MEMB. III.
Symptoms or signs of Love Melancholy, in Body, Mind, good, bad, &c.
Symptoms are either of body or mind; of body, paleness, leanness, dryness,
&c. [5238]Pallidus omnis amans, color hic est aptus amanti, as the poet
describes lovers: fecit amor maciem, love causeth leanness. [5239]
Avicenna de Ilishi, c. 33. “makes hollow eyes, dryness, symptoms of this
disease, to go smiling to themselves, or acting as if they saw or heard
some delectable object.” Valleriola, lib. 3. observat. cap. 7.
Laurentius, cap. 10. Aelianus Montaltus de Her. amore. Langius,
epist. 24. lib. 1. epist. med. deliver as much, corpus exangue
pallet, corpus gracile, oculi cavi, lean, pale,—ut nudis qui pressit
calcibus anguem, “as one who trod with naked foot upon a snake,”
hollow-eyed, their eyes are hidden in their heads,—[5240]Tenerque nitidi
corposis cecidit decor, they pine away, and look ill with waking, cares,
sighs.
Et qui tenebant signa Phoebeae facis
Oculi, nihil gentile nec patrium micant.
“And eyes that once rivalled the locks of Phoebus, lose the patrial and
paternal lustre.” With groans, griefs, sadness, dullness,
[5241]———Nulla jam Cereris subi
Cura aut salutis———
want of appetite, &c. A reason of all this,
[5242]Jason Pratensis gives,
“because of the distraction of the spirits the liver doth not perform his
part, nor turns the aliment into blood as it ought, and for that cause the
members are weak for want of sustenance, they are lean and pine, as the
herbs of my garden do this month of May, for want of rain.” The green
sickness therefore often happeneth to young women, a cachexia or an evil
habit to men, besides their ordinary sighs, complaints, and lamentations,
which are too frequent. As drops from a still,—
ut occluso stillat ab igne
liquor, doth Cupid's fire provoke tears from a true lover's eyes,
[5243]The mighty Mars did oft for Venus shriek,
Privily moistening his horrid cheek
With womanish tears,———
[5244]———ignis distillat in undas,
Testis erit largus qui rigat ora liquor,
with many such like passions. When Chariclia was enamoured of Theagines, as
[5245]Heliodorus sets her out, “she was half distracted, and spake she
knew not what, sighed to herself, lay much awake, and was lean upon a
sudden:” and when she was besotted on her son-in-law,
[5246]pallor
deformis, marcentes oculi, &c., she had ugly paleness, hollow eyes,
restless thoughts, short wind, &c. Euryalus, in an epistle sent to
Lucretia, his mistress, complains amongst other grievances,
tu mihi et
somni et cibi usum abstulisti, thou hast taken my stomach and my sleep
from me. So he describes it aright:
[5247]His sleep, his meat, his drink, in him bereft,
That lean he waxeth, and dry as a shaft,
His eyes hollow and grisly to behold,
His hew pale and ashen to unfold,
And solitary he was ever alone,
And waking all the night making moan.
Theocritus
Edyl. 2. makes a fair maid of Delphos, in love with a young man
of Minda, confess as much,
Ut vidi ut insanii, ut animus mihi male affectiis est,
Miserae mihi forma tabescebat, neque amplius pompam
Ullum curabam, aut quando domum redieram
Novi, sed me ardens quidam morbus consumebat,
Decubui in lecto dies decem, et noctes decem,
Defluebant capite capilli, ipsaque sola reliqua
Ossa et cutis———
No sooner seen I had, but mad I was.
My beauty fail'd, and I no more did care
For any pomp, I knew not where I was,
But sick I was, and evil I did fare;
I lay upon my bed ten days and nights,
A skeleton I was in all men's sights.
All these passions are well expressed by
[5248]that heroical poet in the
person of Dido:
At non infelix animi Phaenissa, nec unquam
Solvitur in somnos, oculisque ac pectore amores
Accipit; ingeminant curae, rursusque resurgens
Saevit amor, &c.———
Unhappy Dido could not sleep at all,
But lies awake, and takes no rest:
And up she gets again, whilst care and grief,
And raging love torment her breast.
Accius Sanazarius Egloga 2. de Galatea, in the same manner feigns his
Lychoris [5249]tormenting herself for want of sleep, sighing, sobbing, and
lamenting; and Eustathius in his Ismenias much troubled, and [5250]
“panting at heart, at the sight of his mistress,” he could not sleep, his
bed was thorns. [5251]All make leanness, want of appetite, want of sleep
ordinary symptoms, and by that means they are brought often so low, so much
altered and changed, that as [5252]he jested in the comedy, “one scarce
know them to be the same men.”
Attenuant juvenum vigilatae corpora noctes,
Curaque et immenso qui fit amore dolor.
Many such symptoms there are of the body to discern lovers by,—
quis enim
bene celet amorem? Can a man, saith Solomon,
Prov. vi. 27, carry fire in
his bosom and not burn? it will hardly be hid; though they do all they can
to hide it, it must out,
plus quam mille notis—it may be described,
[5253]quoque magis tegitur, tectus magis aestuat ignis. 'Twas Antiphanes
the comedian's observation of old, Love and drunkenness cannot be
concealed,
Celare alia possis, haec praeter duo, vini potum, &c. words,
looks, gestures, all will betray them; but two of the most notable signs
are observed by the pulse and countenance. When Antiochus, the son of
Seleucus, was sick for Stratonice, his mother-in-law, and would not confess
his grief, or the cause of his disease, Erasistratus, the physician, found
him by his pulse and countenance to be in love with her,
[5254]“because
that when she came in presence, or was named, his pulse varied, and he
blushed besides.” In this very sort was the love of Callices, the son of
Polycles, discovered by Panacaeas the physician, as you may read the story
at large in
[5255]Aristenaetus. By the same signs Galen brags that he found
out Justa, Boethius the consul's wife, to dote on Pylades the player,
because at his name still she both altered pulse and countenance, as
[5256]
Polyarchus did at the name of Argenis. Franciscus Valesius,
l. 3. controv.
13. med. contr. denies there is any such
pulsus amatorius, or that love
may be so discerned; but Avicenna confirms this of Galen out of his
experience,
lib. 3. Fen. 1. and Gordonius,
cap. 20. [5257]“Their
pulse, he saith, is ordinate and swift, if she go by whom he loves,”
Langius,
epist. 24. lib. 1. med. epist. Neviscanus,
lib. 4. numer. 66.
syl. nuptialis, Valescus de Taranta, Guianerius,
Tract. 15. Valleriola
sets down this for a symptom,
[5258]“Difference of pulse, neglect of
business, want of sleep, often sighs, blushings, when there is any speech
of their mistress, are manifest signs.” But amongst the rest, Josephus
Struthis, that Polonian, in the fifth book,
cap. 17. of his Doctrine of
Pulses, holds that this and all other passions of the mind may be
discovered by the pulse.
[5259]“And if you will know, saith he, whether
the men suspected be such or such, touch their arteries,” &c. And in his
fourth book, fourteenth chapter, he speaks of this particular pulse,
[5260]
“Love makes an unequal pulse,” &c., he gives instance of a gentlewoman,
[5261]a patient of his, whom by this means he found to be much enamoured,
and with whom: he named many persons, but at the last when his name came
whom he suspected,
[5262]“her pulse began to vary and to beat swifter, and
so by often feeling her pulse, he perceived what the matter was.”
Apollonius
Argonaut. lib. 4. poetically setting down the meeting of Jason
and Medea, makes them both to blush at one another's sight, and at the
first they were not able to speak.
Tremo, horreoque postquam aspexi hanc,
Phaedria trembled at the sight of Thais, others sweat, blow short,
Crura
tremunt ac poplites,—are troubled with palpitation of heart upon the like
occasion,
cor proximum ori, saith
[5264]Aristenaetus, their heart is at
their mouth, leaps, these burn and freeze, (for love is fire, ice, hot,
cold, itch, fever, frenzy, pleurisy, what not) they look pale, red, and
commonly blush at their first congress; and sometimes through violent
agitation of spirits bleed at nose, or when she is talked of; which very
sign
[5265]Eustathius makes an argument of Ismene's affection, that when
she met her sweetheart by chance, she changed her countenance to a
maiden-blush. 'Tis a common thing amongst lovers, as
[5266]Arnulphus, that
merry-conceited bishop, hath well expressed in a facetious epigram of his,
Alterno facies sibi dat responsa rubore,
Et tener affectum prodit utrique pudor, &c.
Their faces answer, and by blushing say,
How both affected are, they do betray.
But the best conjectures are taken from such symptoms as appear when they
are both present; all their speeches, amorous glances, actions, lascivious
gestures will betray them; they cannot contain themselves, but that they
will be still kissing.
[5267]Stratocles, the physician, upon his
wedding-day, when he was at dinner,
Nihil prius sorbillavit, quam tria
basia puellae pangeret, could not eat his meat for kissing the bride, &c.
First a word, and then a kiss, then some other compliment, and then a kiss,
then an idle question, then a kiss, and when he had pumped his wits dry,
can say no more, kissing and colling are never out of season,
[5268]Hoc
non deficit incipitque semper, 'tis never at an end,
[5269]another kiss,
and then another, another, and another, &c.—
huc ades O Thelayra—Come
kiss me Corinna?
Centum basia millies,
Mille basia millies,
Et tot millia millies,
Quot guttae Siculo mari,
Quot sunt sidera coelo,
Istis purpureis genis,
Istis turgidulis labris,
Ocelisque loquaculis,
Figam continuo impetu;
O formosa Neaera. (As Catullus to Lesbia.)
Da mihi basia mille, deindi centum,
Dein mille altera, da secunda centum,
Dein usque altera millia, deinde centum.
[5271]———first give a hundred,
Then a thousand, then another
Hundred, then unto the other
Add a thousand, and so more, &c.
Till you equal with the store, all the grass, &c. So Venus did by her
Adonis, the moon with Endymion, they are still dallying and culling, as so
many doves,
Columbatimque labra conserentes labiis, and that with
alacrity and courage,
[5272]Affligunt avide corpus, junguntque salivas
Oris, et inspirant prensantes dentibus ora.
[5273]Tam impresso ore ut vix inde labra detrahant, cervice reclinata,
“as Lamprias in Lucian kissed Thais, Philippus her
[5274]Aristaenetus,”
amore lymphato tam uriose adhaesit, ut vix labra solvere esset, totumque os
mihi contrivit;
[5275]Aretine's Lucretia, by a suitor of hers was so
saluted, and 'tis their ordinary fashion.
———dentes illudunt saepe labellis,
Atque premunt arete adfigentes oscula———
They cannot, I say, contain themselves, they will be still not only joining
hands, kissing, but embracing, treading on their toes, &c., diving into
their bosoms, and that
libenter, et cum delectatione, as
[5276]
Philostratus confesseth to his mistress; and Lamprias in Lucian,
Mammillas
premens, per sinum clam dextra, &c., feeling their paps, and that scarce
honestly sometimes: as the old man in the
[5277]Comedy well observed of
his son,
Non ego te videbam manum huic puellae in sinum insere? Did not I
see thee put thy hand into her bosom? go to, with many such love tricks.
[5278]Juno in Lucian
deorum, tom. 3. dial. 3. complains to Jupiter of
Ixion,
[5279]“he looked so attentively on her, and sometimes would sigh
and weep in her company, and when I drank by chance, and gave Ganymede the
cup, he would desire to drink still in the very cup that I drank of, and in
the same place where I drank, and would kiss the cup, and then look
steadily on me, and sometimes sigh, and then again smile.” If it be so they
cannot come near to dally, have not that opportunity, familiarity, or
acquaintance to confer and talk together; yet if they be in presence, their
eye will betray them:
Ubi amor ibi oculus, as the common saying is,
“where I look I like, and where I like I love;” but they will lose
themselves in her looks.
Alter in alterius jactantes lumina vultus,
Quaerebant taciti noster ubi esset amor.
“They cannot look off whom they love,” they will
impregnare eam, ipsis
oculis, deflower her with their eyes, be still gazing, staring, stealing
faces, smiling, glancing at her, as
[5280]Apollo on Leucothoe, the moon on
her
[5281]Endymion, when she stood still in Caria, and at Latmos caused
her chariot to be stayed. They must all stand and admire, or if she go by,
look after her as long as they can see her, she is
animae auriga, as
Anacreon calls her, they cannot go by her door or window, but, as an
adamant, she draws their eyes to it; though she be not there present, they
must needs glance that way, and look back to it. Aristenaetus of
[5282]
Exithemus, Lucian, in his Imagim. of himself, and Tatius of Clitophon, say
as much,
Ille oculos de Leucippe [5283]nunquam dejiciebat, and many
lovers confess when they came in their mistress' presence, they could not
hold off their eyes, but looked wistfully and steadily on her,
inconnivo
aspectu, with much eagerness and greediness, as if they would look through,
or should never have enough sight of her.
Fixis ardens obtutibus haeret; so
she will do by him, drink to him with her eyes, nay, drink him up, devour
him, swallow him, as Martial's Mamurra is remembered to have done:
Inspexit molles pueros, oculisque comedit, &c. There is a pleasant story
to this purpose in
Navigat. Vertom. lib. 3. cap. 5. The sultan of Sana's
wife in Arabia, because Vertomannus was fair and white, could not look off
him, from sunrising to sunsetting; she could not desist; she made him one
day come into her chamber,
et geminae, horae spatio intuebatur, non a me
anquam aciem oculorum avertebat, me observans veluti Cupidinem quendam,
for two hours' space she still gazed on him. A young man in
[5284]Lucian
fell in love with Venus' picture; he came every morning to her temple, and
there continued all day long
[5285]from sunrising to sunset, unwilling to
go home at night, sitting over against the goddess's picture, he did
continually look upon her, and mutter to himself I know not what. If so be
they cannot see them whom they love, they will still be walking and waiting
about their mistress's doors, taking all opportunity to see them, as in
[5286]Longus Sophista, Daphnis and Chloe, two lovers, were still hovering
at one another's gates, he sought all occasions to be in her company, to
hunt in summer, and catch birds in the frost about her father's house in
the winter, that she might see him, and he her.
[5287]“A king's palace was
not so diligently attended,” saith Aretine's Lucretia, “as my house was
when I lay in Rome; the porch and street was ever full of some, walking or
riding, on set purpose to see me; their eye was still upon my window; as
they passed by, they could not choose but look back to my house when they
were past, and sometimes hem or cough, or take some impertinent occasion to
speak aloud, that I might look out and observe them.” 'Tis so in other
places, 'tis common to every lover, 'tis all his felicity to be with her,
to talk with her; he is never well but in her company, and will walk
[5288]
“seven or eight times a day through the street where she dwells, and make
sleeveless errands to see her;” plotting still where, when, and how to
visit her,
[5289]Levesque sub nocte susurri,
Composita repetuntur hora.
And when he is gone, he thinks every minute an hour, every hour as long as
a day, ten days a whole year, till he see her again.
[5290]Tempora si
numeres, bene quae numeramus amantes. And if thou be in love, thou wilt say
so too,
Et longum formosa, vale, farewell sweetheart,
vale charissima
Argenis, &c. Farewell my dear Argenis, once more farewell, farewell. And
though he is to meet her by compact, and that very shortly, perchance
tomorrow, yet both to depart, he'll take his leave again, and again, and
then come back again, look after, and shake his hand, wave his hat afar
off. Now gone, he thinks it long till he see her again, and she him, the
clocks are surely set back, the hour's past,
[5291]Hospita Demophoon tua te Rodopheia Phillis,
Ultra promissum tempus abesse queror.
She looks out at window still to see whether he come,
[5292]and by report
Phillis went nine times to the seaside that day, to see if her Demophoon
were approaching, and
[5293]Troilus to the city gates, to look for his
Cresseid. She is ill at ease, and sick till she see him again, peevish in
the meantime; discontent, heavy, sad, and why comes he not? where is he?
why breaks he promise? why tarries he so long? sure he is not well; sure he
hath some mischance; sure he forgets himself and me; with infinite such.
And then, confident again, up she gets, out she looks, listens, and
inquires, hearkens, kens; every man afar off is sure he, every stirring in
the street, now he is there, that's he,
male aurorae, malae soli dicit,
deiratque, &c., the longest day that ever was, so she raves, restless and
impatient; for
Amor non patitur moras, love brooks no delays: the time's
quickly gone that's spent in her company, the miles short, the way
pleasant; all weather is good whilst he goes to her house, heat or cold;
though his teeth chatter in his head, he moves not; wet or dry, 'tis all
one; wet to the skin, he feels it not, cares not at least for it, but will
easily endure it and much more, because it is done with alacrity, and for
his mistress's sweet sake; let the burden be never so heavy, love makes it
light.
[5294]Jacob served seven years for Rachel, and it was quickly gone
because he loved her. None so merry; if he may happily enjoy her company,
he is in heaven for a time; and if he may not, dejected in an instant,
solitary, silent, he departs weeping, lamenting, sighing, complaining.
But the symptoms of the mind in lovers are almost infinite, and so diverse,
that no art can comprehend them; though they be merry sometimes, and rapt
beyond themselves for joy: yet most part, love is a plague, a torture, a
hell, a bitter sweet passion at last; [5295]Amor melle et felle est
faecundissimus, gustum dat dulcem et amarum. 'Tis suavis amaricies,
dolentia delectabilis, hilare tormentum;
[5296]Et me melle beant suaviora,
Et me felle necant amariora.
like a summer fly or sphinx's wings, or a rainbow of all colours,
Quae ad solis radios conversae aureae erant,
Adversus nubes ceruleae, quale jabar iridis,
fair, foul, and full of variation, though most part irksome and bad. For in
a word, the Spanish Inquisition is not comparable to it; “a torment” and
[5297]“execution” as it is, as he calls it in the poet, an unquenchable
fire, and what not?
[5298]From it, saith Austin, arise “biting cares,
perturbations, passions, sorrows, fears, suspicions, discontents,
contentions, discords, wars, treacheries, enmities, flattery, cozening,
riot, impudence, cruelty, knavery,” &c.
Lamentatio, lachrymae perennes,
Languor, anxietas, amaritudo;
Aut si triste magis potest quid esse,
Hos tu das comites Neaera vitae.
These be the companions of lovers, and the ordinary symptoms, as the poet
repeats them.
[5300]In amore haec insunt vitia,
Suspiciones, inimicitiae, audaciae,
Bellum, pax rursum, &c.
[5301]Insomnia, aerumna, error, terror, et fuga,
Excogitantia excors immodestia,
Petulantia, cupiditas, et malevolentia;
Inhaeret etiam aviditas, desidia, injuria,
Inopia, contumelia et dispendium, &c.
In love these vices are; suspicions.
Peace, war, and impudence, detractions.
Dreams, cares, and errors, terrors and affrights,
Immodest pranks, devices, sleights and flights,
Heart-burnings, wants, neglects, desire of wrong,
Loss continual, expense and hurt among.
Every poet is full of such catalogues of love symptoms; but fear and sorrow
may justly challenge the chief place. Though Hercules de Saxonia, cap. 3.
Tract. de melanch. will exclude fear from love melancholy, yet I am
otherwise persuaded. [5302]Res est solliciti plena timoris amor. 'Tis
full of fear, anxiety, doubt, care, peevishness, suspicion; it turns a man
into a woman, which made Hesiod belike put Fear and Paleness Venus'
daughters,
———Marti clypeos atque arma secanti
Alma Venus peperit Pallorem, unaque Timorem:
because fear and love are still linked together. Moreover they are apt to
mistake, amplify, too credulous sometimes, too full of hope and confidence,
and then again very jealous, unapt to believe or entertain any good news.
The comical poet hath prettily painted out this passage amongst the rest in
a
[5303]dialogue betwixt Mitio and Aeschines, a gentle father and a
lovesick son. “Be of good cheer, my son, thou shalt have her to wife. Ae.
Ah father, do you mock me now? M. I mock thee, why? Ae. That which I so
earnestly desire, I more suspect and fear. M. Get you home, and send for
her to be your wife. Ae. What now a wife, now father,” &c. These doubts,
anxieties, suspicions, are the least part of their torments; they break
many times from passions to actions, speak fair, and flatter, now most
obsequious and willing, by and by they are averse, wrangle, fight, swear,
quarrel, laugh, weep: and he that doth not so by fits,
[5304]Lucian holds,
is not thoroughly touched with this loadstone of love. So their actions and
passions are intermixed, but of all other passions, sorrow hath the
greatest share;
[5305]love to many is bitterness itself;
rem amaram
Plato calls it, a bitter potion, an agony, a plague.
Eripite hanc pestem perniciemque mihi;
Quae mihi subrepens imos ut torpor in artus,
Expulit ex omni pectore laetitias.
O take away this plague, this mischief from me,
Which, as a numbness over all my body,
Expels my joys, and makes my soul so heavy.
Phaedria had a true touch of this, when he cried out,
[5306]O Thais, utinam esset mihi
Pars aequa amoris tecum, ac paritor fieret ut
Aut hoc tibi doleret itidem, ut mihi dolet.
O Thais, would thou hadst of these my pains a part,
Or as it doth me now, so it would make thee smart.
So had that young man, when he roared again for discontent,
[5307]Jactor, crucior, agitor, stimulor,
Versor in amoris rota miser,
Exanimor, feror, distrahor, deripior,
Ubi sum, ibi non sum; ubi non sum, ibi est animus.
I am vext and toss'd, and rack'd on love's wheel:
Where not, I am; but where am, do not feel.
The moon in
[5308]Lucian made her moan to Venus, that she was almost dead
for love,
pereo equidem amore, and after a long tale, she broke off
abruptly and wept,
[5309]“O Venus, thou knowest my poor heart.” Charmides,
in
[5310]Lucian, was so impatient, that he sobbed and sighed, and tore his
hair, and said he would hang himself. “I am undone, O sister Tryphena, I
cannot endure these love pangs; what shall I do?”
Vos O dii Averrunci
solvite me his curis, O ye gods, free me from these cares and miseries,
out of the anguish of his soul,
[5311]Theocles prays. Shall I say, most
part of a lover's life is full of agony, anxiety, fear, and grief,
complaints, sighs, suspicions, and cares, (heigh-ho, my heart is woe) full
of silence and irksome solitariness?
Frequenting shady bowers in discontent,
To the air his fruitless clamours he will vent.
except at such times that he hath
lucida intervalla, pleasant gales, or
sudden alterations, as if his mistress smile upon him, give him a good
look, a kiss, or that some comfortable message be brought him, his service
is accepted, &c.
He is then too confident and rapt beyond himself, as if he had heard the
nightingale in the spring before the cuckoo, or as [5312]Calisto was at
Malebaeas' presence, Quis unquam hac mortali vita, tam gloriosum corpus
vidit? humanitatem transcendere videor., &c. who ever saw so glorious a
sight, what man ever enjoyed such delight? More content cannot be given of
the gods, wished, had or hoped of any mortal man. There is no happiness in
the world comparable to his, no content, no joy to this, no life to love,
he is in paradise.
[5313]Quis me uno vivit felicior? aut magis hac est
Optandum vita dicere quis poterit?
Who lives so happy as myself? what bliss
In this our life may be compar'd to this?
He will not change fortune in that case with a prince,
Persarum vigui rege beatior.
The Persian kings are not so jovial as he is,
O [5315]festus dies
hominis, O happy day; so Chaerea exclaims when he came from Pamphila his
sweetheart well pleased,
Nunc est profecto interfici cum perpeti me possem,
Ne hoc gaudium contaminet vita aliqua aegritudine.
“He could find in his heart to be killed instantly, lest if he live longer,
some sorrow or sickness should contaminate his joys.” A little after, he
was so merrily set upon the same occasion, that he could not contain
himself.
[5316]O populares, ecquis me vivit hodie fortunatior?
Nemo hercule quisquam; nam in me dii plane potestatem
Suam omnem ostendere;
“Is't possible (O my countrymen) for any living to be so happy as myself?
No sure it cannot be, for the gods have shown all their power, all their
goodness in me.” Yet by and by when this young gallant was crossed in his
wench, he laments, and cries, and roars downright:
Occidi—I am undone,
Neque virgo est usquam, neque ego, qui e conspectu illam amisi meo,
Ubi quaeram, ubi investigem, quem percunter, quam insistam viam?
The virgin's gone, and I am gone, she's gone, she's gone, and what shall I
do? where shall I seek her, where shall I find her, whom shall I ask? what
way, what course shall I take? what will become of me—
[5317]vitales
auras invitus agebat, he was weary of his life, sick, mad, and desperate,
[5318]utinam mihi esset aliquid hic, quo nunc me praecipitem darem. 'Tis
not Chaereas' case this alone, but his, and his, and every lover's in the
like state. If he hear ill news, have bad success in his suit, she frown
upon him, or that his mistress in his presence respect another more (as
[5319]Hedus observes) “prefer another suitor, speak more familiarly to
him, or use more kindly than himself, if by nod, smile, message, she
discloseth herself to another, he is instantly tormented, none so dejected
as he is,” utterly undone, a castaway,
[5320]In quem fortuna omnia
odiorum suorum crudelissima tela exonerat, a dead man, the scorn of
fortune, a monster of fortune, worse than nought, the loss of a kingdom had
been less.
[5321]Aretine's Lucretia made very good proof of this, as she
relates it herself. “For when I made some of my suitors believe I would
betake myself to a nunnery, they took on, as if they had lost father and
mother, because they were for ever after to want my company.”
Omnes
labores leves fuere, all other labour was light:
[5322]but this might not
be endured.
Tui carendum quod erat—“for I cannot be without thy
company,” mournful Amyntas, painful Amyntas, careful Amyntas; better a
metropolitan city were sacked, a royal army overcome, an invincible armada
sunk, and twenty thousand kings should perish, than her little finger ache,
so zealous are they, and so tender of her good. They would all turn friars
for my sake, as she follows it, in hope by that means to meet, or see me
again, as my confessors, at stool-ball, or at barley-break: And so
afterwards when an importunate suitor came,
[5323]“If I had bid my maid
say that I was not at leisure, not within, busy, could not speak with him,
he was instantly astonished, and stood like a pillar of marble; another
went swearing, chafing, cursing, foaming.”
[5324]Illa sibi vox ipsa Jovis
violentior ira, cum tonat, &c. the voice of a mandrake had been sweeter
music: “but he to whom I gave entertainment, was in the Elysian fields,
ravished for joy, quite beyond himself.” 'Tis the general humour of all
lovers, she is their stern, pole-star, and guide.
[5325]Deliciumque
animi, deliquiumque sui. As a tulipant to the sun (which our herbalists
calls Narcissus) when it shines, is
Admirandus flos ad radios solis se
pandens, a glorious flower exposing itself;
[5326]but when the sun sets,
or a tempest comes, it hides itself, pines away, and hath no pleasure left,
(which Carolus Gonzaga, duke of Mantua, in a cause not unlike, sometimes
used for an impress) do all inamorates to their mistress; she is their sun,
their
Primum mobile, or
anima informans; this
[5327]one hath elegantly
expressed by a windmill, still moved by the wind, which otherwise hath no
motion of itself.
Sic tua ni spiret gratia, truncus ero. “He is wholly
animated from her breath,” his soul lives in her body,
[5328]sola claves
habet interitus et salutis, she keeps the keys of his life: his fortune
ebbs and flows with her favour, a gracious or bad aspect turns him up or
down,
Mens mea lucescit Lucia luce tua. Howsoever his present state be
pleasing or displeasing, 'tis continuate so long as he
[5329]loves, he can
do nothing, think of nothing but her; desire hath no rest, she is his
cynosure, Hesperus and vesper, his morning and evening star, his goddess,
his mistress, his life, his soul, his everything; dreaming, waking, she is
always in his mouth; his heart, his eyes, ears, and all his thoughts are
full of her. His Laura, his Victorina, his Columbina, Flavia, Flaminia,
Caelia, Delia, or Isabella, (call her how you will) she is the sole object
of his senses, the substance of his soul,
nidulus animae suae, he
magnifies her above measure,
totus in illa, full of her, can breathe
nothing but her. “I adore Melebaea,” saith lovesick
[5330]Calisto, “I
believe in Melebaea, I honour, admire and love my Melebaea;” His soul was
soused, imparadised, imprisoned in his lady. When
[5331]Thais took her
leave of Phaedria,—
mi Phaedria, et nunquid aliud vis? Sweet heart (she
said) will you command me any further service? he readily replied, and gave
in this charge,