“Yes, it’s beautiful.”
Fleda wanted to ask how he knew, but hesitated from feelings of delicacy. Ingolby seemed to understand. A faint reflection of the old whimsical smile touched his lips, and his hands swept over the coverlet as though smoothing out a wrinkled map.
“The blind man gets new senses,” he said dreamily. “I feel things where I used to see them. How did I know it was a fine day? Simple enough. When the door opened there was only the lightest breath of wind, and the air was fresh and crisp, and I could smell the sun. One sense less, more degree of power to the other senses. The sun warms the air, gives it a flavour, and between it and the light frost, which showed that it was dry outside, I got the smell of a fine Fall day. Also, I heard the cry of the wild fowl going South, and they wouldn’t have made a sound if it hadn’t been a fine day. And also, and likewise, and besides, and howsomever, I heard Jim singing, and that nigger never sings in bad weather. Jim’s a fair-weather raven, and this morning he was singing like a ‘lav’rock in the glen.’”
Being blind, he could not see that, suddenly, a storm of emotion swept over her face.
His cheerfulness, his boylike simplicity, his indomitable spirit, which had survived so much, and must still face so much, his almost childlike ways, and the naive description of a blind man’s perception, waked in her an almost intolerable yearning. It was not the yearning of a maid for a man. It was the uncontrollable woman in her, the mother-thing, belonging to the first woman that ever was-protection of the weak, hovering love for the suffering, the ministering spirit.
Since Ingolby had been brought to the house in the pines, Madame Bulteel and herself, with Jim, had nursed him through the Valley of the Shadow. They had nursed him through brain-fever, through agonies which could not have been borne with consciousness. The tempest of the mind and the pains of misfortune went on from hour to hour, from day to day, almost without ceasing, until at last, a shadow of his former self, but with a wonderful light on his face which came from something within, he waited patiently for returning strength, propped up with pillows in the bed which had been Fleda’s own, in the room outside which Jethro Fawe had sung his heathen serenade.
It was the room of the house which, catching the morning sun, was best suited for an invalid. So she had given it to him with an eagerness behind which was the feeling that somehow it made him more of the inner circle of her own life; for apart from every other feeling she had, there was in her a deep spirit of comradeship belonging to far-off times when her life was that of the open road, the hillside and the vale. In those days no man was a stranger; all belonged.
To meet, and greet, and pass was the hourly event, but the meeting and the greeting had in it the familiarity of a common wandering, the sympathy of the homeless. Had Ingolby been less to her than he was, there would still have been the comradeship which made her the great creature she was fast becoming. It was odd that, as Ingolby became thinner and thinner, and ever more wan, she, in spite of her ceaseless nursing, appeared to thrive physically. She had even slightly increased the fulness of her figure. The velvet of her cheeks had grown richer, and her eyes deeper with warm fire. It was as though she flourished on giving: as though a hundred nerves of being and feeling had opened up within her and had expanded her life like some fine flower.
Gazing at Ingolby now there was a great hungering desire in her heart. She looked at the sightless eyes, and a passionate protest sprang to her lips which, in spite of herself, broke forth in a sort of moan.
“What is it?” Ingolby asked, with startled face.
“Nothing,” she answered, “nothing. I pricked my finger badly, that’s all.”
And, indeed, she had done so, but that would not have brought the moan to her lips.
“Well, it didn’t sound like a pricked finger complaint,” he remarked. “It was the kind of groan I’d give if I had a bad pain inside.”
“Ah, but you’re a man!” she remarked lightly, though two tears fell down her cheeks.
With an effort she recovered herself. “It’s time for your tonic,” she added, and she busied herself with giving it to him. “As soon as you have taken it, I’m going for a walk, so you must make up your mind to have some sleep.”
“Am I to be left alone?” he asked, with an assumed grievance in his voice.
“Madame Bulteel will stay with you,” she replied.
“Do you need a walk so very badly?” he asked presently.
“I don’t suppose I need it, but I want it,” she answered. “My feet and the earth are very friendly.”
“Where do you walk?” he asked.
“Just anywhere,” was her reply. “Sometimes up the river, sometimes down, sometimes miles away in the woods.”
“Do you never take a gun with you?”
“Of course,” she answered, nodding, as though he could see. “I get wild pigeons and sometimes a wild duck or a prairie-hen.”
“That’s right,” he remarked; “that’s right.”
“I don’t believe in walking just for the sake of walking,” she continued. “It doesn’t do you any good, but if you go for something and get it, that’s what puts the mind and the body right.”
Suddenly his face grew grave. “Yes, that’s it,” he remarked.
“To go for something you want, a long way off. You don’t feel the fag when you’re thinking of the thing at the end; but you’ve got to have the thing at the end, to keep making for it, or there’s no good going—none at all. That’s life; that’s how it is. It’s no good only walking—you’ve got to walk somewhere. It’s no good simply going—you’ve got to go somewhere. You’ve got to fight for something. That’s why, when they take the something you fight for away—when they break you and cripple you, and you can’t go anywhere for what you want badly, life isn’t worth living.”
An anxious look came into her face. This was the first time, since recovering consciousness, that he had referred, even indirectly, to all that had happened. She understood him well—ah, terribly well! It was the tragedy of the man stopped in his course because of one mistake, though he had done ten thousand wise things. The power taken from his hands, the interrupted life, the dark future, the beginning again, if ever his sight came back: it was sickening, heartbreaking.
She saw it all in his face, but as if some inward voice had spoken to him, his face cleared, the swift-moving hands clasped in front of him, and he said quietly: “But because it’s life, there it is. You have to take it as it comes.”
He stopped a moment, and in the pause she reached out her hand with a sudden passionate gesture, to touch his shoulder, but she restrained herself in time.
He seemed to feel what she was doing, and turned his face towards her, a slight flush coming to his cheeks. He smiled, and then he said: “How wonderful you are! You look—”
He checked himself, then added with a quizzical smile:
“You are looking very well to-day, Miss Fleda Druse, very well indeed. I like that dark-red dress you’re wearing.”
An almost frightened look came into her eyes. It was as though he could see, for she was wearing a dark-red dress—“wine-coloured,” her father called it, “maroon,” Madame Bulteel called it. Could he then see, after all?
“How did you know it was dark-red?” she asked, her voice shaking.
“Guessed it! Guessed it!” he answered almost gleefully. “Was I right? Is it dark-red?”
“Yes, dark-red,” she answered. “Was it really a guess?”
“Ah, but the guessiest kind of a guess,” he replied. “But who can tell? I couldn’t see it, but is there any reason why the mind shouldn’t see when the eyes are no longer working? Come now,” he added, “I’ve a feeling that I can tell things with my mind just as if I saw them. I do see. I’ll guess the time now—with my mind’s eye.”
Concentration came into his face. “It’s three minutes to twelve o’clock,” he said decisively.
She took up the watch which lay on the table beside the bed.
“Yes, it’s just three minutes to twelve,” she declared in an awe-struck voice. “That’s marvellous—how wonderful you are!”
“That’s what I said of you a minute ago,” he returned. Then, with a swift change of voice and manner, he added, “How long is it?”
“You mean, since you came here?” she asked, divining what was in his mind.
“Exactly. How long?”
“Six weeks,” she answered. “Six weeks and three days.”
“Why don’t you add the hour, too,” he urged half-plaintively, though he smiled.
“Well, it was three o’clock in the morning to the minute,” she answered.
“Old Father Time ought to make you his chief of staff,” he remarked gaily. “Now, I want to know,” he added, with a visible effort of determination, “what has happened since three o’clock in the morning, six weeks and three days ago. I want you to tell me what has happened to my concerns—to the railways, and also to the towns. I don’t want you to hide anything, because, if you do, I’ll have Jim in, and Jim, under proper control, will tell me the whole truth, and perhaps more than the truth. That’s the way with Jim. When he gets started he can’t stop. Tell me exactly everything.”
Anxiety drove the colour from her cheeks. She shrank back.
“You must tell me,” he urged. “I’d rather hear it from you than from Dr. Rockwell, or Jim, or your father. Your telling wouldn’t hurt as much as anybody else’s, if there has to be any hurt. Don’t you understand—but don’t you understand?” he urged.
She nodded to herself in the mirror on the wall opposite. “I’ll try to understand,” she replied presently; “Tell me, then: have they put someone in my place?”
“I understand so,” she replied.
He remained silent for a moment, his face very pale. “Who is running the show?” he asked.
She told him.
“Oh, him!” he exclaimed. “He’s dead against my policy. He’ll make a mess.”
“They say he’s doing that,” she remarked.
He asked her a series of questions which she tried to answer frankly, and he came to know that the trouble between the two towns, which, after the Orange funeral and his own disaster had subsided, was up again; that the railways were in difficulties; that there had been several failures in the town; that one of the banks—the Regent-had closed its doors; that Felix Marchand, having recovered from the injury he had received from Gabriel Druse on the day of the Orange funeral, had gone East for a month and had returned; that the old trouble was reviving in the mills, and that Marchand had linked himself with the enemies of the group controlling the railways hitherto directed by himself.
For a moment after she had answered his questions, there was strong emotion in his face, and then it cleared.
He reached out a hand towards her. How eagerly she clasped it! It was cold, and hers was so warm and firm and kind.
“True friend o’ mine!” he said with feeling. “How wonderful it is that somehow it all doesn’t seem to matter so much. I wonder why? I wonder—Tell me about yourself, about your life,” he added abruptly, as though it had been a question he had long wished to ask. In the tone was a quiet certainty suggesting that she would not hesitate to answer.
“We have both had big breaks in our lives,” he went on. “I know that. I’ve lost everything, in a way, by the break in my life, and I’ve an idea that you gained everything when the break in yours came. I didn’t believe the story Jethro Fawe told me, but still I knew there was some truth in it; something that he twisted to suit himself. I started life feeling I could conquer the world like another Alexander or Napoleon. I don’t know that it was all conceit. It was the wish to do, to see how far this thing on my shoulders”—he touched his head—“and this great physical machine”—he touched his breast with a thin hand—“would carry me. I don’t believe the main idea was vicious. It was wanting to work a human brain to its last volt of capacity, and to see what it could do. I suppose I became selfish as I forged on. I didn’t mean to be, but concentration upon the things I had to do prevented me from being the thing I ought to be. I wanted, as they say, to get there. I had a lot of irons in the fire—too many—but they weren’t put there deliberately. One thing led to another, and one thing, as it were, hung upon another, until they all got to be part of the scheme. Once they got there, I had to carry them all on, I couldn’t drop any of them; they got to be my life. It didn’t matter that it all grew bigger and bigger, and the risks got greater and greater. I thought I could weather it through, and so I could have done, if it hadn’t been for a mistake and an accident; but the mistake was mine. That’s where the thing nips—the mistake was mine. I took too big a risk. You see, I’d got so used to being lucky, it seemed as if I couldn’t go wrong. Everything had come my way. Ever since I began in that Montreal railway office, after leaving college, I hadn’t a single setback. I pulled things off. I made money, and I plumped it all into my railways and the Regent Bank; and as you said a minute ago, the Regent Bank has closed down. That cuts me clean out of the game. What was the matter with the bank? The manager?”
His voice was almost monotonous in its quietness. It was as though he told the story of something which had passed beyond chance or change. As it unfolded to her understanding, she had seated herself near to his bed. The door of the room was open, and in view outside on the landing sat Madame Bulteel reading. She was not, however, near enough to hear the conversation.
Ingolby’s voice was low, but it sounded as loud as a waterfall in the ears of the girl, who, in a few weeks, had travelled great distances on the road called Experience, that other name for life.
“It was the manager?” he repeated.
“Yes, they say so,” she answered. “He speculated with bank money.”
“In what?”
“In your railways,” she answered hesitatingly. “Curious—I dreamed that,” Ingolby remarked quietly, and leaned down and stroked the dog lying at his feet. It had been with him through all his sickness. “It must have been part of my delirium, because, now that I’ve got my senses back, it’s as though someone had told me about it. Speculated in my railways, eh? Chickens come home to roost, don’t they? I suppose I ought to be excited over it all,” he continued. “I suppose I ought. But the fact is, you only have just the one long, big moment of excitement when great trouble and tragedy come, or else it’s all excitement, all the time, and then you go mad. That’s the test, I think. When you’re struck by Fate, as a hideous war-machine might strike you, and the whole terror of loss and ruin bears down on you, you’re either swept away in an excitement that hasn’t any end, or you brace yourself, and become master of the shattering thing.”
“You are a master,” she interposed. “You are the Master Man,” she repeated admiringly.
He waved a hand deprecatingly. “Do you know, when we talked together in the woods soon after you ran the Rapids—you remember the day—if you had said that to me then, I’d have cocked my head and thought I was a jim-dandy, as they say. A Master Man was what I wanted to be. But it’s a pretty barren thing to think, or to feel, that you’re a Master Man; because, if you are—if you’ve had a ‘scoop’ all the way, as Jowett calls it, you can be as sure as anything that no one cares a rap farthing what happens to you. There are plenty who pretend they care, but it’s only because they’re sailing with the wind, and with your even keel. It’s only the Master Man himself that doesn’t know in the least he’s that who gets anything out of it all.”
“Aren’t you getting anything out of it?” she asked softly. “Aren’t you—Chief?”
At the familiar word—Jowett always called him Chief—a smile slowly stole across his face. “I really believe I am, thanks to you,” he said nodding.
He was going to say, “Thanks to you, Fleda,” but he restrained himself. He had no right to be familiar, to give an intimate turn to things. His game was over; his journey of ambition was done. He saw this girl with his mind’s eye—how much he longed to see her with the eyes of the body—in all her strange beauty; and he knew that even if she cared for him, such a sacrifice as linking her life with his was impossible. Yet her very presence there was like a garden of bloom to him: a garden full of the odour of life, of vital things, of sweet energy and happy being. Somehow, he and she were strangely alike. He knew it. From the time he held her in his arms at Carillon, he knew it. The great adventurous spirit which was in him belonged also to her. That was as sure as light and darkness.
“No, there’s no master man in me, but I think I know what one could be like,” he remarked at last. He straightened himself against the pillows. The old look of power came to a face hardly strong enough to bear it. It was so fine and thin now, and the spirit in him was so prodigious.
“No one cares what happens to the man who always succeeds; no one loves him,” he continued. “Do you know, in my trouble I’ve had more out of nigger Jim’s affection than I’ve ever had in my life. Then there’s Rockwell, Osterhaut and Jowett, and there’s your father. It was worth while living to feel the real thing.” His hands went out as though grasping something good and comforting. “I don’t suppose every man needs to be struck as hard as I’ve been to learn what’s what, but I’ve learned it. I give you my word of honour, I’ve learned it.”
Her face flushed and her eyes kindled greatly. “Jim, Rockwell, Osterhaut, Jowett, and my father!” she exclaimed. “Of course trouble wouldn’t do anything but make them come closer round you. Poor people live so near to misfortune all the time—I mean poor people like Jim, Osterhaut, and Jowett—that changes of fortune are just natural things to them. As for my father, he has had to stretch out his hands so often to those in trouble—”
“That he carried me home on his shoulders from the bridge six weeks and three days ago, at three o’clock in the morning,” interjected Ingolby with a quizzical smile.
“Why did you omit Madame Bulteel and myself when you mentioned those who showed their—friendship?” she asked, hesitating at the last word. “Haven’t we done our part?”
“I was talking of men,” he answered. “One knows what women do. They may leave you in the bright days, not in the dark days. On the majority of them you couldn’t rely in prosperity, but in misfortune you couldn’t do anything else. They are there with you. They’re made that way. The best life can give you in misfortune is a woman. It’s the great beginning-of-the-world thing in them. Men can’t stand prosperity, but women can stand misfortune. Why, if Jim and Osterhaut and Jowett and all the men of Lebanon and Manitou had deserted me, I shouldn’t have been surprised; but I’d have had to recast my philosophy if Fleda Druse had turned her bonny brown head away.”
It was evident he was making an effort to conquer emotions which were rising in him; that he was playing on the surface to prevent his deep feelings from breaking forth. “Instead of which,” he added jubilantly, “here I am, in the nicest room in the world, in a fine bed with springs like an antelope’s heels.”
He laughed, and hunched his back into the mattress. It was the laugh of the mocker, but he was mocking himself. She did not misunderstand. It was a nice room, as he said. He had never seen it with his eyes, but if he had seen it he would have realized how like herself it was—adorably fresh, happily coloured, sumptuous and fine. It had simple curtains, white sheets, and a warm carpet on the floor; and yet with something, too, that struck the note of a life outside. A pennant of many colours hung where two soft pink curtains joined, and at the window and over the door was an ancient cross in bronze and gold. It was not the simple Christian cross of the modern world, but an ancient one which had become a symbol of the Romanys, a sign to mark the highways, the guide of the wayfarers. The pennant had been on the pole of the Ry’s tent in far-off days in the Roumelian country. In the girl herself there was that which corresponded to the gorgeous pennant and the bronze cross. It was not in dress or in manner, for there was no sign of garishness, of the unusual anywhere—in manner she was as well controlled as any woman of fashion, in dress singularly reserved—but in the depths of the eyes there was some restless, unsettled thing, some flicker of strange banners akin to the pennant at the joining of the pink curtains. There had been something of the same look in Ingolby’s eyes in the past, only with him it was the sense of great adventure, intrepid enterprise, a touch of vision and the beckoning thing. That look was not in his eyes now. Nothing was there; no life, no soul; only darkness. But did that look still inhabit the eyes of the soul?
He answered the question himself. “I’d start again in a different way if I could,” he said musingly, his face towards the girl. “It’s easy to say that, but I would. It isn’t only the things you get, it’s how you use them. It isn’t only the things you do, it’s why you do them. But I’ll never have a chance now; I’ll never have a chance to try the new way. I’m done.”
Something almost savage leaped into her eyes—a wild, bitter protest, for it was her tragedy, too, if he was not to regain his sight. The great impulse of a nature which had been disciplined into reserve broke forth.
“It isn’t so,” she said with a tremor in her voice. All that he—and she—was in danger of losing came home to her. “It isn’t so. You shall get well again. Your sight will come back. To-morrow; perhaps to-day, Hindlip, the great oculist comes from New York. Mr. Warbeck, the Montreal man, holds out hopes. If the New York man says the same, why despair? Perhaps in another month you will be on your feet again, out in the world, fighting, working, mastering, just as you used to do.”
A sudden stillness seemed to take possession of him. His lips parted; his head was thrust forwards slightly as though he saw something in the distance. He spoke scarcely above a whisper.
“I didn’t know the New York man was coming. I didn’t know there was any hope at all,” he said with awe in his tones.
“We told you there was,” she answered.
“Yes, I know. But I thought you were all only trying to make it easier for me, and I heard Warbeck say to Rockwell, when they thought I was asleep, ‘It’s ten to one against him.’”
“Did you hear that?” she said sorrowfully. “I’m so sorry; but Mr. Warbeck said afterwards—only a week ago—that the chances were even. That’s the truth. On my soul and honour it’s the truth. He said the chances were even. It was he suggested Mr. Hindlip, and Hindlip is coming now. He’s on the way. He may be here to-day. Oh, be sure, be sure, be sure, it isn’t all over. You said your life was broken. It isn’t. You said my life had been broken. It wasn’t. It was only the wrench of a great change. Well, it’s only the wrench of a great change in your life. You said I gained everything in the great change of my life. I did; and the great change in your life won’t be lost, it will be gain, too. I know it; in my heart I know it.”
With sudden impulse she caught his hand in both of hers, and then with another impulse, which she could not control, she caught his head to her bosom. For one instant her arms wrapped him round, and she murmured something in a language he did not understand—the language of the Roumelian country. It was only one swift instant, and then with shocked exclamation she broke away from him, dropped into a chair, and buried her face in her hands.
He blindly reached out his hand towards her as if to touch her. “Mother-girl, dear mother-girl—that’s what you are,” he said huskily. “What a great, kind heart you’ve got!”
She did not reply, but sat with face hidden in her hands, rocking backwards and forwards. He understood; he tried to help her. There was a great joy in his heart, but he dared not give it utterance.
“Please tell me about your life—about that great change in it,” he said at last in a low voice. “Perhaps it would help me. Anyhow, I’d like to know, if you feel you can tell me.”
For a moment she was silent. Then she said to him with an anxious note in her voice: “What do you know about my life-about the ‘great change,’ as you call it?”
He reached out over the coverlet, felt for a sock which he had been learning to knit and, slowly plying the needles, replied: “I only know what Jethro Fawe told me, and he was a promiscuous liar.”
“I don’t think he lied about me,” she answered quietly. “He told you I was a Gipsy; he told you that I was married to him. That was true. I was a Gipsy. I was married to him in the Romany way, when I was a child of three, and I never saw him again until here, the other day, on the Sagalac.”
“You were married to him as much as I am,” he interjected scornfully. “That was a farce. It was only a promise to pay on the part of your father. There was nothing in that. Jethro Fawe could not claim on that.”
“He has tried to do so,” she answered, “and if I were still a Gipsy he would have the right to do so from his standpoint.”
“That sounds silly to me,” Ingolby remarked, his fingers moving now more quickly with the needles. “No, it isn’t silly,” she said, her voice almost as softly monotonous as his had been when he told her of his life a little while before. It was as though she was looking into her own mind and heart and speaking to herself. “It isn’t silly,” she repeated. “I don’t think you understand. Just because a race like the Gipsies have no country and no home, so they must have things that bind them which other people don’t need in the same way. Being the vagrants of the earth, so they must have things that hold them tighter than any written laws made by King or Parliament. Unless the Gipsies kept their laws sacred they couldn’t hold together at all. They’re iron and steel, the Gipsy laws. They can’t be stretched, and they can’t be twisted. They can only be broken, and then there’s no argument about it. When they are broken, there’s the penalty, and it has to be met.”
Ingolby stopped knitting for a moment. “You don’t mean that a penalty could touch you?” he asked incredulously.
“Not for breaking a law,” she answered. “I’m not a Gipsy any more. I gave my word about that, and so did my father; and I’ll keep it.”
“Please tell me about it,” he urged. “Tell me, so that I can understand everything.”
There was a long pause in which Ingolby inspected carefully with his fingers the work which he was doing, but at last Fleda’s voice came to him, as it seemed out of a great distance, while she began to tell of her first memories: of her life by the Danube and the Black Sea, and drew for him a picture, so far as she could recall it, of her marriage with Jethro, and of the years that followed. Now and again as she told of some sordid things, of the challenge of the law in different countries, of the coarse vagabondage of the Gipsy people in this place or in that, and some indignity put upon her father, or some humiliating incident, her voice became low and pained. It seemed as if she meant that he should see all she had been in that past, which still must be part of the present and have its place in the future, however far away all that belonged to it would be. She appeared to search her mind to find that which would prejudice him against her. While speaking with slow scorn of the life which she had lived as a Gipsy, yet she tried to make him understand, too, that, in the days when she belonged to it, it all seemed natural to her, and that its sordidness, its vagabondage did not produce repugnance in her mind when she was part of it. Unwittingly she over-coloured the picture, and he knew she did.
In spite of herself, however, some aspects of the old life called forth pictures of happy Nature, of busy animal life of wood and glen and stream and footpath which was exquisite in its way. She was in spirit at one with the multitudinous world of nature among which so many men and women lived, without seeing or knowing. It was all undesignedly a part of herself, and she was one of a population in a universal nation whose devout citizen she was. Sometimes, in response to an interjection from Ingolby, deftly made, she told of some incident which revealed as great a poetic as dramatic instinct. As she talked, Ingolby in his imagination pictured her as a girl of ten or twelve, in a dark-red dress, brown curls falling in profusion on her shoulders, with a clear, honest, beautiful eye, and a face that only spoke of a joy of living, in which the small things were the small things and the great things were the great: the perfect proportion of sane life in a sane world.
Now and again, carried away by the history of things remembered, she visualized scenes for him with the ardour of an artist and a lover of created things. He realized how powerful a hold the old life still had upon her. She understood it, too, for when at last she told of the great event in England which changed her life, and made her a deserter from Gipsy life; when she came to the giving of the pledge to a dying woman, and how she had kept that pledge, and how her father had kept it, sternly, faithfully, in spite of all it involved, she said to him:
“It may seem strange to you, living as I live now in one spot, with everything to make life easy, that I should long sometimes for that old life. I hate it in my heart of hearts, yet there’s something about it that belongs to me, that’s behind me, if that tells you anything. It’s as though there was some other self in me which reached far, far back into centuries, that wills me to do this and wills me to do that. It sounds mad to you of course, but there have been times when I have had a wild longing to go back to it all, to what some Gorgio writers call the pariah world—the Ishmaelites.”
More than once Ingolby’s heart throbbed heavily against his breast as he felt the passion of her nature, its extraordinary truthfulness, making it clear to him by indirect phrases that even Jethro Fawe, whom she despised, still had a hateful fascination for her. It was all at variance to her present self, but it summoned her through the long avenues of ancestry, predisposition; through the secret communion of those who, being dead, yet speak.
“It’s a great story told in a great way,” he said, when she had finished. “It’s the most honest thing I ever heard, but it’s not the most truthful thing I ever heard. I don’t think we can tell the exact truth about ourselves. We try to be honest; we are savagely in earnest about it, and so we exaggerate the bad things we do, and we often show distrust of the good things we do. That’s not a fair picture. I believe you’ve told me the truth as you see it and feel it, but I don’t think it’s the real truth. In my mind I sometimes see an oriel window in the college where I spent three years. I used to work and think for hours in that oriel window, and in the fights I’ve been having lately I’ve looked back and thought I wanted it again; wanted to be there in the peace of it all, with the books, and the lectures, and the drone of history, and the drudgery of examinations; but if I did go back to it, three days’d sicken me, and if you went back to the Gipsy life three days’d sicken you.”
“Yes, I know. Three hours would sicken me. But what might not happen in those three hours! Can’t you understand?”
Suddenly she got to her feet with a passionate exclamation, her clenched hands went to her temples in an agony of emotion. “Can’t you understand?” she repeated. “It’s the going back at all for three days, for three hours, for three minutes that counts. It might spoil everything; it might kill my life.”
His face flushed, crimsoned, then became pale; his hands ceased moving; the knitting lay still on his knee. “Maybe, but you aren’t going back for three minutes, any more than I’m going back to the oriel window for three seconds,” he said. “We dreamers have a lot of agony in thinking about the things we’re never going to do—just as much agony as in thinking about the things we’ve done. Every one of us dreamers ought to be insulated. We ought to wear emotional lightning-rods to carry off the brain-waves into the ground.
“I’ve never heard such a wonderful story,” he added, after an instant, with an intense longing to hold out his arms to her, and a still more intense will to do no such wrong. A blind man had no right or title to be a slave-owner, for that was what marriage to him would be. A wife would be a victim. He saw himself, felt himself being gradually devitalized, with only the placid brain left, considering only the problem of hourly comfort, and trying to neutralize the penalties of blindness. She must not be sacrificed to that, for apart from all else she had greatness of a kind in her. He knew far better than he had said of the storm of emotion in her, and he knew that she had not exaggerated the temptation which sang in her ears. Jethro Fawe—the thought of the man revolted him; and yet there was something about the fellow, a temperamental power, the glamour and garishness of Nature’s gifts, prostituted though they were, finding expression in a striking personality, in a body of athletic grace—a man-beauty.
“Have you seen Jethro Fawe lately?” he asked. “Not since”—she was going to say not since the morning her father had passed the sentence of the patrin upon him; but she paused in time. “Not since everything happened to you,” she added presently.
“He knows the game is up,” Ingolby remarked with forced cheerfulness. “He won’t be asking for any more.”
“It’s time for your milk and brandy,” she said suddenly, emotion subsiding and a look of purpose coming into her face. She poured out the liquid, and gave the glass into his hand. His fingers touched hers.
“Your hands are cold,” she said to him. “Cold hands, warm heart,” he chattered.
A curious, wilful, rebellious look came into her eyes. “I shouldn’t have thought it in your case,” she said, and with sudden resolve turned towards the door. “I’ll send Madame Bulteel,” she added. “I’m going for a walk.”
She had betrayed herself so much, had shown so recklessly what she felt, and yet, yet why did he not—she did not know what she wanted him to do. It was all a great confusion. Vaguely she realized what had been working in him, but yet the knowledge was dim indeed. She was a woman. In her heart of hearts she knew that he did care for her, and yet in her heart of hearts she denied that he cared.
She was suddenly angry with herself, angry with him, the poor blind man, back from the Valley of the Shadow. She had not reached the door, however, when Madame Bulteel entered the room.
“The doctor from New York has come,” she said, holding out a note from Dr. Rockwell. “He will be here in a couple of hours.”
Fleda turned back towards the bed.
“Good luck!” she said. “You’ll see, it will be all right.”
“Certainly I’ll see if it’s all right,” he said cheerfully. “Am I tidy? Have I used Pears’ soap?” He would have his joke at his own funeral if possible.
“There are two hours to get you fit to be seen,” she rejoined with raillery, infected by his cheerfulness in spite of herself. “Madame Bulteel is very brave. Nothing is too hard for her!”
An instant later she was gone, with her heart telling her to go back to him, not to leave him, but yet with a longing stronger still driving her to the open world, to which she could breathe her trouble in great gasps, as she sped onward through the woods and by the river. To love a blind man was sheer madness, but in her was a superstitious belief that he would see again. It prevailed against the doubts and terrors. It made her resent his own sense of fatality, his own belief that he would be in darkness all his days.
In the room where he awaited the verdict of the expert, he kept saying to himself:
“She would have made everything else look cheap—if it could have been.”
The last rays of the setting sun touched the gorgeous Autumn woods with a loving, bright glow, and the day stole pensively away into a purple bed beyond the sight of the eyes. From a lonely spot by the river, Fleda watched the westering gleam until it vanished, her soul alive to the melancholy beauty of it all. Not a human being seemed to be within the restricted circle of her vision. There were only to be seen the deep woods, in myriad tints of bronze and red and saffron, and the swift-flowing river. Overhead was the Northern sky, so clear, so thrilling, and the stars were beginning to sparkle in the incredibly swift twilight which links daytime and nighttime in that Upper Land. Lonely and delicately sad it all looked, but there was no feeling of loneliness among those who lived the life of the Sagalac. Many a man has stood on a wide plain of snow, white to the uttermost horizon, or in the yellow-brown grass of the Summer prairie, empty of all human life so far as eye could see, and yet has felt no solitude. It is as though the air itself is inhabited by a throng of happy comrades whispering in the communion of the invisible world.
As a child Fleda had often gazed upon just such scenes, lonely and luminous, but she was only conscious then of a vague and pleasant awe, a kindly confusion, which, like the din of innumerable bees, lulled wonder to sleep. Even as a child, however, something of what it meant had pierced her awe and wonder. Once as she crossed a broken, bare mountain of Roumania she had seen a wild ass perched upon a high summit gazing, as it were, over the wide valley, where beneath, among the rocks, other wild asses wandered. There was something so statue-like in this immovable wild creature that Fleda had watched it till it was hid from her view by a jutting rock. But the thing which made a lasting impression, drawing her nearer to nature-life than all that had chanced since she was born, was the fact that on returning, hours after, the wild ass was still standing upon the summit of the hill, still gazing across the valley. Or was it gazing across the valley? Was there some other vision commanding its sight?
So a young wife not yet a mother loses herself for hours together in a vista of unexplored experience. Fleda had passed on, out of sight of the wild ass on the hills, but for ever after the memory of it remained with her and the picture of it sprang to her eye innumerable times. The hypnotized wild thing—hypnotized by its own vague instincts, or by something outside itself-became to her as the Sphinx to the Egyptian, the everlasting question of existence.
Now, as she watched the day fleeing, and night with swift stealthiness coming on, that unforgettable picture of the Roumanian hills came to her again. The instinct of those far-off days which had been little removed from the finest animal intelligence had now developed into thought. Brain and soul strove to grasp what it all meant, and what the revelation was between Nature and herself. Nature was so vast; she was so insignificant; changes in its motionless inorganic life were imperceptible save through the telescopes of years; but she, like the wind, the water, and the clouds, was variable, inconstant. Was there any real relation between the vast, imperturbable earth, its seas, its forests, its mountains and its plains, its life of tree and plant and flower and the men and women dotted on its surface? Did they belong to each other, or were mankind only, as it were, vermin infesting the desirable world? Did they belong to each other? It meant so much if they did belong, and she loved to think they did. Many a time she kissed the smooth bole of a maple or whispered to it; or laid her cheek against a mossy rock and murmured a greeting in the spirit of a companionship as old as the making of the world.
On the evening of this day of her destiny—carrying the story of her own fate within its twenty-four hours—she was in a mood of detachment from life’s routine. As at a great opera, a sensitive spirit loses itself in visions alien to the music and yet born of it, so she, lost in this primeval scene before her, saw visions of things to be.
If Ingolby’s sight came back! In her abstraction she saw him with sight restored and by her side, and even in that joy her mind felt a hovering sense of invasion, no definite, visible thing, but a presence which made shadow. Suddenly oppressed by it, she turned back into the woods from the river-bank to make for home. She had explored nearly every portion of this river-country for miles up and down, but on this evening, lost in her dreams, she had wandered into less familiar regions. There was no chance of her being lost, so long as she kept near to the river, and indeed by instinct and not by thought or calculation she made her way about at all times. Turned homeward, she walked for about a quarter of a mile, retreading the path by which she had come. It was growing darker, and, being in unfamiliar surroundings, she hurried on, though she knew well what course to take. Following the bank of the river she would have increased her walk greatly, as the stream made a curve at a point above Manitou, and then came back again to its original course; so she cut across the promontory, taking the most direct line homeward.
Presently, however, she became conscious of other people in the wood besides herself. She saw no one, but she heard breaking twigs, the stir of leaves, the flutter of a partridge which told of human presence. The underbrush was considerable, darkness was coming on, and she had a sense of being surrounded. It agitated her, but she pulled herself together, stood still and admonished herself. She called herself a fool; she asked herself if she was going to be a coward. She laughed out loud at her own apprehension; but a chill stole into her blood when she heard near by—there was no doubt about it now—mockery of her own laughter. Then suddenly, before she could organize her senses, a score of men seemed to rise up from the ground around her, to burst out from the bushes, to drop from the trees, and to storm upon her. She had only time to realize that they were Romanys, before scarfs were thrown around her head, bound around her body, and, unconscious, she was carried away into the deep woods.
When she regained consciousness Fleda found herself in a tent, set in a kind of prairie amphitheatre valanced by shrubs and trees. Bright fires burned here and there, and dark-featured men squatted upon the ground, cared for their horses, or busied themselves near two large caravans, at the doors or on the steps of which now and again appeared a woman.
She had waked without moving, had observed the scene without drawing the attention of a man—a sentry—who sat beside the tent-door. The tent was empty save for herself. There was little in it besides the camp-bed against the tent wall, upon which she lay, and the cushions supporting her head. She had waked carefully, as it were: as though some inward monitor had warned her of impending danger. She realized that she had been kidnapped by Romanys, and that the hand behind the business was that of Jethro Fawe. The adventurous and reckless Fawe family had its many adherents in the Romany world, and Jethro was its head, the hereditary claimant for its leadership.
Notwithstanding the Ry of Rys’ prohibition, there had drawn nearer and ever nearer to him, from the Romany world he had abandoned, many of his people, never, however, actually coming within his vision till the appearance of Jethro Fawe. Here and there on the prairie, to a point just beyond Gabriel Druse’s horizon, they had come from all parts of the world; and Jethro, reckless and defiant under the Sentence, and knowing that the chances against his life were a million to one, had determined on one bold stroke which, if it failed, would make his fate no worse, and, if it succeeded, would give him his wife and, maybe, headship over all the Romany world. For weeks he had planned, watched and waited, filling the woods with his adherents, secretly following Fleda day by day, until, at last, the place, the opportunity, seemed perfect; and here she lay in a Romany tan once more, with the flickering fires outside in the night, and the sentry at her doorway. This watchman was not Jethro Fawe, but she knew well that Jethro was not far off.
Through the open door of the tent, for some minutes, her eyes studied the segment of the circle within her vision, and she realized that here was an organized attempt to force her back into the Romany world. If she repudiated the Gorgio life and acknowledged herself a Romany once again, she knew her safety would be secured; but in truth she had no fear for her life, for no one would dare to defy the Ry of Rys so far as to kill his daughter. But she was in danger of another kind—in deep and terrible danger; and she knew it well. As the thought of it took possession of her, her heart seemed almost to burst. Not fear, but anger and emotion possessed her. All the Romany in her stormed back again from the past. It sent her to her feet with a scarcely smothered cry. She was not quicker, however, than was the figure at the tent door, which, with a half-dozen others, sprang up as she appeared. A hand was raised, and, as if by magic, groups of Gipsies, some sitting, some standing, some with the Gipsy fiddle, one or two with flutes, began a Romany chant in a high, victorious key, and women threw upon the fire powders from which flamed up many coloured lights.
In a moment the camp was transformed. From the woods around came swarthy-faced men, with great gold rings in their ears and bright scarfs around their necks or waists, some of them handsome, dirty and insolent; others ugly, watchful, and quiet in manner and face; others still most friendly and kind in face and manner. All showed instant respect for Fleda. They raised their hands in a gesture of salutation as a Zulu chief thrusts up a long arm and shouts “Inkoos!” to one whom he honours. Some, however, made the sweeping Oriental gesture of the right hand, palm upward, and almost touching the ground—a sign of obedience and infinite respect. It had all been well arranged. Skilfully managed as it was, however, there was something in it deeper than theatrical display or dramatic purpose.
It was clear that many of them were deeply moved at being in the presence of the daughter of the Ry of Rys, who had for so long exiled himself. Racial, family, clan feeling spoke in voice and gesture, in look and attitude; but yet there were small groups of younger men whose salutations were perfunctory, not to say mocking. These were they who resented deeply Fleda’s defection, and truthfully felt that she had passed out of their circle for ever; that she despised them, and looked down on them from another sphere. They were all about the age of Jethro Fawe, but were of a less civilized type, and had semi-barbarism written all over them. Unlike Jethro they had never known the world of cities. They repudiated Fleda, because their ambition could not reach to her. They recognized the touch of fashion and of form, of a worldly education, of a convention which lifted her away from the tan and the caravan, from the everlasting itinerary. They had not had Jethro’s experiences in fashionable hotels of Europe, at midnight parties, at gay suppers, at garish dances, where Gorgio ladies answered the amorous looks of the ambitious Romany with the fiddle at his chin. Because these young Romanys knew they dare not aspire, they were resentful; but Jethro, the head of the rival family and the son of the dead claimant to the headship, had not such compulsory modesty. He had ranged far and wide, and his expectations were extensive. He was nowhere to be seen in the groups which sang and gestured in the light of the many coloured fires, though once or twice Fleda’s quickened ear detected his voice, exulting, in the chorus of song.
Presently, as she stood watching, listening, and strangely moved in spite of herself by the sudden dramatic turn which things had taken, a seat was brought to her. It was a handsome stool, looted perhaps from some chateau in the Old World, and over it was thrown a dark-red cloth which gave a semblance of dignity to the seat of authority, which it was meant to be.
Fleda did not refuse the honour. She had choked back the indignant words which had rushed to her lips as she left the tent where she had been lying. Prudence had bade her await developments. She could not yet make up her mind what to do. It was clear that a bold and deep purpose lay behind it all, and she could not tell how far-reaching it was, nor what it represented of rebellion against her father’s authority. That it did represent rebellion she had no doubt. She was well enough aware of the claims of Jethro’s dead father to the leadership, abandoned for three thousand pounds and marriage with herself; and she was also aware that while her father’s mysterious isolation might possibly have developed a reverence for him, yet active pressure and calumny might well have done its work. Also, if the marriage was repudiated, Jethro would be justified in resuming the family claim to the leadership.
She seated herself upon the scarlet seat with a gesture of thanks, while the salutations and greetings increased; then she awaited events, thrilled by the weird and pleasant music, with its touches of Eastern fantasy. In spite of herself she was moved, as Romanys, men and women, ran forward in excitement with arms raised towards her as though they meant to strike her, then suddenly stopped short, made obeisance, called a greeting, and ran backwards to their places.
Presently a group of men began a ceremony or ritual, before which the spectators now and again covered their eyes, or bent their heads low, or turned their backs, and raised their hands in a sort of ascription. As the ceremony neared its end, with its strange genuflections, a woman dressed in white was brought forward, her hands bound behind her, her hair falling over her shoulders, and after a moment of apparent denunciation on the part of the head of the ceremony, she was suddenly thrown to the ground, and the pretence of drawing a knife across her throat was made. As Fleda watched it she shuddered, but presently braced herself, because she knew that this ritual was meant to show what the end must be of those who, like herself, proved traitor to the traditions of race.
It was at this point, when fifty knives flashed in the air, with vengeful exclamations, that Jethro Fawe appeared in the midst of the crowd. He was dressed in the well-known clothes which he had worn since the day he first declared himself at Gabriel Druse’s home, and, compared with his friends around him, he showed to advantage. There was command in his bearing, and experience of life had given him primitive distinction.
For a moment he stood looking at Fleda in undisguised admiration, for she made a remarkable picture. Animal beauty was hers, too. There was a delicate, athletic charm in her body and bearing; but it added to, rather than took away from, the authority of her presence, so differing from Jethro. She had never compared herself with others, and her passionate intelligence would have rebelled against the supremacy of the body. She had no physical vanity, but she had some mental vanity, and it placed mind so far above matter that her beauty played no part in her calculations. At sight of him, Fleda’s blood quickened, but in indignation and in no other sense. As he came towards her, however, despising his vanity as she did, she felt how much he was above all those by whom he was surrounded. She realized his talent, and it almost made her forget his cunning and his loathsomeness. As he came near to her he made a slight gesture to someone in the crowd, and a chorus of salutations rose.
Composed and still she waited for him to come quite close to her, and the look in her face was like that of one who was scarcely conscious of what was passing around her, whose eyes saw distant things of infinite moment.
A few feet away from her he spoke.
“Daughter of the Ry of Rys, you are among your own people once again,” he said. “From everywhere in the world they have come to show their love for you. You would not have come to them of your own free will, because a madness ‘got hold of you, and so they came to you. You cut yourself off from them and told yourself you had become a Gorgio. But that was only your madness; and madness can be cured. We are the Fawes, the ancient Fawes, who ruled the Romany people before the Druses came to power. We are of the ancient blood, yet we are faithful to the Druse that rules over us. His word prevails, although his daughter is mad. Daughter of the Ry of Rys, you have seen us once again. We have sung to you; we have spoken to you; we have told you what is in our hearts; we have shown you how good is the end of those who are faithful, and how terrible is the end of the traitor. Do not forget it. Speak to us.”
Fleda had a fierce desire to spring to her feet and declare to them all that the sentence of the patrin had been passed upon Jethro Fawe, but she laid a hand upon herself. She knew they were unaware that the Sentence had been passed, else they would not have been with Jethro. In that case none would give him food or shelter or the hand of friendship; none dare show him any kindness; and it was the law that any one against whom he committed an offence, however small, might take his life. The Sentence had been like a cloud upon her mind ever since her father had passed it; she could not endure the thought of it. She could not bring herself to speak of it—to denounce him. Sooner or later the Sentence would reach every Romany everywhere, and Jethro would pass into the darkness of oblivion, not in his own time nor in the time of Fate. The man was abhorrent to her, yet his claim was there. Mad and bad as it was, he made his claim of her upon ancient rights, and she was still enough a Romany to see his point of view.
Getting to her feet slowly, she ignored Jethro, looked into the face of the crowd, and said:
“I am the daughter of the Ry of Rys still, though I am a Romany no longer. I made a pledge to be no more a Romany and I will keep it; yet you and all Romany people are dear to me because through long generations the Druses have been of you. You have brought me here against my will. Do you think the Ry of Rys will forgive that? In your words you have been kind to me, but yet you have threatened me. Do you think that a Druse has any fear? Did a Druse ever turn his cheek to be smitten? You know what the Druses are. I am a Druse still. I will not talk longer, I have nothing to say to you all except that you must take me back to my father, and I will see that he forgives you. Some of you have done this out of love; some of you have done it out of hate; yet set me free again upon the path to my home, and I shall forget it, and the Ry of Rys will forget it.”
At that instant there suddenly came forward from the doorway of a tent on the outskirts of the crowd a stalwart woman, with a strong face and a self-reliant manner. She was still young, but her slightly pockmarked countenance showed the wear and tear of sorrow of some kind. She had, indeed, lost her husband and her father in the Montenegrin wars. Hastening forward to Fleda she reached out a hand.
“Come with me,” she said; “come and sleep in my tent to-night. To-morrow you shall go back to the Ry of Rys, perhaps. Come with me.”
There was a sudden murmuring in the crowd, which was stilled by a motion of Jethro Fawe’s hand, and a moment afterwards Fleda gave her hand to the woman.
“I will go with you,” Fleda said. Then she turned to Jethro: “I wish to speak to you alone, Jethro Fawe,” she added.
He laughed triumphantly. “The wife of Jethro Fawe wishes to speak with him,” he bombastically cried aloud to the assembled people, and he prepared to follow Fleda.
As Fleda entered the woman’s tent a black-eyed girl, with tousled hair and a bold, sensual face, ran up to Jethro, and in an undertone of evil suggestion said to him:
“To-night is yours, Jethro. You can make tomorrow sure.”