important. You
are not a poor man whom I could help to work
his way up to the top, or a genius that needs
fostering, or a—”
“Dyspeptic that needs putting on a special
diet,—but for all that I do need a mother’s love,
Nancy.”
“I don’t believe you do,” Nancy said, a trifle
absently. “Unlock the door, Dick. I don’t think
Sheila put on that sweater when I told her to,
and I’m afraid she’ll get cold.”
“Kiss me, Nancy.”
“Will you unlock the door if I do?”
“Yes’um.”
Nancy put up cool fragrant lips to meet a
brother’s kiss, and for the moment was threatened
with a second salute that was very much
less fraternal, but the danger passed. Dick unlocked
the door and let her pass him without
protest.
“If you had been any other girl,” he mused,
as they went down the stairs together companionably,
“you wouldn’t have got away with
that.”
“With what?” Nancy asked innocently.
“If you don’t know,” Dick said, “I won’t tell
you. If you’d been any other girl I should have
thrown that key out of the window when you
began to sass me.”
“And then?” Nancy inquired politely.
“And then,” Dick replied finally and firmly.
“Are there any other girls?” Nancy asked,
faintly curious, as they stood on the deep steps
of the porch waiting for Sheila and Williams
who were emerging from the middle entrance.
Dick met her glance a little solemnly, and
hesitated for a perceptible instant.
“Are there, Dick?” she insisted.
“Yes, dear,” he said.