Thy words are cast on air. My heart possessed
Throbs in the sudden rapture of new joy
As in a shaken hand against the light
Tumultuously the ruby heart of wine
Pants to the racing pulses. O farewell
The weary days and ordered tasks of Thebes!
I am no more a servant of the hour,
But bend all hours and seasons to my will.
For look! I drink and time is nought to me,
I reel with joy as yond sky reels with day,
Swayed by no less a god, no god of thine,
But mine, my god, and I his thing, his slave,
Stricken to rapture, as one strikes a lyre
And wakes the madness sleeping in its strings.
Lo! shall such strings respond to touch of man,
That once have thrilled to mightier harmonies
Swept by the passionate fingers of a god?
Might such things be, call for me once again,
And I will come repentant to thine hand,
And thou shalt set me to what tune thou wilt
Nor one wild random strain betray the past.
Not you I loved,
Not you at all, but something seen in you,
Some glory shining in your eyes, some word
Crying through all your speech, some prisoned joy
Half-manifest in you. Could your arms shut in
My spirit awakened? Or your kiss assuage
The stirring tides that beat against the bounds
Of all my being? As a sailor calls
A favouring wind and the gods answer him
With braying storm and cruel-running surge,
So at your summons all my life uprose
In tempest and the overflowing wave
Carried me from the shallows to the sea.
And there were voices roaming on the hills
And wild free winds that wantoned through the world
And clouds that loitered, shadowing earth, or hung
Fire-winged above the sunset. All of these
Mixed with my blood and, lingering at my heart,
Joined with its pulses and were one with me.
Being one with such, how could I else but roam
With wind and cloud and whomsoever of men
Such eager longing severs from their kind
To chase the flying freedom of the hills
In open day of shadow and sun, or when
Night glooms and glimmers in the windy moon.
And then he came, who seemed no less to me
Than as the winds and clouds had stooped to earth
And, gathering all the grace of bending flowers
And sinuous streams and grasses of the hills
And all the lithe and splendid mountain forms,
Had taken shape and stood triumphant there
Moulded to human beauty.
O gods, gods!
Must I not leave the weary round of earth
And follow, follow, follow in his train
With foam-white nymphs and goat-foot demigods
Through all the splendour and the pride of things
To the unknown end of rapture? O! the hills
Snow-topped above the climbing ranks of pine,
Soared over by the eagle only and trod
Only of men half-eagle. These are mine,
My sisters and companions till I die.
There will I live, there die. The nights shall shed
Solace of dews upon me, and the sun
Burn up my beauty with his amorous gaze
And the wind lash me with his whips of rain,
But never shall I come to human doors,
Or know a human sorrow, or a joy
That is not half a god. The years are mine
Winged with delight and rapture and desire.
Not as men die shall I forsake the day
With weeping and with wailing and a hope
Half-known of other lives in other worlds,
But sure of slumber, with no backward gaze,
On some wild eve of autumn I shall pass
With the last leaf descending, as the sun
Sinks headlong in the ruined west, and far
Night gathers round the breaking heart of day.
So shall I pass for ever without fear,
Happy in life, in death, unfalteringly
Gazing with steady eyes as darkness dawns
And my rapt soul goes burning into night.